Am I a boring sober loser?

That’s our biggest fear when we quit drinking isn’t it? That other people are going to think we are boring sober losers who are to be avoided at all costs.

Or maybe the truth is we are the ones doing the accusing, considering ourselves to be boring sober losers.

It was certainly my biggest fear. Without booze on board how could I keep being the crazy party girl, the awesome host (always with wine on hand to offer guests), or the fun friend with the twinkle in her eye chatting freely and having a loose time.

Without booze on board I thought I couldn’t possibly still be any of those things, and so the obvious alternative (fear) was that I would turn into boring sober Lotta, with nothing to offer.

I mean, what complete utter f**king bollocks! I mean seriously… this is the twisted addict thinking that we fall prey to when we are so intrenched in a boozy state of mind.

Why would not drinking alcohol suddenly negate any positive qualities that we might naturally own? Why would having an un-inebriated brain remove our naturally interesting personalities, kind hearts, or curious brains?

I’m still a crazy party girl. I danced for four hours straight at a friend's 50th recently! I’m still an awesome, upbeat host – I love making people feel comfortable in my home. And I still get a twinkle in my eye whenever there’s fun to be had. Look at me mountain biking recently! I don’t need booze for any of it.

Like so much of what we fear when we first get sober it is absolute bulls**t to think that we turn into boring sober losers when we stop drinking.

Sure, we might be quieter in a group setting or leave events earlier than before (I’ve done all of those things recently as well), but that doesn’t mean we’re boring. On the contrary it quite possibly means that all the other people who are drinking  have become boring. Or maybe it just means we’re taking a back seat because we don’t feel the need to push ourselves forward, or we’re taking steps to look after ourselves and treat ourselves kindly – and both of those things are pretty bloody smart if you ask me.

I get why we have this fear though. Living a boozy life is living with dramatic moments, grand gestures, wild and crazy antics, or heightened interactions .. and living a sober life is not.

Living a sober life is about having genuine moments, meaningful gestures, authentic fun and heartfelt interactions. Quite often subtle and low key, but always rewarding and fulfilling.

I know which life I’d choose. And frankly, if anyone thinks I’m a boring sober loser then that’s their problem, not mine.

Love, Mrs D xxx