Sober Story: Jill

This week’s Sober Story comes from Jill, a 62-year-old living in Nelson.


Mrs D: How long have you been in recovery?

Jill: Just on 5 years now.

Mrs D: What can you tell us about the last months/years of your drinking before you gave up?

Jill: I had already given up the binge drinking in public places, bars etc. so I had got it down to just drinking at home. However I became so locked into that and needed to be a lone drinker not wanting to drink with others. The starting gun went off at 6pm and I drank only until dinner time – the problem was dinner could be at all hours of the night!

Mrs D: What was the final straw that led you to get sober?

Jill: A young family member had a bad night on the booze, his mum asked me to have a talk with him and while I was giving him ‘counselling’ I said to him “I can’t talk to you about drinking when I have an alcohol problem” and in that moment I vowed never to drink again. He did too but unfortunately only lasted 6 weeks – why? Because he did not really think he had a drinking problem – he still drinks too much and probably won’t address it until he has another crisis.

Mrs D: How was it for you in the early days? What was most difficult?

Jill: I hate to say this but I never looked back! It was so damn easy I felt guilty because I always expected there would be more pain for the gain. Having said that I had a year of counselling a year prior to giving up and had gained an understanding of why I needed to drink every day. So I was actually relieved when I made the final decision to stop, relieved and so committed.

Mrs D: What reaction did you get from family & friends when you started getting sober?

Jill: My close family were delighted and I have to say I was damned proud of myself. Others had no idea of my problem because I hid it so well and I am surprised when I do talk about it just how many are worrying about their own drinking habits.

Mrs D: Experts say relapse is often a part of recovery, was it a feature of yours?

Jill: No relapse! I had made the decision never to drink again and I did not want to go through the procrastination involved in me giving up in the first place.

Mrs D: How long did it take for things to start to calm down for you emotionally & physically?

Jill: It happened quickly because I was ready after having been in counselling for a year and so determined. At the same time as I stopped drinking I also joined the gym and started seeing a personal trainer. I saw him weekly for four years .. and from both of those things combined I lost 40kilos, got incredibly fit and came off around 8 medications as well … so I think the desire to be healthy also played a part in my giving up. You see, I was not just addicted to alcohol, but fatty food as well.

Mrs D: How hard was it getting used to socialising sober?

Jill: I don’t go out socialising at night any more as I just enjoy being at home – however as I have made the commitment to stay dry the family gatherings where there is alcohol are no problem whatsoever.

Mrs D: Was there anything surprising that you learned about yourself when you stopped drinking?

Jill: How strong my resolve is when I make my mind up to do something that previously I thought I couldn’t do.

Mrs D: How did your life change?

Jill: The freedom from not having to organise my whole day around the “daily start gun” that went off like clockwork at 6pm every day. I always had to be aware of the time and what supplies I had in stock. I never went to so many family gatherings because they ate too early and I could not adapt to fit in with them. Now I am free to choose where I go and when.

Mrs D: What are the main benefits that emerged for you from getting sober?

Jill: What I really appreciate now is the freedom to accept invitations without time restraints. The freedom to eat my dinner at a time I choose. Being able to remember every conversation I have after 6pm. Not having to avoid people the next day. Waking up in my own bed. Being nice to my family. The list of positives goes on and on. I cannot think of a single negative affect of me not drinking. Oh and the financial gain!

Mrs D: Would you do anything differently given the chance to go through the process again?

Jill: I would have got counselling years before I did and then I would not have developed the 25-year-long daily habit in the first place.

Mrs D: What advice or tips would you have for those who are just starting on this journey?

Jill: Get some professional help before you give up. This will give you an insight as to why you drink, and the strength to give it away. And don’t give yourself too much pressure! Give it away for yourself, not to please other. And be kind to yourself, don’t try to do it alone. If you need some help ask for it because there is help out there. And don’t be scared to invest financially as I did in my Gym Trainer. Once you stop drinking you will easily be able to transfer the drinking fund into your health fund.

Mrs D: Anything else you’d like to share?

Jill: I believe there are different types of drinkers. Some are genetically disposed and others more emotionally clinging on to the habit. For me it was emotional and I could have a drink now without physically craving it the next day– however the daily habit would creep in again eventually so I choose not to even flirt with the idea. A friend of mine is a chronic alcoholic and after some years sober he recently fell off the wagon. He soon lost control and was drinking from first thing in the morning until the days end. He is a health professional and after some months of trying to work with him to help him into recovery his employers regretfully were forced to terminate his employment. He could not just stop like I did and went for help to AA and his Dr. He chose the antibuse medication to help his resolve to quit and stay sober. He has now been dry for three months and has had his old job offered back to him. What impressed me about him was his honesty – he needed help and was not scared to knock on my door drunk!

Jill Sober Story

  1. Ro 7 years ago

    What a wonderfully inspiring interview. Thank you @jilly0777 for sharing 🙂

  2. Square-Peg 7 years ago

    Wow well done and very inspiring

  3. Gilbert 9 years ago

    Thanks for sharing your story Jilly0777. I quit smoking several times before I finally nailed it 15 years ago so I know the power of addictions.I only want to quit booze once too.:D

    • jilly0777 9 years ago

      Yeah Gilbert quitting smoking took me 3 times – I was an obsessive smoker too with a 50 a day habit and even more when I went to the pub ( and that was about 5 days out of 7). I gave up for 6 years and after one puff – yes I was drunk- I lost control and smoked again for another 5 years. I finally stopped for good about 14 years ago. Alcohol & smoking went together and although I did not give up drinking when I quit the smokes I did stop the pub life.

  4. russell 9 years ago

    Well done Jill, I can so relate to your comment about organising your life around alcohol, I was drinking midday sometimes earlier and every morning started with thinking about my first drink and how to organise myself and others to accommodate my habit. Such a relief to be off that particular treadmill and the stupid decisions it led to. 22 days now, antabuse and efexor and lorazepam huge help, fingers crossed. Cheers Russell.

    • jilly0777 9 years ago

      Fingers crossed mixed in with grit & determination I bet you have it all! -Good on you Russell. 22 days is long enough for you to know just how trapped you were and long enough to organize your life around better things. Don’t feel you need to come off the med’s sometime soon either because they will be helping your resolve……

  5. pearl 9 years ago

    Thanks for sharing @jilly0777. I am pleased and confounded about the “easy” time I have had removing alcohol from my life. Once I decided to stop I have not been tempted to follow through on the idea that a wine would be nice…so grateful for that. I agree with the different types of drinkers idea , it’s almost like there is a spectrum of issues from minor stuff to serious/life threatening stuff, but there is the common bond/theme of “alcohol is poison to me and I have to stop drinking it”. I would add “for ever” as I’m an all or nothing kind of girl. I’m so impressed with the fantastic turn around you achieved with your health, well done!

    • jilly0777 9 years ago

      Good on you Pearl for finding it easy like I did. It’s the procrastinating for me that was hard because I was scared that I couldn’t do it. I was in a state of procrastination for years!

  6. Sheepish 9 years ago

    Thanks for the story Jill. i think that’s a really incisive observation to say there are two kinds of drinkers. It helps us who don’t fit into the classic alcoholic stereotype to think about our problem. And well done on your brilliant resolve. You’re a good advert for making the decision to stop drinking once and once only.

    • jilly0777 9 years ago

      Thanks Sheepish for taking the time to read my story. I think that word ‘alcoholic immediately puts you into a box with a label on it. And it’s hard to explain to people that you need to drink but may not actually be an alcoholic in the true sense of the word.

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