Not caring what other people think

text: "what other people think of me is none of my business"

One of my biggest fears when I stopped drinking was how other people would take the new sober me. Would they judge me harshly and think of me as boring? Would they not want me around because I’d morphed into a Goody Two Shoes? Would they pity me and think of me as a down-and-out loser? Would they act supportive but not genuinely feel that way? Or worst of all - would they actively discourage me from getting sober because they didn’t want to lose their drinking buddy?

Worrying about other people’s reactions was one of the hardest things to deal with when I got sober, and that’s saying something given how many other tough things I had going on at the time. Here I was trying desperately to re-frame my identity as a non-drinker, deal with my emotions in the raw and change my hard-wired thinking about alcohol, while also worrying constantly about what other people were thinking. What a minefield.

The truth is I knew how some people would judge sober me because I used to judge non-drinkers harshly myself. When I was a boozer I found non-drinkers very puzzling. I probably wouldn’t go out of my way to make friends with anyone if I knew they didn’t share my predilection for wine guzzling. I certainly wouldn’t seek them out at a party.

So when I got sober I had to fight to turn around my own former prejudices while also preparing myself to fight potential prejudices in the minds of others. All the while working on beating cravings and carving out a new sober life and identity for myself.

In the end I decided that the best thing to do was to not worry about what other people were thinking. Despite knowing from my own experience that they may think of me as boring or lame, I decided that it just didn't matter and tried to remain very focused on myself, my own mind, and the truth as only I knew it.

Because I was the only one who knew the truth. I knew without a shadow of a doubt that I had a major problem with alcohol and things had to change. I also knew that my drinking didn’t look from the outside like the major problem it was.

No-one else could see me slumped pissed and alone on the sofa at 9pm night after night after night. No-one else could feel my guilt and misery at 3am. No-one else could see me dragging my hungover, sorry arse out of bed at 7am every morning. No-one else could hear my obsessive, flip/flopping thoughts throughout each day (7am - I have a serious problem. Midday - Do I really have a problem? 4pm - I don’t have a problem).

No-one else knew the truth. But I knew the truth. And I had to stay very focussed on that truth if I was to change things for the better. So I did that. I stayed focussed on my truth. To do otherwise might have led me back down into a boozy hell-hole and I was not going to let that happen.   

Stay focussed on your truth.

You know the truth about your drinking and the impact it is having on your life. What other people think simply doesn’t matter. It can’t matter. This is your life and you are saving it. Stay focussed on your truth and stop drinking regardless of the reactions of the people around you. This focus on the truth will help you stay determined and driven - two qualities needed in early sobriety (which is hard bloody work).

The other benefit of staying focused on your truth is that it will lead you to be very clear in the language you use when talking about your decision. I was very straightforward when I told people I had quit. I didn’t make myself sound uncertain or confused. I was unequivocal in my messaging: “I’ve stopped drinking because I have a problem.” There’s not a lot of debate to be had after that. Often my family and friends would look surprised (“Really? Were you that bad?”) but I’d go to that place of truth inside myself and nod firmly or reiterate with a simple, “Yes I was that bad.” On occasion someone might push the issue: “You weren’t that bad were you? Can’t you just have one every now and then? Does it have to be forever?” and again I’d keep my replies short and firm. “Yes I was that bad. No I can’t just have one every now and again. Yes it does have to be forever.”

They didn’t know my truth. And they also probably didn’t know very much about addiction or recovery either. While I might have felt like I was rapidly becoming an expert on addiction and recovery, most of my friends and family had no knowledge of this world at all. All the more reason to not pay their reactions much heed. So I cut them some slack and didn’t let their queries get to me.

Forgive your loved ones for not getting it.

They’ll come around eventually when they see you go through an incredible, uplifting transformation. You may find you end up raising their awareness of addiction and recovery, or they may never fully understand - either outcome has to be fine. What matters is that you are working hard to become the best version of yourself that you can be. So forgive your friends and family if they don’t understand and maybe (hopefully) eventually they’ll start to get it.

I did have one friend tell me she missed drinking with me. And yes, it did hurt at the time. But I just told myself she didn’t understand what a huge and necessary deal this was for me. I had to laugh the comment off and hope our friendship would survive the change (it did and we still have great, fun times together).

I also had an old colleague hassle me at a party for being boring. “You used to be so fun!” he said while lounging drunkenly on a chair in a bar. I laughed and felt a bit uncomfortable but also knew he had absolutely no idea how much calmer I felt without a belly full of wine. I was sorry he thought me boring but to be honest I found drunk him a little boring too. (I also knew I’d be driving myself home later, would sleep fantastically and wake up with no guilt or hangover.)

I was fortunate not to have anyone wage a campaign of “Keep Mrs D Boozing”. I think that would be very difficult to contend with and I feel for anyone who has that mammoth hurdle to overcome. If someone is pushing you hard to keep drinking, then it might be time to question that relationship. Surround yourself with people who want to support you making this monumental change for the better. That leads me to my final recommendation.

Communicate regularly with people who understand what you are doing.

Find people who know what it’s like to get sober. You can do this by attending meetings in your community, joining online recovery communities like this one, or tapping into any one of the groups or social media pages available online. The people in these spaces are your new tribe and you need them. They won’t question your motives. They won’t try to convince you to keep drinking. They won’t hassle you for being boring. They know you’re a kick-arse sober warrior who is being brave and amazing by getting sober.

Because that is what all of us sober people are - awesome kick-arse warriors.

Love, Mrs D xxx

17 Comments
  1. pullingl 4 days ago

    Stay focused on the truth! A simple yet huge statement. I found that in most cases socializing sober was my issue and not theirs. I kept saying to myself, I wonder what they will think? Most didn’t think anything but it took awhile for me to realize that. I was trying to stay to my goal of another day sober but I more appreciate now staying to the Truth! The truth is this is my life and I want to do it for myself. What others think is there issue and I won’t let that get in my head. I apologize for this next statement because I don’t wish anyone to suffer but I smile when I wake up in the morning after sleeping well and refreshed and knowing that someone else is waking up at the best feeling sluggish. Mornings are the best.

    Thank you for this wonderful essay.

  2. Taffy 2 weeks ago

    I’m one month sober after drinking a bottle or more of wine 2 to 3 nights a week. It’s been mostly fine but I did have a craving at a recent Celebration of Life garden party last weekend. It was sunny and warm and champagne was being poured. I stuck to tonic water though. People have not really noticed so I didn’t worry about what they thought. I’ve been going to Smart meetings and I like them. They are very different from AA. I love the great sleep I’ve been getting and don’t miss the hangovers!

  3. Cinderella 3 weeks ago

    Definitely love being a kick-arse sober warrior Mrs D. I have had on the main some awesome comments about not drinking, especially from people who would dearly love to give up the dependency themselves but haven’t quite found their determination yet. However, because I have not craved alcohol in the 529 days of being alcohol free they think then that I must NOT have an addiction. Well, I can assure them that one glass is all it would take to blow that theory out of this world. Thank you for the continued supply of inspiring posts that help us to navigate around our new sober surroundings💜

  4. truthangel 3 weeks ago

    Thank you Mrs D. It’s a big thing to quit the booze and a lot of big reasons others don’t get. There’s often a lot of stuff to deal with after stopping. I have to learn to live all over again and manage fear, raging anxiety and deep grief that I anaesthetised with booze, quietly on my own at home. The last couple of weeks of my drinking was horrific. When it wasn’t a normal thing for me to black out, drunk text and get nasty, all these things I ended up doing in my last 2 weeks. It no longer worked and I have to live with the regret for the rest of my life. When it went from hurting me to hurting others that was the end for me. I’m determined to live out the rest of my days sober. I don’t want to be around boozers. I don’t have anything in common with them. I don’t want to say another mean thing to another person.

  5. Leigh 3 weeks ago

    Thank you for writing this…….I am 90 days sober tomorrow and was feeling very wobbly last week. No-one knows how bad my drinking had become but that really doesn’t matter……I know!!! My family says things to me like, “If you were able to quit just like that…..you were not a “real” alcoholic. Thanks for reminding me that what I know to be my own truth is all that really matters!!!

  6. Happy2019 3 weeks ago

    This is exactly what I experienced. Like every big change in life it’s MY decision, it’s ME who knows why, what and how, but all the others don’t know, it’s none of their business, they are not in the process. So I have to do MY business for myself and I can’t expect all others understanding what I’m doing, why I’m doing it and if it’s necessary or not. It’s great when they act supportive and I think they should respect my decision, even if they don’t understand what was going on with me. But sometimes relationships change, too. If drinking was the only connection between me an them and boozing is such an important thing in our relation – good bye!

  7. Elsa1202 3 weeks ago

    Again- your timing and your words are perfect. Thank you so much for the reminder. Our truth is all that really matters and living life free of alcohol is the only way. I still find the socialising thing tricky but this version of me is the only real one and if people don’t like it- that’s their loss – not mine!

  8. SoberDaisy 3 weeks ago

    Thank you, thank you, thank you. I needed those words. It makes so much sense Stay Focused in YOUR Truth, I’m going to hold that one close.

    • TimetobeSober 3 weeks ago

      What a great read. It describes perfectly the different issues that people, who want to give up drinking, struggle with. Well, I certainly did, the hurdle that made me stumble on many occasions was other people’s perception of what I was doing. Not important. It is all about personal truth. I will take “What other people think of me is none of my business” to other situations in my life, too, as I spend far too much time and energy worrying about it. Thank you so much for this inspirational post!

    • TimetobeSober 3 weeks ago

      What a great read. It describes perfectly the different issues which people, who want to give up drinking, struggle with. Well, I certainly did, the hurdle that made me stumble on many occasions was other people’s perception of what I was doing. Not important. It is all about personal truth. Thank you so much for this inspirational post!

  9. Hammer123 3 weeks ago

    7:00am – I have a serious problem, midday – do I really have a problem, 4:00pm I don’t have a problem. I really relate to that comment, that was my thinking for a lot of years. Thanks for the great post!

  10. Shell43 3 weeks ago

    Thanks so much, I’m struggling to be sober me, your words make perfect sense, I just need to find the strength, I know it’s in me somewhere xxx

  11. JM 3 weeks ago

    Yes, yes, this makes so much sense. It is all about personal truth. While it may work for others, that’s totally irrelevant for me. It makes me look awful, feel stupid, say untrue things, and do stuff that I may regret for a lifetime. No thanks! Thank you @mrs-d for your truth. 😃🌈

  12. Mari135 4 weeks ago

    I am really grateful you keep being so active on here, Mrs. D

    oxoxoxoxox
    This was a lovely read, yet again, and a very timely reminder to tune down my people-pleasing attempts. oxoxox

  13. Ellen 4 weeks ago

    So true! Thank you so much for sharing

  14. Judy 4 weeks ago

    Fantastic article, thanks Mrs D. Looking forward to book number 3

  15. Ladyhawke 4 weeks ago

    Love this article. I can so relate to every part of it especially that hamster wheel dialogue I used to have in my head about how bad or not my drinking was. I finally stopped the wheel when I decided it was certainly bad enough and especially worse at 4pm. Yes we are all kick-arse sober warriors and proud of it.

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