I've been binge drinking most of my adult life.
I've experienced so much shame and suffering from drinking, it's not a good friend to me.
I don't like who drinking makes me, as someone who's naturally shy, I drink too feel more confident and for the fun it creates, but it's never fun really, I turn into a person I'm not: obnoxious, promiscuous.
So here I am, scared but ready to change. Day 1, July 9th 2019
In saying this, some men I really liked and would have pursued but ruined things with my drinking antics. I’m like the crazy drunk girl, good for fucking but out of control and not gf material. Can we swear on here? 😉
I’m new here, history of binge drinking. One reoccuring theme is that I get drunk and have sex with men I’m not remotely attracted to sober, and I’ve invited countless complete strangers into my home for sex.
Hey im new here and starting Antabuse today. I like how it takes the decision to drink out of your hands!! Ive tried it before but I forget to take it for a few days and then I’ll use that as an excuse I may as well drink. I’m going to keep it by my bed with water so no excuses to forget. Such a cool drug to have. Wish you all the best on your journey xx
The tiredness does get better, for me it was a real problem come the afternoon I was not functioning. Sleep when you need to if you can, be kind to yourself, eat well. You are spending a lot of mental and emotional energy on staying sober and your body is chucking out a lot of toxins so you will feel tired. Hang in there day 7 is good.
I’ve been binge drinking most of my adult life. I’ve experienced so much shame and suffering from drinking, it’s not a good friend to me. I don’t like who drinking makes me, as someone who’s naturally shy, I drink too feel more confident and for the fun it creates, but it’s never fun really, I turn into a person I’m not: obnoxious, promiscuous. So here I am, scared but ready to change. Day 1, July 9th 2019
You made the right choice plus you came to the right place. You can do this. Congrats on starting day one – day 333 for me! The sober life is a great life. It won’t be easy but it will be worth it. Good luck.
Oh, don’t I know that woman quite well, the obnoxious, promiscuous one. You’ve come to the right place, I believe. And, just keep staying on track here. Since being on this site, I’ve gone from binge drinking to point of blackout at least 2 times per year to no blackouts in 4 years. And, though I’m not always sober, I have gone from regularly drinking 4-5 nights per week to periods of weeks and months without and when I go back, it’s usually less than 2 nights per week. So, while sober all the time would be fantastic, don’t let the shame suck you into not continuing to try. I highly recommend looking up the harm reduction websites as well. Peace out!
Hi there, I could of written your post. Every word. I’m a few days in, not focusing on numbers as this is the way for me now. I’ve spent years torturing myself over what I’ve done whilst under the influence, from crazy, promiscuous, damn right embarrassing, low and the just stupidly dangerous. I realised alcohol just makes me into an obnoxious tIt actually, the most uncool person in the room. Once I realised that after 20+ years I’ve forgiven myself, as I know now it truly wasn’t me, and that’s why it has to go. For me there isn’t one benefit that comes from drinking, just a lot of embarrassment, health issues, and a total block on my life’s plans and time I need to do anything. You sound like you’re beating yourself up over drunken actions, I hope you can see just this day, a new change proves you know deep down you are not totally to blame for them. Move on up and out, embrace the new you! 😊
I was the same @turquoiseandteal. Not really shy but not nearly as rambunctious (being polite to myself) as I was drunk. It’s nice not to have to wake up and wonder who, what, where was I last night. We get to rewrite the script. The first week is tough, emotions flying about and perhaps a bit sick but whats around the corner is so worth it. Hang tight and keep posting!
Good for you @Turquoiseandteal. Day 134 here and loving it. I wouldn’t describe myself as shy necessarily, but since I’ve become sober I listen much more than I speak. Alcohol made me a boorish know it all who actually knew very little about a great many things. Yes. I certainly experienced my share of everything mentioned by everyone else who replied to your post – embarrassment, stupid actions, dangerous activities, unhealthy lifestyle, the whole thing. From stupid drunken blunders to full out black outs. I’m so happy to finally put all that behind me and begin to actually ‘be’ the person I really am inside. Good luck to you. Come here often. It’s a Godsend. Every single day that you move forward gets you farther from where you were. Sending good wishes for you today.