• timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 4 days, 4 hours ago

    Hey! I wrote an update last night and posted it but it disappeared ☹️
    I haven’t been the best tbh, I’ve had a few mental health struggles, things that my drinking had covered up. But I am working through them with my therapist so hanging in there 😊. Still sober though, 301 days! Very proud of that!
    I have my work experience placement in a couple of weeks, I am working at Emerge Aotearoa at a residential facility which will be super interesting!
    How are you lovely xxx

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 1 month ago

    How awesome! Go you!

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 1 month ago

    Wow, seven 13 year old boys! You are brave to take that on!

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 1 month ago

    I found the supermarket so hard in the beginning, it was such a temptation! Well done to you for getting through!

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 1 month ago

    I am sooo keen @enzedgirl!!!

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 1 month ago

    Just me, myself and I as always! Glad to feel balanced again as I have my first operation next week! Don’t need to add any craziness to that, just rest and recovery!

  • timidwarrior posted an update 1 month ago

    Wow it’s been a full on week. I experienced an episode of mania! Holy crap! That was crazy. I felt invincible, couldn’t sleep and had and engaged in some risky behavior….
    I finally came out of it Thursday, I was beyond exhausted!
    I felt very emotional after that so I decided to get creative and have been painting and drawing how I have been feeling. It is so therapeutic! I haven’t painted in years and I love it! I need to work on am assignment but but drive to paint is competing with that hahaha.
    Thank god I am back to my normal balance.
    Life can be a rollercoaster at times that’s for sure!
    But I am still sober and proud 🤘🤘🤘

    • Snap! had a very similar week – missed three days of work and others had to cover for me, but am also sober today. I am going to join a gym tomorrow and start some yoga / meditation sessions. Rollarcoaster for sure. Glad you’re feeling more balanced today. Sounds like something positive has come out of a challenging week.

    • God huge achievement staying AF thru that timid 😳

      Have you got someone looking after you?

      • Just me, myself and I as always! Glad to feel balanced again as I have my first operation next week! Don’t need to add any craziness to that, just rest and recovery!

    • It does sound exhausting @timidwarrior, as well as like it opened a vault. I hope you get some rest in this week before your op. xxx

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 1 month ago

    Ummm OMG!!! Are you ok?!?!

    • Yes, surgery was successful. I still have a headache but they are managing that with meds. Hopefully I can go home soon. 🙂 Today is Day 10. I think this is what I needed to stop drinking. Sad to say, I know.

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago

    Big hugs to you lovely, you are here and you are trying and that is all you can ask for. You are amazingly strong and have been through so much this past year and you are still here surviving, so massive hugs and love coming your way from me xxx
    Be easy and gentle on yourself, you can do this, i dont doubt it ❤❤❤

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago

    Good on you for getting straight back on the sober horse lovely, one bad day doesn’t undo the 127 sober days. You are strong and you can do this, look after yourself missy xxx

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago

    Thank you @enzedgirl, it’s been a crazy last few weeks but I am proud of the way I have handled it all!

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago

    Thank you @iowadawn x
    My time will come ❤️

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago

    Thank you for your kind words, that made me smile xxx

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago

    Thank you so much lovely ❤️❤️❤️

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago

    Thank you xxx. I have definitely grown a lot this last year!

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago

    Thank you so much! It is the right decision for me right now 😊

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago

    Thank you lovely, it is nice to know it was on my terms x

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago

    Thank you x I feel at peace with my decision and I look forward to future opportunities!

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago

    Aww thank you lovely ❤️❤️

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago

    Thank you 😊

  • Hello one and all, I hope you are all doing fabulously!
    I have been quiet on here recently, I have just had a lot going on and it’s been a rollercoaster of emotions lately! But I am still sober and feeling very grateful to be!
    I was offered the job this week which was amazing, however unfortunately due to my upcoming operations I have had to turn down the job, the timing just isn’t right.
    I am disappointed but know deep down it was the right decision. It will be a stressful next couple of months with a lot of unknowns, so unfortunately I couldn’t commit to what they needed from me
    But I know that the reason it didn’t work out was only due to my current circumstances, not because of me. I know they really liked me and we’re keen to get me on board and actually offered me the job so this gives me confidence for future job opportunities when the time is right
    Right now I need to focus on my health so I am able to say yes to the next opportunity!
    Onwards and upwards xxx

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 1 month, 2 weeks ago

    Oh wow so close to that first soberversary!!! You are amazing, love your work ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️😍😍😍😍😍😁😁😁😁👌👌👌👌👌🤘🤘🤘🤘🤘🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 1 month, 2 weeks ago

    Yes!!! Great post ❤️❤️❤️

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 1 month, 2 weeks ago

    You are amazing lovely ❤️ Keep doing what you’re doing xxx

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 1 month, 2 weeks ago

    Beautiful post ❤️. So glad you enjoyed your night sober and grateful x

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 1 month, 2 weeks ago

    Yes! In the early days those arguments in your head are constant! But slowly they will become less and less and then one day you will realise, wow, I’ve just gotten though a whole day and not thought about alcohol!
    Stay strong and take it day by day, you are doing an amazing job!

    • Thanks everyone for your words of encouragement – I really appreciate it! You’re all so inspirational and I love that you have lots of good news for me 😉

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 1 month, 2 weeks ago

    Yum! I wish I could come round for a feast at your place!!!

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 1 month, 2 weeks ago

    Wow congratulations on your impressive day count, you are rocking sobriety ❤️🤘

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 1 month, 2 weeks ago

    Wow happy day 1200!!! Total legend ❤️
    Be patient, give your body lots of time and kindness and support – LOVE this line you wrote, so perfectly true

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 1 month, 2 weeks ago

    Have a fabulous day x

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 1 month, 3 weeks ago

    Trundling peacefully along is definitely something to be greatful for x
    I was talking with my therapist on Wednesday about how grateful I am to be sober and how it’s made everything become a lot clearer and feels more manageable. It’s a good feeling to have ❤️🤘

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 1 month, 3 weeks ago

    Hey @liberty thanks for the message x
    My op is on July 25th so coming up soon! I have a CT scan on Monday and an appointment with my specialist on Friday to go over a surgery and recovery plan and see if there has been any changes in my kidney stones.
    I have been dull aches and pains around my left kidney so I’m hoping they bloody stay in place until my op! I don’t want to experience the horrific pain of passing them!!!
    Fingers crossed it all goes smoothly!
    How are you lovely x😊❤️

    • Ooh it’s all happening – I wish you well and it’ll be a full-on couple of weeks.
      I’m ok thanks @timidwarrior, @jocord asked me the same a few days ago and lamely I haven’t even managed an answer (sorry jocord!) as I feel there’s so little to report – life is trundling on peaceably and I was thinking tonight how very blessed I am that that is the case. xxx

      • Trundling peacefully along is definitely something to be greatful for x
        I was talking with my therapist on Wednesday about how grateful I am to be sober and how it’s made everything become a lot clearer and feels more manageable. It’s a good feeling to have ❤️🤘

      • I was a bit annoyed as soon as I hit ‘post’ on that on as it paints a much rosier picture than is real. I think I find it a bit intimidating here now with so many people, to say what’s really happening. But it’s true last night I was deeply content to rest and go to bed early and be warm. I agree with what you said to your therapist, @timidwarrior, being sober is a rock in the ocean isn’t it? That ocean is still that overwhelming, beautiful, wild, cold bottomless thing that it is. xxx

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 1 month, 3 weeks ago

    Still waiting! I’m hoping no news is good news lol the waiting is driving me crazy!

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 1 month, 4 weeks ago

    Hey @hammer123 I am doing well. I have been shortlisted for the job I applied for so just waiting to hear back!!! Fingers crossed! The waiting is driving me crazy!
    Still sober which is awesome and have enjoying my 3 week study break, but back into it next week!
    Hope all is well with you!

  • So I had my job interview yesterday and I totally nailed it! It went so so well and the job and the people sound just so amazing!!!
    However due to the hours I would have to work I would need to swap the day my ex and I do our kid exchange on from Friday night to Saturday morning…no big deal right! Apparently it is for my ex and he is refusing to do this as it interferes with his free time!!!
    I don’t believe in violence but man I imagined hurting him in all sorts of ways last night!!!
    I am SO angry!!! It is literally a matter of hours changing from Friday night to first thing Saturday morning and he won’t do it!
    I explained how important this is to me and how big an opportunity it will be for me if I get the job and he is just being a complete asshole!!!
    Am I being unreasonable asking him to do this for me? I can’t see past my anger and I really need some advice!

    • You are not being unreasonable. Sounds like he is, but that doesn’t help you. Is there a way you can do this without changing the switch time? Cause it sounds like he is going to dig in his heels about this. I’m sure others will have some good insight that may be helpful.

    • Have a think about ‘what’s in it for him?’ Sometimes that brings out an idea which may persuade him to agree. Hope that helps. Plus you could sleep on it as your subconscious may come up with an idea when you calm down.

      • Ewe, he’s one of them. Give it a bit of time and have faith that it will work out but in the meantime maybe there’s someone else that could help out for that short period of time. Congrats on the job! Don’t let him spoil the excitement, things will work out. 🙂

    • Well truth be told he doesn’t have to and that’s okay. Do you feel unsupported by this? What’s behind the anger? Just go ahead and work out another plan. I used to say to a friend well if your ex was dead what would you do, you would find a way. Have they offered you the job? Well done on acing the interview 😁

    • Congrats on smashing your job interview – that’s huge 🙂 The other stuff will work it’s way out – you’ll see.

    • Congratulations on your new job, thrilled for you, well done!!! I would try and get someone else to help you out in the short term, that way you remove the angst of dealing with him. ❤️

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 2 months, 1 week ago

    Eeekkk! Thank you ❤️

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 2 months, 1 week ago

    Thank you so much xxx

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 2 months, 1 week ago

    Thank you ❤️

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 2 months, 1 week ago

    Thank you!!! ❤️

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 2 months, 1 week ago

    I am confident, I am confident, that is my mantra for the next couple of days!!!

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 2 months, 1 week ago

    Aww thank you lovely ❤️

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 2 months, 1 week ago

    I was the same, I was attracting the wrong type of guys when I was drinking, I also didn’t like myself so thought I didn’t deserve any better. But I have been working on it a lot in therapy and feel like I am ready to get back out there and date with a sober mind!!!

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 2 months, 1 week ago

    Good on you for taking extra special care of yourself xxx

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 2 months, 1 week ago

    Yes go you! You have absolutely nothing to fear and he is totally shooting himself in the foot!
    Stay strong lovely xxx

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 2 months, 1 week ago

    Hahaha yes go you!!!

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 2 months, 1 week ago

    Great flexing of your sober muscles and not putting yourself in triggering situations! Do what’s right for you right now lovely xxx

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 2 months, 1 week ago

    I like be this post ❤️❤️❤️

  • So I had my first sober date last night!
    The guy was a great person with a great attitude about life but unfortunately I felt no chemistry, no spark, but that’s ok. I still had a great night and some nice food so it wasn’t a total loss!
    I feel like I have gained a new found confidence in myself which is a really nice feeling to have, it is something that I have not felt before so I must give huge props to my therapist who has helped me get to this point!
    In exciting news I also have a job interview on Monday for a role actually related to my studies! I am so excited for this and feel my new found self confidence will definitely be a big bonus for this interview!
    Right now apart from my health issues life is pretty good and I’m feeling pretty happy! It’s been a long time since I have felt this good about myself and my life! Long may it continue ❤️❤️❤️

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 2 months, 1 week ago

    I love this, thank you x

  • timidwarrior posted a new activity comment 2 months, 1 week ago

    Thank you for your lovely words x
    Congratulations on your impressive day count!

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