So when does a nearly 50yr old single mum of three, a Nanna to one, a health professional of all things, a fun type some may say with a good sense of humour decide that enough is enough ??? I’ve know deep inside for a very long time that enough really is enough but have chosen to just ignore it and find a myriad of excuses to just keep on doing it “Nah -it’s OK”Well,actually it’s not OK and its about as far from OK as it gets ...... once upon a time it was fun but it stopped being fun a long time ago..... night after night it’s the same endless conversations in my head about maybe tonight I won’t have a drink - but of course I always do, and of course it never stops at a drink or two ...... I just lose track of how many eventually.So when a social evening with friends in a bar ends with me secretly vomiting in the toilet the sudden self realisation and acceptance that I’m not like anyone else has finally hit home .....I can’t just have a social drink and then STOP..... oh no I can’t help from keep tipping this alcohol stuff down my neck.... I have to keep going till I can barely stand ....keep going until a poor friend of mine yet again has to ‘rescue’ me....put me to bed to sleep it off ....Then I wake in the morning, or at 3am, with memory blanks of the night before and im left in a very dark and depressed embarrassed place having to endure hours of remorseful critical internal punishment. .So finally this Boozy Bird has accepted that Enough is Enough ...... I want to stop...The ride to sober starts this week ..... Let’s go x
@tewy, I felt similar at the beginning and I think many do, you don’t have the poison to numb your feelings. Ride it out for another week, the pink cloud should arrive and then you will feel great and be thankful! This is a journey not a destination. Try keeping a journal in a few months you will be able to look back and see you progress more clearly!
I agree 100% with Hammer123. It takes some time to get the poison out and the real you starts to kicks in. The cloud is divine. I started to have a lot of weird physical things happening during weeks 3 and 4. Then just like that they were gone. Like a cloud lifting. Hang in there. It only gets better and you’ll be SO glad you did. Good luck!
The first few weeks are all over the place and everyone’s experience is a bit different. Keep going … it will settle down. What helped me in the early days was to read and listen as much as I could about the process … sober blogs, memoirs, podcasts, YouTube videos. Have you read Mrs D is going Without. I nodded my head the whole through saying yep, that was me. So helpful to know we’re not alone.