So when does a nearly 50yr old single mum of three, a Nanna to one, a health professional of all things, a fun type some may say with a good sense of humour decide that enough is enough ??? I’ve know deep inside for a very long time that enough really is enough but have chosen to just ignore it and find a myriad of excuses to just keep on doing it “Nah -it’s OK”Well,actually it’s not OK and its about as far from OK as it gets ...... once upon a time it was fun but it stopped being fun a long time ago..... night after night it’s the same endless conversations in my head about maybe tonight I won’t have a drink - but of course I always do, and of course it never stops at a drink or two ...... I just lose track of how many eventually.So when a social evening with friends in a bar ends with me secretly vomiting in the toilet the sudden self realisation and acceptance that I’m not like anyone else has finally hit home .....I can’t just have a social drink and then STOP..... oh no I can’t help from keep tipping this alcohol stuff down my neck.... I have to keep going till I can barely stand ....keep going until a poor friend of mine yet again has to ‘rescue’ me....put me to bed to sleep it off ....Then I wake in the morning, or at 3am, with memory blanks of the night before and im left in a very dark and depressed embarrassed place having to endure hours of remorseful critical internal punishment. .So finally this Boozy Bird has accepted that Enough is Enough ...... I want to stop...The ride to sober starts this week ..... Let’s go x
So yay I did it …..my first social party AF …… didn’t want to go – anxiety central before I went, nearly just stayed in my safe cave but I didn’t ….I put my big girl knickers on and showed up …… had my chilly bag of tonic water and lemon lime bitters cordial ….. nobody even really noticed what I was drinking to be honest !! Got offered an alcoholic punch (which I know from previous experience of this one is delicious and lethal ) but I casually declined and said ……like it was a walk in the park and water off a ducks back ……“oh I’m just having a break from the drink for a while” 🤪🤪…… i didn’t particularly enjoy the evening I felt like a stranger in my own body and extremely awkward and self conscious ….eveybody else seemed to ooze so much confidence ……..but I’m proud I did it :).
Great job! You just built up some huge sober muscles. Mrs D has a great post on socializing without alcohol, and it actually allows you to focus more on connecting with others, enjoying the food etc. There was a time when it was inconceivable to me to go to a party and not drink. I mean what was the point?!! And now I love being free from that endless cycle of when I could grab my next drink. You’re doing great.
Very well done! Like you despite being sober for nine months nearly I felt also very out of sorts at a social gathering recently. Didn’t know some of the people that well but the guy opposite me with some alcohol on board was a bit shouty and full on. Guess something to get used to. Like you left early, no real appeal to stay longer. ❤️
Good for you! You may have felt a stranger in your own body then, but I bet the world you were loving how you felt when you woke up the next morning hangover free and ready to face the day! Congrats to you. Well done!