I'm gonna keep this short for the moment. I struggle with myself and I struggle with alcohol and somehow that has got confusedly intermixed. I find it confusing and I'm sure those around me do too.I have gone sober before, not even sure for how long for - January and February this year for starters. I gave up wine for a whole year about 6 yrs back, replaced it with vodka. I've rung help lines, addiction clinics, been to government programme counsellors, been to AA, been to a female support group, prescribed antabuse. I reckon I probably started trying to deal with my problem about 8yrs back, recognising I had one about 10 yrs ago.
I guess I am what you all highly functioning though nothing could be further from the truth. I have so much more to give. Oh and this is me "keeping it short" :)
WK 3 … Strangely oscillating … oh well worse things could happen I spose – laptop got some annoying kind of pop up thing going on down – every now and then some bikini clad young thing swings by offering all sorts of things – “oh love, you are really not for me, and honestly darling is money really that hard to come by – you look pretty – you look smart – you’re my daughters age – don’t be so lazy – I’m sure you are worth more than this”. OK judgmental I know but hells bells – feminism is extremely confusing in 2019. Screamed last night in bed – woke Nice Guy up who in turn woke me up. I was screaming for help, screaming to be heard but in my dream knew I couldnt scream loud enough for help …. oops there is Anna again – cleavage and legs open – taking a selfie – please love get out of my face. Also had dreams that hadn’t studied for exams – and had to sit them. Hadn’t even turned up for the lectures. Car got towed away so couldn’t get to exams, but strangely stumbled across a job. I so nearly called Nice Guy my exes name this morning – stopped myself in time – I have warned him about that – knew it was probably going to happen in the future when I get a bit muddely puddlely – didn’t realise it was going to be when I’m 52. Anna’s back – the world loves a trier! Now someone wants to take care of my loneliness, with a Kardashian sized arse – as if that’s going to do the trick! Its going to drive me nuts people – my business is online – this is online – I’ve already run a short antivirus thing – says no viruses – checked pop-ups. But will it drive me to drink – it will not! Now I have won something – it sure is my lucky day 🙂
Wish I could help you out – I’m a system administrator, work on computers all the time! Sounds like you took some good steps removing Chrome and running your antivirus though. If you are running Windows, you could also try a system restore point to restore your computer to an earlier time before the weirdness started?