I am a working mom of 4 fantastic kids and a wife. I have been drinking heavily for a decade now. After being diagnosed with heart failure 2 and a half years ago I have made more attempts than I can count to get my drinking under control. I have been slowly drowning myself in alcohol and my body had had enough. I found this incredible group about a year ago and it has changed my life. I made it 8 months sober and reversed the damage I had done to my heart. I got my life back! And only because I gave up alcohol. After a relapse that lasted about 2 months I have recommited to an alcohol free life. Everyday I find a new reason to continue on this sober journey. For my health, my family, my job, and for MYSELF. I now have the courage to go back to school and start a new chapter in my life. To think of all I missed out on for so many years. Going through my days in a fog, only half present. I thought everything and everyone was against me and attacking me. The truth though, is that I was too blind by the booze haze I was going through life in to see all of the damage and destruction I caused myself. I was also to absorbed in my next drink to see all the hurt and disappointment I was causing those in my life. So I am moving forward. I am closing this very boozy, chaotic chapter of my life. It's difficult and uncomfortable at times, but the rewards are a true gift that I look forward to everyday.
Hi all. It’s been a trying and exhausting few days. My SIL is in the ICU and things are bleak at the moment. We are waiting for her to “wake up” and so far there has not been any progress. She has not moved or opened her eyes, she is in a ventilator and we are all just hoping she comes through ok. I have not drank. I wanted too. I REALLY wanted to. Thanking God it was not in the house. I fought with my self for the first time in almost 3 months on the way home from the hospital. But I played it through and made the right choice. Family from out of state is staying with us indefinitely, I need to be present and clear headed. I am drained. Going back to work tomorrow, at least for part of the day to catch up. This is absolutely devastating. She is young, has young kids, and it could have been prevented had she made the lifestyle changes the doctors ordered. A wake up to all of us. We have control over what we put into our body. Alcohol, cigarettes, other drugs. Our choices affect so much more than just ourselves.
I’m so sorry about your SIL. What happened? I applaud you for making the right decisions so you can get through this emotionally in the right way and be there for your family. Yes, I’m definitely more aware about what I put into my body that is for sure. I’ll say a prayer for you all.
So sorry, to hear this, @soberheart, congrats to you on staying strong, must have been the most difficult decision for you. gosh, just horrible about your sil. just horrible. thinking of you with compassion.