I am a working mom of 4 fantastic kids and a wife. I have been drinking heavily for a decade now. After being diagnosed with heart failure 2 and a half years ago I have made more attempts than I can count to get my drinking under control. I have been slowly drowning myself in alcohol and my body had had enough. I found this incredible group about a year ago and it has changed my life. I made it 8 months sober and reversed the damage I had done to my heart. I got my life back! And only because I gave up alcohol. After a relapse that lasted about 2 months I have recommited to an alcohol free life. Everyday I find a new reason to continue on this sober journey. For my health, my family, my job, and for MYSELF. I now have the courage to go back to school and start a new chapter in my life. To think of all I missed out on for so many years. Going through my days in a fog, only half present. I thought everything and everyone was against me and attacking me. The truth though, is that I was too blind by the booze haze I was going through life in to see all of the damage and destruction I caused myself. I was also to absorbed in my next drink to see all the hurt and disappointment I was causing those in my life. So I am moving forward. I am closing this very boozy, chaotic chapter of my life. It's difficult and uncomfortable at times, but the rewards are a true gift that I look forward to everyday.
Happy Saturday friends! My favorite day of the week. I have spent the last hour on the porch writing and enjoying the morning breeze and birds chattering.
I had such a great night! In an attempt to do more in the evenings I got myself up and decided the family was going into town. There was a night market and music for first Friday. We ended up at a restaurant in town and had a wonderful dinner, all of us together for the first time in awhile. Afterwards we walked home and hubs and I enjoyed coffee and conversation under the moonlight on the porch. That was followed with a round of Apples to Apples with my girls that lasted almost 2 hours. I was with it and playing a game until after 10p.m. Then I put myself to bed and had a wonderful refreshing sleep. This is what sober looks like. Have a great day all!