I am a working mom of 4 fantastic kids and a wife. I have been drinking heavily for a decade now. After being diagnosed with heart failure 2 and a half years ago I have made more attempts than I can count to get my drinking under control. I have been slowly drowning myself in alcohol and my body had had enough. I found this incredible group about a year ago and it has changed my life. I made it 8 months sober and reversed the damage I had done to my heart. I got my life back! And only because I gave up alcohol. After a relapse that lasted about 2 months I have recommited to an alcohol free life. Everyday I find a new reason to continue on this sober journey. For my health, my family, my job, and for MYSELF. I now have the courage to go back to school and start a new chapter in my life. To think of all I missed out on for so many years. Going through my days in a fog, only half present. I thought everything and everyone was against me and attacking me. The truth though, is that I was too blind by the booze haze I was going through life in to see all of the damage and destruction I caused myself. I was also to absorbed in my next drink to see all the hurt and disappointment I was causing those in my life. So I am moving forward. I am closing this very boozy, chaotic chapter of my life. It's difficult and uncomfortable at times, but the rewards are a true gift that I look forward to everyday.
Hi friends. I think I am in desperate need of a vacation. I just need to not go to my job for a bit, it is really getting to me. I only get 1 week of vacation (5 days) a year and I had to use it back in the early spring to travel for a competition with my daughter. But if I don’t get a break from that place I am going to say something I’ll regret later. All the little things feel like big things. I am dreading going today. And every time I think there is no end in sight, no break for a YEAR??? OMG, it’s overwhelming and bringing me down. I can’t leave until I finish school, the plus here is that they will accommodate my school schedule. And I am grateful for that. But I need a break.
One week – heck, do you have a union?! How many sick days? I am feeling positive about my new full time-no-holiday-for-ages role, but my acupuncturist said my body was close to depressed even if my mind was ok. Bleak news hahaha so trying to do some relaxing and healing things – and exercise. Trouble is, I sometimes add on weekend work, and I think it is a bit unwise. And you are studying too????! I hope today is a bit better. Breathe. Take pauses – if you can
@soberheart I can’t imagine so little time off each year! I accumulate time off on a rotating basis and can take it whenever I want, if something comes up I can trade with a coworker and fill out a pay request. This year I let mine accumulate and took a full three weeks of vacation.