I’m a Mum with three beautiful daughters & supportive Husband. Struggling with a toxic relationship with alcohol. A binge and daily drinker I just want to rid my life of the depression & self loathing alcohol brings.
18 weeks tomorrow 😃 I’m no longer fighting that inner battle that used to go on every day when I drank, no constant negotiations with myself about just tonight, I won’t drink tomorrow or It’s been a tough day I deserve it etc etc. No guilt for not being able to control myself, just realising how exhausting addiction is.
That inner negotiating is such bullshit, isn’t it!? What a waste of time. I still have it nagging at the back of my mind often (it’s been so many days, you’ll be fine one beer won’t hurt blah blah blah). I keep ignoring it. Hopefully it will go away soon.