Feeling so alone and now I have rejected my best friend, Rose', a bottle a day easily. I have been in a relationship with wine and sometimes spirits for years, a highly functioning drunk! I have had counseling in the past but all it has done is make me realise that cutting down is never going to work for me. So here I am, day 6 of a new life. No more hiding, lying, feeling like shit and most of all dealing with the dreaded guilts. Thank you for this opportunity
Babysitting my granddaughter in Wellington and feel so good I am able to be present to do this! Today is day 15 which I am happy with but feel far from safe from the evils of my drinking issues, still very much one day at a time. I see my counselor again in a weeks time and know I will need to look at lots of issues that have resulted in many…[Read more]
15 days!!! oxoxoxox You go soak up all that sweet granddaughter time. Much deserved. And I hope the session with your counselor will make it all feel lighter. I always walk out of my appointments a wee bit better each time.
Day 12 and all is well. Having a lovely time with family in Wellington and enjoying the company. I have been living alone since January and although there are times that I am feeling quite independent and empowered, there are also some very lonely and quiet times that I am yet to adjust to! Don’t mean to sound so ‘oh woe is me ‘ but I guess…[Read more]
HI @sandyb I had to learn to notice the difference between solitude and loneliness. I live alone and enjoy my own space and the freedom of it, but sometimes I can get down and I have to look closely at myself. Within myself the difference between solitude and loneliness lies in the emotions I’m experiencing. Solitude brings calm contentment,…[Read more]
Morning lovely Peeps, soon to head off to Wellington for a few days which will be nice. Can’t wait to have a big cuddle with my granddaughter. Hope all is well out there in AF land, I am taking things day by day and trying not to stress about the things I need to work on. Take care, will keep in contact xxxx
Day 10, double digits! Pottering around today, still mainly resting leg but have got packed for next few days in Wellington, always cool to have something planned. Think my TV may blow up very soon through over use, still need to keep busy somehow. Drinking coffee, water and tea but no booze!
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