• D428 and i haven’t posted on here for so long, but i often come on and read posts to keep me going. I’m very grateful to be at 428 days, something i only ever dreamed of accomplishing. It’s amazing to be clear headed and to wake everyday without a headache and not full of self hatred, guilt and regret. I feel for those of you just starting out because i have been there multiple times in the past, and to be honest, i still feel as though i could still relapse at any time! of course I feel more confident in my sobriety the longer i am in it, but i still do miss my red wine alot and think about it sometimes more often than others and I still wish and wonder if i could ever be one of those people who could have “a drink” every now and then and enjoy it. Fortunately i don’t believe its worth taking the risk to find out, because i know me! I’m an all or nothing person, I’m not one of those people who can have a drink every now and then, I’m one of those people who can’t stop once I start! Life is sometimes boring and quiet and lonely and alcohol was one of those things that made it feel manageable for a short time and then worse when i lay awake at 2 or 3am full of regret, shame and self hatred, heart pounding, tired but unable to relax enough to sleep and just desperate to escape the torture of being stuck in that life! i guess my post today is about acknowledging that with or without alcohol i still feel lonely, bored and sometimes lost, this is life, its not all about being happy all the time. But i still choose a life that i have more control over as a sober person than that feeling of being stuck with life revolving around when and how am i going to have my next drink! To everyone who is just starting out on this journey, keep going, if you fall get back up and keep fighting, it is possible to turn this around and it is possible to beat this and it is never too late to start! one day at a time……

  • Merry Christmas to everyone, this is my first christmas in a long time where I have woken up without a hangover! I usually drink heavily on christmas eve and really suffer for it on christmas, but today I am on day 296, my sobriety is the best christmas present I could have ever given myself and I treasure it so much! Its also the first christmas in a long time that I am spending entirely on my own and I feel good about that also, I am enjoying a nice quiet christmas without any of the pressure of cooking or preparing or cleaning up after all the presents have been opened! I’ve still spoken with my kids and am cooking myself a nice roast chicken which I can eat at my leisure. I want to wish everyone else a peaceful day……

  • rangimarie posted a new activity comment 8 months, 1 week ago

    I also can relate to so many day 1s, I had heaps of day 1s for probably 15 or so years so i know how it feels. But i also know that it is possible and you just gotta keep believing that you can have a life without alcohol and it will be better. You deserve a better life than the one that alcohol offers you!

  • well I’ve made it to day 250 today! I’ve had a awesome day, feeling happy and enjoying being sober and all the positive things that come with it like waking up with a clear head everyday, sleeping sounding most nights and getting through my days without all of the self hatred, shame and negative thoughts. When i drank I hated being that person so much and i was so ashamed of myself, I was carrying around this big secret that people would be shocked to find out about me cause i always drunk on my own, every night! Do i still think about drinking? yes i do and sometimes i still miss it and sometimes i feel scared because i know that i could slip up anytime and go back to the way it was and that does scare me! But the longer i stay sober, the stronger i get and the more i believe in myself that this is forever for me! I love the freedom of sobriety! it is so freeing and relaxing! Keep going everyone, life is so much better being sober

  • rangimarie posted an update 9 months ago

    Kia ora fellow sober warriors, I’m on day 231 today! a big achievement for me. A few things I’ve noticed over this weekend, is that I am more spontaneous now, I can go with the flow a lot more and know that I don’t have to worry about when and how I’m going to drink, it leaves me a lot more open to go anywhere I want and be free to stay or leave. Its awesome and it’s freeing and it feels good! Sleep is the best since I stopped drinking, I may have the odd sleepless night, but the tired feeling is completely different to the tired, hangover feeling and not something i ever want to experience again! Unfortunately, the social anxiety is still present and the negative self thoughts still there when in social situations and especially social family situations, that feeling of never being good enough is still present and is a trigger to drink! And so I’ve had a mixed weekend of feeling freed and relaxed, and then unsure of myself and disappointed that i cant just be happy with who I am, just the way I am! Not just know that I’m a good enough person, but to feel it! Makes me feel a bit sad.

  • rangimarie posted a new activity comment 10 months, 1 week ago

    Morena @Daveh and all you other septemberists, its a great day to wake up sober! I’m on d195 and have been trying for over 10 years to be AF and have failed more times than I can even remember. So for everyone who is trying this way of life and is struggling, keep going, never give up, don’t think too far ahead, be sober for today and trust that it will happen! It is worth all the struggle.

  • rangimarie posted a new activity comment 10 months, 2 weeks ago

    I’m definitely joining you all in not drinking! please add me to your list @daveh

  • I’m creeping up to 6 months! only a few days before I’m there! I’ve had the most stressful past 2 months, moving to a new city, starting a new job and now I have just moved house! And through it all, I’ve remained AF, I’m so happy to have done this all AF. There were so many times that my head was racing with thoughts and I felt so overwhelmed and vulnerable and I had the thoughts that “a few” red wines were what I needed to settle those thoughts and make everything ok for an hour or so. But I didn’t, i pushed through and I know I can face anything AF and healthy. OMG I’ve moved so many times over the years, with a big hangover and its taken me so much longer to pack and unpack and this time its been a different process and I’m grateful for this experience as a AF person!

  • rangimarie posted a new activity comment 11 months, 2 weeks ago

    Well done for not giving in! You would have felt worse the next day if you had of drunk that wine! My favourite is red wine, but I know that I am better off without it and I love my new life as a sober person!

  • rangimarie posted a new activity comment 11 months, 2 weeks ago

    congratulations @lynnelowe 2 weeks is a awesome achievement!

  • rangimarie posted a new activity comment 11 months, 3 weeks ago

    thanks everyone

  • Day 150 for me today! and I just realised I did dry July for the first time ever lol Never would I have ever thought I would be here, I dreamed and hoped for it, but I wasn’t sure it was ever going to happen. I know I’m still only in early days, but I am so grateful to be finally living my dream to be AF and I’m looking forward to what life has ahead for me.
    There are so many more things that I can confidently do now that I am not constantly thinking about when I am going to drink and without the self hatred that alcohol encouraged me to feel!

  • rangimarie posted a new activity comment 11 months, 3 weeks ago

    My kids are all adults now and have seen a lot of drunk, embarrassing me over the years and I feel bad and regretful that I have put them through it all, and I know I’ve hurt them and I wish so desperately I could take it all back. But i can’t so I have to live with that and find peace within myself.
    What I do know is that despite that, they still love and respect me and they are so supportive of me being sober now and I know that they probably don’t understand why I drank, but they forgive me and are proud of me. They have shown me the experience of unconditional love and I am lucky to have them.

  • rangimarie posted a new activity comment 1 year ago

    Awesome @Chris101. Keep going….

  • rangimarie posted a new activity comment 1 year ago

    Morning @DaveS, I also love sleep and sleep so well now. Before I used to wake anywhere between 1-3am and lay there for hours heart racing, thoughts racing, unable to go back to sleep. I feel like now I am catching up on all of those years of lost sleep, I just love sleeping like a log and feeling so much better for it.

  • rangimarie posted an update 1 year ago

    Day 126 for me today, 18 weeks! A friend came over to visit the other night and brought herself a bottle of red wine to drink which was fine as her husband came too and he doesn’t drink, so I had someone to not drink with! Red wine is my favourite and is often what I think about when I think of the good times of drinking, getting lost in a bottle of red wine!
    Anyway, I have no intention to drink. I reminisce about red wine but then I fast forward and think about the after effects and that stops me from acting on the thoughts.
    Except she left the bottle behind when she left and it had about a glass full of red wine in it! I left it for a few days in the pantry, and kept thinking about it, it kept calling out to me……….then I tipped it out tonight so put it out of its misery and I feel good to have it out of the house!
    Coming on here daily helps me to read everyones posts and to realise that I want this sober life. I love being sober and at peace and I never want to go back!

    • Kit replied 1 year ago

      @rangimarie Well done. Well said.

    • @rangimarie
      Yes! I get it! Over the 4th we had out of town guests who left an open bottle of a beautiful expensive Chardonnay in the fridge. Down the sink it went! And it felt good! Good for you! 126 days is amazing!!!

    • 126 days, way to go!!! And well done on throwing that shit out. One glass would never be enough anyways and the beast would awaken again. Been there, and relapsed 3-4 times thinking “just one could work not that I am sober for 140 days.” Nope…before you know it, it’s back to one bottle or more and massive banging hangovers.

      You did so well!!

      oxoxox

  • rangimarie posted a new activity comment 1 year ago

    awesome work!

  • rangimarie posted a new activity comment 1 year ago

    I can definitely relate to all of those benefits!

  • rangimarie posted a new activity comment 1 year, 1 month ago

    Thanks for sharing, and good on you for falling down and then getting back up and keep on going. 400 days is so awesome and you know you can do it again!

  • Finally hit the triple digits! Day 100, wowee such a big achievement for me. Everyday I am grateful for this sober life, I longed for this for so many years and have had so many day 1s and so many failed attempts and suffered so much and have felt the desperation of wanting and needing to be sober and now it is here I really appreciate my sobriety so much!
    I went out on Saturday night with some friends to a live band and I was scared to begin with, not that I might drink because I really don’t even want to, but scared that I would be the only sober person there and would feel left out. But I wasn’t the only sober person there and the biggest thing I noticed was that I didn’t like the smell of alcohol. I have to admit, I didn’t enjoy the night, but I did it and I made it through and I woke up fresh and happy!
    This life is just what I have been hoping for and I love it!

  • rangimarie posted a new activity comment 1 year, 1 month ago

    wow @mumh that is so awesome! You definitely have a lot of be proud of with this achievement and to show that it doesn’t matter how many years you have under your belt! You can still change your life at any time, I think this is so inspirational. Thanks for sharing!

  • rangimarie posted a new activity comment 1 year, 1 month ago

    Awesome work @nigelpm, congratulations on this sober milestone!

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  • rangimarie posted a new activity comment 1 year, 1 month ago

    thank you @enzedgirl

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  • rangimarie posted a new activity comment 1 year, 1 month ago

    thanks @ro

  • rangimarie posted a new activity comment 1 year, 1 month ago

    thanks @tom4500

  • rangimarie posted a new activity comment 1 year, 1 month ago

    awesome @nigelpm day 59 is awesome too! keep going!

  • rangimarie posted a new activity comment 1 year, 1 month ago

    Thanks @daveh it has been a hard road, not so much this 3 months, but moreso the lead up to this attempt at quitting alcohol. I’ve been trying for years and I don’t really know what switch was turned on or off in me this time to make it happen. But I do know that something changed in me. I realised that I was still drinking for reasons that no longer existed and so I kept telling myself that i no longer needed alcohol to get through life! so that helped and I just took one day at a time and I read the book alcohol explained and that helped a lot to see alcohol as a drug and to understand the anxiety aspect of it and it made a lot of sense to me. And I tried not to think too far ahead and I still try not to think too far ahead because I am aware that at any time I could be back to day 1 if I let my head fool me into thinking I could give alcohol another chance!
    And the best thing is, since I gave up. I have been offered a new job that is much better and pays so much more than i ever imagined and in the past I wouldn’t have gone for it because i would have been scared to take a risk while I was still drinking daily and scared someone would find out about my alcohol secret. But I took it and I’m excited and I’m grateful for being sober. I won’t ever take sobriety for granted because i have longed for it for so long!

  • rangimarie posted a new activity comment 1 year, 1 month ago

    Hi @lowadawn it means, keep being strong!

  • Day 90, officially 3 months! Another small sober milestone for me! I never thought i’d make it to day 15 let alone 90.
    Mixed feelings, I’ve been thinking about alcohol a lot lately and how much I miss it! Doesn’t help that everything I am watching on tv lately, all they do is drink and make it look so easy and acceptable. It never shows them with the hangover, shame, self hatred, anxiety etc. They make it look like you can drink everyday and never have any bad effects! Kinda pisses me off cos its not like that in real life and it reinforces how acceptable and even encouraged excessive alcohol consumption is!
    Anyway, I’m grateful for this sober life that I am embarking on, it is what I have longed for for years and I have worked hard to get where I am.
    I don’t really want to drink at all, I actually love waking up sober and at peace, especially in the weekends, OMGosh I really love sober, alcohol free weekends, they are the best!
    SO no matter where we all are on our journeys, keep going, keep believing and keep being awesome AF role models!
    Hope everyone weekend is going as well as it can….

    • Woohoo @rangimarie super duper congrats that’s a whole quarter of a year mate! Awesome right there – you should feel really proud of yourself.

    • Congrats, bloody great milestone! I used to look forward to weekends for all the wrong reasons, now I love them even more being sober!

    • Early on, all I could ever think about was alcohol. Even if it was just thinking about quitting. I’m not even sure if I missed alcohol, or drinking with other people. Maybe it was both. That’s okay, it just couldn’t continue. It just couldn’t. I could sense that bad stuff was right around the corner. Like @ro says, big-time congrats on the quarter year, you should be very proud! On to the 100 day milestone!

    • Oh how awesome – 90 days! I understand what you’re saying – it’s easy to get caught in the trap of watching people drink and have fun and remember the fun side of our own drinking. Unfortunately its often not fun. And these sober weekends are cool!

    • fantastic result..!Jealous here..feel like caving at day 59…but will keep going after reading your post..:)

    • Three months is an incredible achievement when you pause and look at it. When I first set out to not drink I couldn’t imaging that a whole week alcohol-free was possible, let alone a month. Three months seemed so impossibly far into the future that I couldn’t even imagine it. Do you think you could spare some time to tell the people in their first days and weeks here what it was like for you? What was happening in your head? What were the biggest challenges and what you did to get through them? Congratulations on your 90 days.

      • Thanks @daveh it has been a hard road, not so much this 3 months, but moreso the lead up to this attempt at quitting alcohol. I’ve been trying for years and I don’t really know what switch was turned on or off in me this time to make it happen. But I do know that something changed in me. I realised that I was still drinking for reasons that no longer existed and so I kept telling myself that i no longer needed alcohol to get through life! so that helped and I just took one day at a time and I read the book alcohol explained and that helped a lot to see alcohol as a drug and to understand the anxiety aspect of it and it made a lot of sense to me. And I tried not to think too far ahead and I still try not to think too far ahead because I am aware that at any time I could be back to day 1 if I let my head fool me into thinking I could give alcohol another chance!
        And the best thing is, since I gave up. I have been offered a new job that is much better and pays so much more than i ever imagined and in the past I wouldn’t have gone for it because i would have been scared to take a risk while I was still drinking daily and scared someone would find out about my alcohol secret. But I took it and I’m excited and I’m grateful for being sober. I won’t ever take sobriety for granted because i have longed for it for so long!

    • I reckon 90 days is a BIG milestone @rangimarie πŸ˜€ huge congrats from me πŸ™‚

    • Congrats! 3 month’s is huge. And think, the hardest part is behind you. This af life is amazing, and so are you!

    • Wow….90 days……3 months …..I’m so happy and excited for you. Congratulations @rangimarie!!!! I too love sober weekends, they’re the best.

      I hate the way excessive drinking is reinforced, glamourised, and normalised, on TV shows. It’s not surprising alcohol is such a widely abused substance.

      Like you, something just clicked with me one day regarding drinking. It was very reassuring for me to read your wise words – thank you. I’m looking forward to notching up 90 days too, in 38 days xx

    • Wow what an inspiring post!!! I agree- since being sober I notice the pressure in the media/ society to drink drink drink. It’s like everyone is under some kind of spell. Congrats on being truly awake!

    • That’s awesome, well done on 3 months!!! πŸ™‚ x

    • congrats on 90 days – such a wonderful accomplishment and the good things will just keep coming!

    • Congrats on 90 days. That is FANTASTIC!!

    • Congrats on 90 days @rangimarie!! : )

  • rangimarie posted a new activity comment 1 year, 1 month ago

    kia kaha @ro I’m sure you have the willpower not to get stoned! You seem to me like a pretty strong woman!

  • Well I’m on day 84 today, 12 weeks! I’ve saved 1200 bucks which is awesome. Overall it actually hasn’t really been as difficult as I had anticipated or as it has been in the past when I have tried to give up, its weird. But I think it is because I have desperately wanted this and have been trying and failing and reading and praying and all of that “preparation” got me to this place where I am now. This is what I’ve wanted more than anything else for years, to be living a sober life, not tied to the booze, not living for another drink, but to be free and to be just me the way I am without the poison!
    In saying that, this weekend I’ve been thinking a lot more about it and noticing everyone drinking on tv and in movies and wishing I could just be one of those drinkers who can have “a” drink! Man is sucks!
    I felt so lonely when I drunk, i felt like a prisoner! trapped inside the shame, guilt and disgust I felt for myself. I don’t really have all of those feelings as intensely anymore. If I do experience shame or guilt its no wear near at the level it was when I drunk and I am practising patience and self acceptance, so I can tolerate those feelings better now than ever before.
    Just wanted to share my thoughts with everyone. I have so much admiration for people on here, even if you fall, get back up and keep going and fighting!
    Have a great AF night everyone

  • rangimarie posted a new activity comment 1 year, 2 months ago

    congratulations Dan, thats awesome

  • D71. I had a moment at work today, when I was talking to a couple of people about drinking and i said I haven’t had a drink in 10 weeks, and someone asked if I felt better and I said “yea, I feel so good and I’ve even lost a bit of weight without even trying” which then brought the question “god, how much did you drink?” and I felt a kind of panic of what do I say that doesn’t give away my secret that I have/had a drinking problem (quite a big one). So I just brushed it off and pretended I only drunk during the weekends, but when I did drink, it was a lot. (reality is I drunk practically every night, and was hungover most days at work). I’m kind of stuck in this place in my head at the moment where I don’t really want to tell people about my problem because I don’t want to be judged and I still hold a hell of a lot of shame and disgust about my problem. I cant even fully talk about it with my friends because of the shame and disgust I have towards myself about it. But on the other hand, I want to stop reinforcing the stigma associated with addiction and I do believe that in talking about these things out loud, we allow others to do the same and are able to offer help and support to others who maybe are suffering in isolation, but don’t know that they are really not alone! Just my thoughts for the day, hope everyone has had a good day today

    • A good answer for that one is ‘more than I do now’ and then laugh and change the subject. Well done for negotiating that situation and congrats on 71 days x

      • Yep, my answer is “too much” but I don’t feel the need to go into specifics!! Good on you @rangimarie, it is a difficult one to approach sometimes but be proud of sharing your sobriety xx

    • Well done you. πŸ™‚

    • I am totally with you on this one. One minute I want to shout it from the rooftops and the next run away and hide under the covers with shame. It’s a very fine line we are treading. I had to flip my faux pa into “do you not realise how much sugar is in a bottle of wine?!! I can’t remember now but it’s something between 8-16 teaspoons.

    • No need to make any announcements… just carry on… like the new joke you made I think it will all be meaningless in time.

  • rangimarie posted a new activity comment 1 year, 2 months ago

    that was a beautiful post, thanks for sharing. Some of my most painful drinking memories are also attached to my children, but thankfully they have all turned out well and happy and I am grateful for that. Happy Mothers Day @reena

  • So I made it to day 70 today and its mothers day also! I’m so happy to be sober on mothers day, can’t say if I have been for years because mothers day is always on a Sunday and Saturday used to be my favourite day to drink because I could start early and drink more!
    Its been hard and easy and I know I’m still only new to this new life and I’m extremely grateful to be at this stage because this is what I have wanted for so long and have been trying for so long, so its like a dream come true for me to finally be sober! I still miss it, alcohol was my best friend and worst enemy for so long! I miss getting lost in a bottle of wine and not having to think for a short time about how hard life was, but in no way do I miss waking at 1,2 or 3 in the morning, not remembering how I got to bed, full of self hatred, regret, guilt, anxiety, unable to sleep and wishing so much that I could live a sober life.
    I am so grateful for this site and for all of you who understand the struggle and pain and keep pushing forward despite how hard it can be. So no matter what day we are all on today, lets celebrate this sober day with each other and live each day

    • Wow, spot on @rangimarie, “hard and easy”, “best friend and worst enemy” – yep!!

    • Great post @rangimarie! Day 70 is awesome!! Yep, we all understand that love hate relationship with alcohol. I still miss wine too some days but nothing beats waking up feeling healthy and well rested. Celebrating a sober Mother’s Day with you. πŸ™‚ x

  • rangimarie posted a new activity comment 1 year, 2 months ago

    It is normal for your emotions to go all over the place as you adjust to being open and real without alcohol to numb you. And it is normal to feel ok and then not again, just roll with it and trust that you will feel ok again. You are doing awesome so keep going, you can get through this time and come out better for it!

  • Day 65 today! I’m so happy that after all of those years of trying and “failing” that I am finally here and have made it into sobriety. I don’t really see any of it as failing because i really believe that every attempt and “failure” was preparing me for this experience right now. I could not be more grateful for being in this space right now. I know there will be challenges, but I have the confidence and determination to make it through. I actually never want to be hungover again! when I think about having a drink, I think about how I will feel after it has worn off and how I never want to go back to those days again. I love my sleep so much, I feel like I barely slept at all last year and now I sleep with ease!

  • rangimarie posted a new activity comment 1 year, 2 months ago

    Its so hard when this is the attitude of most, but your daughter would be so happy to have you sober and available and you are doing awesome

  • rangimarie posted a new activity comment 1 year, 2 months ago

    congratulations on day 85, that is a awesome birthday present to yourself! and a big happy birthday to you for tomorrow

  • rangimarie posted a new activity comment 1 year, 2 months ago

    Awesome, congrats on 110 days, I’m half way there with 55 days today!

  • I have had the week off work this week and have spent it doing school holiday things with my daughter and also de-cluttering and spring cleaning my house! OMGosh I didn’t realise how long it has been since I have done something like this, I have achieved so much. Normally I would have taken having time off work as time to drink to my hearts content without having to worry about going to work and trying to be functional. And I would have spent most of my days hungover, feeling guilty and miserable and too tired to do anything around the house. But man I have accomplished so much this week and spent some cool time with my daughter and enjoyed it! I am exhausted in a sober, healthy way and I am loving being sober and healthy right now! Day 54 for me today!

  • rangimarie posted a new activity comment 1 year, 2 months ago

    I’ve been at day 1 many many many times over the years and have felt the desperation and the fear and hoped and prayed that one day I would get through and make it past 2 weeks (which was the longest I had ever been sober) and I’m at day 54 today. I was starting to believe I might never get here, but here I am. You can get there too, keep believing in yourself and every time you fall down, get back up and keep fighting for sobriety. It is so worth it and I really believe it is because of all of the failures I had that have helped and prepared me to get to where I am now. Keep going……..

  • rangimarie posted a new activity comment 1 year, 2 months ago

    Me too, I totally understand this. It is why I feel at peace a lot more than I ever used to!

  • Kia ora everyone, I’m on day 50 today! It feels awesome. I just had a big fat trigger just a short time ago and had a big urge to have a drink and it just reminded me that even though I am on day 50, it can take only a few seconds of taking your eyes off the prize and you can right back to day 1 again! I was actually scared for about 20 minutes, I always scared that one day I won’t make it through the urge and will give in! So at those times when I’m feeling like that, I play it forward and think about how I would feel waking up hungover, guilty, anxious, unable to remember my night, feeling like a failure etc etc and then other thing I am trying to do is whatever triggered me, usually a feeling, I try to stay with the feeling and feel it, rather than what I’ve been doing for years, which is drink my way out of the feeling! So I am taking some deep breaths, and letting myself feel scared and trusting that I will cope and that it will pass! 50 days in a row of no hangovers!!!!! That is the best feeling ever!

    • Congratulations. 50 days is an awesome milestone. It’s hard getting used to feeling all our feelings in our raw authentic state @rangimarie, but it comes to be something to treasure. The growth you are having and will keep having as you learn to process stuff without alcohol in the mix, is so incredible and rewarding. Just stay the course, and keep posting on here when things get tough. You are doing real fine xoxo

    • You used your tools and got through-that’s a win for you and a loss for alcohol. I drank after three months and went straight back to where l left off-the land of misery. You aren’t missing anything-but you know that. X

    • 50 days! So great.

    • Way to go!!

  • Morena everyone, Im on day 43 today and I feel so appreciative to be here. A couple of things I have noticed in the last week or 2 is that I now have an inner calm and I don’t rush anymore. I think its because I no longer have the alcohol induced anxiety or the alcohol induced guilt and shame or the constant thoughts of thinking about when am I going to drink next, what will I drink, how will I cope the next day (so to make sure I don’t have much planned) etc etc. Thats all gone, so now I just have a calm and I don’t overthink things so much or avoid making plans because I know I can commit to plans I make now, its such a great feeling.
    The other thing I have noticed is I don’t have the alcohol induced self hatred anymore! I still have self doubt and I’m still learning to love myself and accept myself the way I am, but I don’t hate myself anymore, its such a relief not to have to put up with those thoughts anymore.
    This is longest I’ve been sober for maybe 15 or more years and it sometimes still feels unreal like maybe I’m dreaming and other times unbelievably amazing, I really do feel so grateful that I’ve made it to this place of sobriety because I’ve been desperately trying and wanting this for years!
    Anyway, everyone have a great day today and keep being who you all are!

    • Yes! Totally agree. A huge benefit I’ve noticed is increased self confidence or pride due to the things you’ve mentioned. It gets better and better. Congrats on D43!!

    • That is wonderful! Feeling so good so quickly, fortunate! I certainly know the calm, though it has deserted me a bit lately, replaced by wretched anxiety. However it is amazing to know I will not cave in and try to blot out the racing thoughts and twisted stomach with a toxic poison πŸ™‚

    • This is great…just enjoyed reading this @rangiemarie!
      And great on D 43☺

  • rangimarie posted a new activity comment 1 year, 3 months ago

    Hi rosepetal1098 I’m also on day 32 and I agree I will never get bored of waking up with no hangover, no guilt and no shame! OMGosh it is the best feeling! I have been lucky that I don’t really have cravings, but every now and then I have the thought to have a drink but like you I think about the after effects of drinking and that is enough to make me definitely not want to drink! So cheers to us!

  • Morning sober friends, I’m on 26 and i am grateful to be in this space. I have family staying who drink heavily and its been making me nervous. I don’t have any urges to drink, but more feel a bit of pressure to join in, which in turn has been making me dream 2 nights in a row now that i am about to have a drink! but I never do actually drink in my dreams. This used to happen all the time when I gave up smoking cigarettes, for a long time I used to dream that I had started smoking again and in my dream I was so regretful and disappointed! But I have not touched a cigarette in over 7 years and I know that I will not touch alcohol either. I keep coming on here to read your stories and updates and it keeps me going and helps me to feel like you all understand and i don’t feel like I’m in this on my own, so thank you all for being so bold and brave and sharing your experiences! And cheers to another AF day!

    • Sometimes I have dreams of sitting an exam and not being able to write fast enough etc. I realise
      Now that I get them when I am over or well prepared for an event i am involved with. Take those dreams as a compliment. Your are obviously very well prepared Nothing will stop you !

    • I’m with you @rangimarie! These social times can be tricky- especially with the people we’re close to! We have boozy family here too at the moment. Stick with us here- you’ll be bloody pleased with yourself at the end of a long weekend- clear, sober and free of the booze bitch! Kia kaha

    • I think you are doing amazingly well! Isn’t this place great? You can come here and share any worries and people understand. Keep going AF and stick around. Kia kaha. xxx

    • We’re with you @rangimarie, you’re doing brilliantly at 26 days and having company round. If it gets a bit much come post. πŸ™‚ xx

  • rangimarie posted a new activity comment 1 year, 3 months ago

    Hi Annie, you got this! Connect on here each day to help with the loneliness, you are not alone!

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