I’ve been here since day one of the LS website, having ditched the booze on 20th July 2014. That was after 40 years of being a high functioning party girl, self employed in various businesses, marriage with children, end of marriage, a broken heart, single mother of teens, a new business, a new home in a new community, some new friendships as well as the old, and all the while an intimate and often self-destructive relationship with my little buddy Southern Comfort. So, I’ve now been four and half years sober and my life is amazing. I’ve achieved my lifetime dream of building a home on the land I grew up on, overlooking the sea near Akaroa. Even better, my son built it for me on the land my father left me many years ago……3 generations of love! And even better than that, my son saw how mellow and happy my life was after 18 months alcohol free, and gave it up himself, so 3 years for him now and he’s only 30, and doing really well in his building business. My daughter is a normie and still likes a wine but doesn’t seem to over indulge. I thank myself every day for giving it up, and I feel so grateful for the strong, staunch and loving relationships I have with my children. Everything is possible when we take the booze away. Happiness, contentment, self-confidence, self-respect, clarity, wisdom, growth. I am very grateful to Lotta Dann and to every member of this website. Thank you. It is the connection I have here that keeps me sober. That’s why I’m still here. I’d miss you all too much if I let go the apron strings.
Hello team. I’ts been a pretty intense time for me lately…..big life decisions….which can make things a bit triggery. Especially knowing that if only I’d drunk alcohol I would have slotted into this community here like a slippery little eel! Yesterday I went to a Sharmanic soul connection healing circle thing in Christchurch. I didn’t expect too much but gained a lot. It was quite powerful, and beautiful. It helped me to put things into perspective and feel more positively about my decision to leave this beautiful place. And about my time here. This all happened just within myself, during a guided meditation with sharmanic chanting, drums, sage smoke floated around our bodies, tuning forks, all the mumbo jumbo, can’t hurt I feel! So, now I understand. I’ve build this home on my ancestral land, my spiritual home, where I feel connected to the spirits of my parents and have happy memories of my childhood. I have lived here over two years, quietly, happily, and contemplated many things. I have rested. I have grown. I am flipping the switch for a while. I’m going to go live in my little Redcliffs rental unit, to live a more connected city life for a while, and my home here will always be here, and it will be a place I come to whenever I want, only an hour or so away. I will lock off my bedroom area, get a foldout couch for the lounge where my office is now, swap a bit of my furniture around (Redcliffs is fully furnished) and I’ll rent this out as a holiday home with 2 queen rooms, a fold out and a day bed, and hope to hell they don’t wreck it and nick my stuff! For the next while anyway, I will not be trying to fit in here, I will be here simply to drink in the serenity when I feel like it. We can have gatherings here still. Although I will be moving to a much more humble home, I am upping my lifestyle considerably coz now I’ll be that chick with her own holiday home haha. Financially it will be challenging, but that never stopped me doing anything. I have asked my tenants if I could break the lease, told them the truth of why, and they have agreed, bless them, and already found another place and move out on 10th September. So that’ll keep me on my toes, and I’m off to Bali the week after! So all is good, just changing the hood! Happy days and nights everyone xoxo
Sounds like you’ve got it sorted @Prudence – the reasons why your built your house and why you needed to be there and it seems you’ve fulfilled that need and now you can to the city and will be happy there. Enjoy Bali and come back renewed ready to take on your next adventure.
Sounds like you have it all under control. Sometimes we just sit in the place we shouldn’t be. You are brave following what is right for you and doing it. Your happiness and peace is the most important thing.
@prudence, the shamanic ritual sounds like an interesting experience, I’ve done a few similar women’s moon circles. Making the big life choices and changes is stressful. I pulled the trigger and made the firm decision on what facility I want to move my Mum into today. Now I can plan accordingly rather than taking up all my head space with a zillion ” what ifs”. Quite the relief actually knowing where we’re headed.
You are blessed to have the room to make such a decision. Redcliffs and Sumner areas are beautiful that’s where mum used to live. I loved it there wonderful quaint shops, good cafes, and lovley picture theatre
I know @Kiwi and I’m very grateful. I bought the wee Redcliffs place last year as is where is. Was a real dump. Worse place best street. Did it all up and got it insured. I know I am lucky, but I’ve taken huge risks to get to this position. You’ll have to come visit xx