• Here I am again. To say I have hit rock bottom would be an understatement. My best friend passed away suddenly and unexpectedly just over a month ago. I miss her so much and I have never experienced grief quite like I am feeling. We were supporting each other through our own journey to becoming sober. I was due to go back to have a medical detox, but with her sudden passing and overwhelming emotions it was decided that it wasn’t a good time. My nightly drinking no longer has the ‘happy medicine’ feeling. I feel like I am stuck in a big black hole falling further and further into it. I have a really great key worker at CADS which is great and have also been to a few AA meetings, but I just don’t seem to be able to pull myself out of this demise. I have agreed to go to have a medical detox, but I am terrified and my anxiety is off the radar. I feel panicked about going there again. I really want to just do it myself at home, but they keep saying it is not safe and the risks of stroke, heart attack etc etc etc. Has anyone ever experienced these symptoms while withdrawling?

    • Hi @PinkFlamingo. I’m so sorry for your loss. One of the most difficult things to go through. Keep getting support. I’m thinking of you

    • Hi @pinkflamingo omg so much for you at the moment….
      If your support people have recommended a medical detox then thats what you need. They dont say that unless its required. It has nothing to do with how anyone else detoxed.
      Try not to worry about it, you will be well supported and helped through the whole process. Ask any questions of them you are unsure about….
      Good luck, it will be worth it, YOU are worth it!!!!!

    • I guess at this point you have to do whatever it takes. if they’ve recommended that route it’s probably safer and they can keep an eye on you. I was drinking quite a lot, but have never had bad withdrawal symptoms, but we are all different and they would have assessed the risk to you.

    • I am so sorry for the loss of your friend. What a difficult time you must be having. The anxiety will subside after some time after you stop drinking. Big hugs, you can do this.

    • @frog is right you can get seizures Mmm I know-but also can be mild just the use of diazepan keeps anxiety away whilst doung your detox. CADS wouldn’t say med detox unless your range is up there.

  • PinkFlamingo posted a new activity comment 2 years, 3 months ago

    The thing I am missing out on if I continue this path is my life and my beautiful family. Time to get my real self back for sure. I see my eyes in the mirror still just not the person who I want to be yet. I will get there…Determined!

    • It’s good you look in the morror at your eyes. The truth is there. Just as the truth will be there when you look again when you are a week sober and you see your eyes beginning to shine again and you give yourself a wee grin, and you know you can do it, you Are doing it, and you feel pride, and you like who you see. You see You being You, your best self. I am excited for you. Your world is going to get so much cooler and better xoxo

  • PinkFlamingo posted a new activity comment 2 years, 3 months ago

    Thank you.

  • Here I go again…..meeting with CADS today to discuss my detox, definitely not something I thought I would be doing again so quickly. Same place this time last year. I vowed that the thought alone of having to go there would be enough to keep me sober. How wrong I was. Determined to succeed again though. I have attended to AA meetings (still not 100% sure it is for me but I will keep going) Looking forward to day one!

    • All the very best to you , you can do this xx

    • Thank you.

    • Yeah bring it on. Get that shit out of your life. And don’t look at it like you are missing out on something. Look at it like giving yourself and those who love you the greatest gift you could give. You get your real self back, and from there you can truly give. Go well. xo

      • The thing I am missing out on if I continue this path is my life and my beautiful family. Time to get my real self back for sure. I see my eyes in the mirror still just not the person who I want to be yet. I will get there…Determined!

        • It’s good you look in the morror at your eyes. The truth is there. Just as the truth will be there when you look again when you are a week sober and you see your eyes beginning to shine again and you give yourself a wee grin, and you know you can do it, you Are doing it, and you feel pride, and you like who you see. You see You being You, your best self. I am excited for you. Your world is going to get so much cooler and better xoxo

    • It’s ok to start again. It means you ended something unhealthy.
      No matter how many times it takes to have another day 1, each sober day counts.

      xooxxo

      Healing is a process, not an event.
      You got this.

    • Hi. Completely relate. I had two ‘medical’ detoxes with CADS (and one unofficial one thanks to a green GP but that’s another story). It’s hard not to feel you have failed but in fact you have succeeded because you’ve gone back. I found Antabuse really helpful in keeping me on the straight and narrow. Congratulations and I know exactly how you feel about looking forward to Day 1. Yay for you!

  • PinkFlamingo posted a new activity comment 2 years, 8 months ago

    Yes 6 months was a great achievement and was so proud of my achievement. Back onto it again now…..Time to count some more days again.

  • PinkFlamingo posted a new activity comment 2 years, 8 months ago

    Thank you πŸ™‚ Yes a hard lesson learned that moderation is not for me and it doesn’t take long for the wine witch to get its claws back in!

  • PinkFlamingo posted a new activity comment 2 years, 8 months ago

    Thanks @Agent99…..wow it was like reading what I am actually thinking in my head, but procrastinating and putting off what I really should do !!! I know I can and I will start over! Agree the longer you leave it the harder it becomes!

  • The ugly demon has raised it’s head and I am back to square one again! Why is that I love the taste but cannot control the amount ??? Almost 6 months without and the thoughts of I can do it just socially got the better of me. I can not even blame this time of year as there has been no social events or the like to entice me. It is jus my wicked self control and the inability to say no and not wander into that aisle at the supermarket!

  • PinkFlamingo posted a new activity comment 3 years, 3 months ago

    Nothing like a new hairdo to make you feel spesh. I am booking in this week for mine!

  • Day 54 wow didn’t realise how much money I actually spent on alcohol….Saved a whopping $1620.00 NZD. I should feel proud of day 54 but lately I am thinking a lot about the reasons why I could just have that one wine or two, you know for special occasions! Like Mothers day…I deserve it and my Birthday coming up. I know in reality and with my sensible head on the special occasions would probably continue and I would ease back so comfortably and easily into the vicious cycle again! Damn it !!! So instead I have replaced the cravings with another kind SUGAR….I now indulge in chocolate, ice-cream, chips and whatever else feels like it will ease the cravings for wine. So I have decided I need to fight these demons too as they are not helping in my goal to lose weight. I don’t feel the need to replace my wine with another alcohol free drink except if we are out for dinner etc then I have chosen a virgin cocktail or the like which I have really enjoyed and not felt like I have missed out. But at home it is different I choose to stuff my face instead !!! So goal for this week is fruity herbal teas, less sugar intake, early nights and exercise. I really want a new pair of jeans….so maybe I will stick a pic of some on the fridge as incentive! Wish me luck x

    • Good luck @Pinkflamingo I think it’s quite common to crave sugar in the early days, and I’m sure over time that will lessen. I have also been eating a lot of chocolate where before I wouldn’t have because of the calories… it never seemed to worry me that there were 500 calories in a bottle of wine though! Well done on 54 days, you’re doing well. The new jeans will come at some point, so don’t be too hard on yourself and overload yourself with goals. X

    • Sounds like a good plan, and way to go on 54 days! Maybe you can make a smoothie instead of sugary treats, or grab an apple or other fresh fruit. I’ve been mindful of the same lately, and I find the sweetness of fruit to be a nice replacement. I wish you luck no matter what you choose!

    • Last year i thought i could just have one or two, for special….took 2 weeks and i was back to 1.5 bottles at a time 3-4 nights a week. The sugar thing is okay at the beginning (better than drinking), but i have to rein it in now as well. Well done on day 54 πŸ™‚

    • No doubt you deep down know that “special” occasions can actually occur quite a lot! Hahaha I’m having a giggle to myself thinking of what I found to constitute a special occasion! If you dd have glass of wine on your birthday, what would happen? You probably know the “play it forward” drill – what would happen? My one glass would turn into half a bottle, followed by opening another bottle, followed by dessert wine and then before you know it, waking up with another hangover, hating myself for fucking up yet again, and there I would be back at day 1. Fuck that!
      As for the sugar and stuff, yeah I don’t know, I’m still a bit extreme – super good or off the wagon and scoffing anything sweet. The solution to that is mindfulness and meditation I believe – and exercise to get your touch with your body, whether it be running, swimming or yoga or whatever it is that helps you connect your body and mind together. I really believe that’s the answer, and it’s a constant work in progress. You never “arrive” at the point where its complete, you just have to keep making good choices – or just do your best – or sometimes you just have to take yourself to bed early and know you’ll feel better in the morning xxx

    • Well done on day 54. When I begin thinking about moderation I just ask myself, “when did you ever enjoy having a single drink? When exactly??”

      I’m quite honest with myself after asking the question and the answer is “never”. I never wanted just one and I know that won’t be enough now.

      My sugar cravings are starting to fade, but they are still there. Good luck!

    • Great job on 54 days! Good luck with the new jeans goal, just don’t deprive yourself too much cuz it’s still early days.

    • Focus on eliminationg ONE thing only from your life.
      Studies have proved that it makes a person MUCH more likely to succeed LONG term. For me, the priority is to be alcohol free and I don’t worry too much about any side issues.

      Congrats on 54 day sober @PinkFlamingo ! πŸ™‚

  • PinkFlamingo posted a new activity comment 3 years, 4 months ago

    Thanks @Jessi at least the tiredness gets me to bed earlier than I used to.

  • Enjoying my lazy day today…hubby took Mr 9 to school so I could sleep in after a couple of crazy weeks preparing for our school gala. Loved being involved and keeping busy etc but totally underestimated how physically and mentally tiring it can be. YAY day 22 and $660 saved…so happy to be alcohol free and saving money too! Struggling a little bit with overwhelming tiredness which I put down to busy days but am now wondering if it is a side effect of some of the drugs CADS have me on as part of my recovery. Anyone else take Disulfiram (Antabuse) and Naltraccord tablets. I am also on Thiamine, Omeprazole and Cittalopram. Ha yes I may rattle a little when I walk. Feel like I need on of those medi packs to keep track of my daily meds! Mood seems okay, but I can’t seem to make it past 8.30 before bed is calling me and I have the weirdest dreams, sleep shouting and nightmares too. I am supposed to be on these meds for approx. 6 months, but if these side effects keep happening then maybe I will stop. I am also about to start a rehab support group weekly and looking into a mini Mindfulness Retreat for hours on a Saturday once a month. Had the odd pang of feeling like a wine…but have got through the craving. I liken it to when I gave up smoking almost 20 years ago, it was my relaxing thing to do, get home after a long day / week and cup of coffee and a smoke…that changed into glass of wine and sit down and relax. I miss that feeling but not the alcohol. I no I definitely wouldn’t just have the one glass it would be the whole bottle and I would be back to square one again. Anyway first step now is to see if it is my meds mucking my sleep around etc.

  • PinkFlamingo posted a new activity comment 3 years, 4 months ago

    Sometimes removing yourself from the heat of the moment is a good thing. Arguments can quickly escalate, especially if OH has already been drinking. Not so great the 13yo at home but you can always talk them later about things. Be strong, don’t let the temporary feeling that wine may bring you led you to indulge. Believe me I know I have been in similar situations and always turned to the wine to make everything feel alright again. It doesn’t help you and you will feel awful if you let it sway you. Do you have someone you can go to for a chat and non-alcoholic drink…..a friend, family someone that knows what you are going through? Keep chatting and sharing how it is. We are all here to support each other. Take care.

  • So this is my second weekend alcohol free! I always felt justified in drinking that little bit more on the weekends because I knew I could sleep in and not have to deal with the morning rush of during the week etc. It feels good to wake up fresh and not hung over, not irritable and willing and able to listen to my Son’s morning chatter about this that and everything. I feel happier and look forward to the days we can spend together. This week has been a busy one, keeping myself occupied preparing for our school gala, so most days have been spent there from 9-4. I come home exhausted, but love it that my brain actually managed to function I had no panic or anxiety and was able to fulfil tasks easily. Great to be tired so I get to bed early no time for thinking about wine! Next week will be the same but a little more hectic as we near the gala day……looking forward to the challenge. Feeling proud πŸ™‚

  • PinkFlamingo posted a new activity comment 3 years, 4 months ago

    Well done !!! Weight loss is on my list of things to achieve this year too. I am at 11 days sober so far and have noticed that with the elimination of wine I have started to replace with sugary treats…which I was never tempted to have before. I actually weigh more now than I did when I was 9 months pregnant with my now 9 year old son. Will follow your weight loss journey and grateful for any tips. Go for it what a great achievement so far πŸ™‚

  • PinkFlamingo posted a new activity comment 3 years, 4 months ago

    Thanks @enzedgirl. Onwards and upwards!

  • PinkFlamingo posted a new activity comment 3 years, 4 months ago

    Thanks feeling on a roll, hoping it will continue!

  • PinkFlamingo posted a new activity comment 3 years, 4 months ago

    Oh great I will check out the tool box for some tips and ideas. I have been macramΓ© pot hangers for a while but would love to attempt a wall hanging too. So much easier to stay focused sober too! Are you in NZ where do you order your cord from? Also looking forward to reading Mrs D is going without book too, my Key worker has lent me hers, but will definitely be buying my own copy!

    • I’m in Australia. Hard finding macrame cord, it’s quite expensive in craft stores. Online I found a place called Simply Macrame, will see how fast it gets here! I want to make a “curtain” and a large wall hanging. What are you going to do with your weaving?

  • PinkFlamingo posted a new activity comment 3 years, 4 months ago

    Colouring in so addictive and a healthy one πŸ˜‰ I found some good ones at K-Mart. I have saved about $200 this week. Imagine the ‘real’ things we could spend money on…..or save and enjoy for a nice holiday!

  • PinkFlamingo posted a new activity comment 3 years, 4 months ago

    Totally right there, Alcohol just tricks you into thinking everything is real and okay! Thanks for your encouragement.

  • PinkFlamingo posted a new activity comment 3 years, 4 months ago

    Thanks @enzedgirl. So pleased to have made it this far. More progress to be made….but so nice to be home with my family and enjoying time with them.

  • PinkFlamingo posted a new activity comment 3 years, 4 months ago

    GOOD LUCK @agent99 you can do this. It is surprising what your body and mind is capable of. I am home now and feeling so much better, clearer and determined more than ever to get my life back too. Take care x

  • I did it !!! 7 days of medical detox thanks to CADS and home today. My mind feels so much clearer, no heavy head in the morning, no hangovers and no awful feelings of just having to make myself get through the day. Can’t say it was easy but for me it was a lot easier than going cold turkey on my own at home. Totally overwhelmed on arrival, huge panic attack, lots of crying and begging my husband to please take me home and that I would do it by myself. Thankfully to trained staff and support from my Husband I stayed. WOW thought I slept a lot before but obviously my body needed to rest, recover and rejuvenate. Such a strange thing to say that I am now 8 days alcohol free……NEVER in my wildest dreams did I ever imagine myself to be in this situation. It wasn’t like one day I woke up and said oh and today I am just going to drink and drink until I become an alcoholic and can’t stop. LIKE WHO THE HECK WOULD EVER WANT THAT !!! But is was a good day when I woke up and decided that I didn’t want to be that person I had somehow become. When did it all change from the social happy go lucky person that could say yes to one wine with dinner, or a celebration etc. I think about how I would like to be that person again, BUT I don’t think that will ever be an option. I could never be a social smoker after giving up and think that alcohol will be the same. MY sensible head tells me what do I need it for anyway…..but those nasty / evil thoughts creep up and tease me with cravings. SO I am home armed with thiamine, antabuse and something else to ease the cravings. No alcohol in the house and all the wine glasses have been taken away. So time to think of distractions and things to keep me busy when ‘wine hour’ would normally occur. Love my adult colouring books, being creative and making stuff. So have decided to take up the challenge of weaving! ALSO note to self just because I am not putting a glass to my lips now does not mean I can fill it…[Read more]

    • Absolutely awesome! Keep remembering how good you feel – alcohol is no substitute for being real xx

    • That is so awesome. Jigsaw puzzles are another great ‘mindful’ activity. I think I will go and buy myself one of those adult colouring books (I could probably buy 20 with the amount of money I’ll be saving on wine this week)! You are so right about not letting your head talk you into trying to be a ‘social’ drinker – I did that after detoxing a year ago and here I am back again.

      • Colouring in so addictive and a healthy one πŸ˜‰ I found some good ones at K-Mart. I have saved about $200 this week. Imagine the ‘real’ things we could spend money on…..or save and enjoy for a nice holiday!

    • Sounds fabulous! Well done for going through that, you are very brave. So now it’s onwards and upwards. Theres tool here on this website for dealing with the 5pm siren call. I love your plan of mindfulness and exercise, that is just perfect. And weaving!!! I am attempting macrame wallhangings, just waiting for my cord to arrive that I ordered online. I think and alcoholic brain likes to keep busy and creative, and once alcohol is removed you have all this extra time and thought space to think about your creativity. Can’t wait to watch your journey unfold, you rock! xxx

      • Oh great I will check out the tool box for some tips and ideas. I have been macramΓ© pot hangers for a while but would love to attempt a wall hanging too. So much easier to stay focused sober too! Are you in NZ where do you order your cord from? Also looking forward to reading Mrs D is going without book too, my Key worker has lent me hers, but will definitely be buying my own copy!

        • I’m in Australia. Hard finding macrame cord, it’s quite expensive in craft stores. Online I found a place called Simply Macrame, will see how fast it gets here! I want to make a “curtain” and a large wall hanging. What are you going to do with your weaving?

    • Great news @pinkflamingo – you sound in a really good space. So happy for you!

    • Oh wow, that is wonderful, and so encouraging too. Wishing you All Good Things πŸ™‚

    • Nice post. So happy you are feeling much much better. Weaving, i can imagine that would be very meditative. Well done!!! πŸ™‚

    • Congratulations Pink. That’s so awesome and inspiring to me. Your post sounds so full of hope. I’m day 1 today so am looking around for things to do during the next few hours til after dinner. You gave some good ideas

    • Wow, well done. Sounds amazing and inspiring! Congratulations. I understand the thoughts about drinking socially. This is probably one of the hardest times for me. I am on day 10. Just managed to get through the Easter weekend with two outings, tempted with alcohol but pleased to say that I was able to avoid giving in, with a smile on my face while at the events. Although the next morning I found my emotions running high, feelings of anxiety and a break down in tears. I constantly think about the future where there will be times that I will visit our friends shack for new years and i am immediately consumed with anxious feelings. In my head there is a constant battle of conversations saying; you don’t need to drink to have a good time, you can do this and another voice saying; If you do have a moment of weakness its ok, its not the end of the world. It doesn’t mean you will be drinking everyday again. The thing is I know that’s exactly what will happen. It will gradually creep up and up until I will be right back where I started. I just pray that when the time comes I have the strength to resist temptation. Again….Your doing great. Thanks for sharing xxx

    • BRILLIANT BRILLIANT BRILLIANT .I went through a detox to at a place could stepping stones and further detox at home via out reach nurse .Saved my life dont think i could of dont it by myself they said that the withdrawals could do some serious damage without help.TAKE REALLY GOOD CARE OF YOURSELF LOTS OF REST AND GOOD FOOD

  • Last night of alcohol !!! Me my body and I looking forward to a healthier me in mind body and spirit. Feeling nervous but happy about the road ahead. Medical detox tomorrow under supervision for 7 days. I can do this. It’s no holiday it’s a change of life. Looking forward to the other side. It won’t be easy will have ups and downs but I can do it for me and my family!

  • PinkFlamingo posted a new activity comment 3 years, 5 months ago

    That is awesome! Congratulations. x

  • PinkFlamingo posted a new activity comment 3 years, 5 months ago

    Stay strong. keep it real with your GP. Honesty is the best answer. You can do this. Good luck and all the best.

  • PinkFlamingo posted a new activity comment 3 years, 5 months ago

    I am from Irish decent and have never ever celebrated St Patricks Day intoxicated!….makes me wonder if these people just decide they love the colour green and succumb to Irish decent and party like wild animals! Having traced my ancesteoy through my family to Ireland an travelled their with my OH it was amazing. The culture, music and feeling of belonging was amazing. I don’t feel the need to get smashed and celebrate my ancestory to prove that I am from Irish decent!

  • WHY what they heck happened to our universe that opened up this obsessiveness to become so addicted to a substance that does not bring us happiness long term, destroys our relationships, and we become addicted to something that can destroy our sole our family our hopes and dreams. Alcohol is pure evil not good for us at all. I want to see my life free of this obsession uncontaminated of this disease. Able to see life as it is, enjoy my family, waking early to the start of the day. This is my vision for my future and I look forward to striving to make it happen.

  • PinkFlamingo posted a new activity comment 3 years, 5 months ago

    Also CADS I believe are NZ wide? You cant get your GP to refer but they also have drop in clinics. Where are you based?

  • PinkFlamingo posted a new activity comment 3 years, 5 months ago

    Hey Ronnie I haven’t been a member long, but have found this site extremely supportive and welcoming. It is extremely tough to recognise you have a problem…but it is the first step. Be strong and do not listen to that little voice inside your head. You got this and you can do it!

  • PinkFlamingo posted a new activity comment 3 years, 5 months ago

    Well done πŸ™‚ Keep posting and take it day by day. I am counting down to day one…In for medical detox next Tuesday. My son is only 9.5 so not told him anything as of yet…but when he is older and has the comprehension I will tell him. Good luck x

  • PinkFlamingo posted a new activity comment 3 years, 5 months ago

    Congratulations that must have been a very difficult moment for you. Sometime the confessions are like a release of guilt that has been trapped. I am on my journey to bet the booze and confess to all that are close to me. Some done, but others still to tell. I don’t know but somehow I feel the more I tell the more free I feel of my demons!. Good luck and keep posting x

  • PinkFlamingo posted a new activity comment 3 years, 5 months ago

    Hi @janus2 yes I am in NZ haven’t used the helpline before sounds like a great idea. Have been trying to cut down previously but feeling so anxious ended up drinking more! Now I am less anxious and know the path I am taking I think it will be easier. They have said not to stop though. So tonight I will try again and also try at getting to bed earlier. No walking to school today, but a friend took my son to school for me (not driving in the mornings) Still trying to think of a white lie to tell him about where I will be next week. The stay is over EAster too, but I will be allowed out for 2 hours so hopefully I will get to see my family then. Thanks for your words of encouragement. x

  • PinkFlamingo posted a new activity comment 3 years, 5 months ago

    Hey @janus2 had CADS meeting today with OH went well, although my other support Key Worker wasn’t there who is a little more hard core and was wanting OH to experience her an point of view. Anyway we are on the right track. Seems dumb to say slightly relieved, not happy but happy, anxious, weary and thinking that feckin g-d. I am ready for this and will take all that is offered. I want to kick this shit to where it belongs which is not with me! It is a scary thought to think I will never drink again. I like the taste and enjoy the feeling that alcohol brings. but it is not healthy and I do not need it !!! OMgosh I certainly hope I am singing the sounds of this when I am post detox! I seriously do not care what side affects the drugs the give me be are. I am a better person sober than drunk. It would be so nice to think that I could be the person who could happily have a casual glass of wine with friends…..like I used to but I am physically and mentally scared of that possibility and the outcome that could be so different with rose coloured glasses on. SO AS OF NEXT TUESDAY THIS IS IT !!! ALCOHOL DETOX HERE I COME AND HOPE THE FUTURE IS AN ALCOHOL FREE ONE FOR ME AND MY FAMILY! Sorry for the shouting but it needed to be shouted! GOOD LUCK to all on their journeys too xxxx

  • PinkFlamingo posted a new activity comment 3 years, 5 months ago

    Looking forward to watching it πŸ™‚

  • PinkFlamingo posted a new activity comment 3 years, 5 months ago

    Hi I haven’t got to to day 1 yet, but I congratulate you on your efforts so far. Don’t give in to temptation you can do it, your thoughts are stronger than you believe. You do not need to drink. Your life is so much better now without alcohol. Moderations is not the key. No alcohol is the key! You are sober and your can do this. Keep at it, moderation will only lead you into the temptation of more!

  • I despise the power of wine !!! I felt at around 9.30-10ish rather sleepy and considered taking myself of to be but alas…..’the feeling’ had not yet occurred. I felt so strong that I would just cast it away and take myself off to be early for a change. But no not yet! I needed to have that feeling of intoxication first! Seriously I don’t understand my own mind at times. I really thought that I was headed for an early night, not feeling the blur of having to much wine and thinking yes I will be okay to drive in the morning. Sadly not tonight, I will be waking tomorrow wondering why oh why did I do this again, and having to face the fact I am incapable of driving and have to walk to school! When oh when will I wake up and smell the roses to realise it is my life I am destroying! 7 more days until medical detox under hospital supervison…. I am determined I will remain sober after this!

  • PinkFlamingo posted a new activity comment 3 years, 5 months ago

    New Chums is so beautiful! We hiked there in the rain and humidity a year or so ago! Agree what a weird name πŸ™‚

  • PinkFlamingo posted a new activity comment 3 years, 5 months ago

    Hi Suzi I am a newbee too. Welcome to the group. I find it really inspiring. Good luck on your journey x

  • PinkFlamingo posted a new activity comment 3 years, 5 months ago

    That’s fantastic! Great planning.

  • PinkFlamingo posted a new activity comment 3 years, 5 months ago

    I like this. Wise words!

  • PinkFlamingo posted a new activity comment 3 years, 5 months ago

    Good luck @Stabilo. Your story sounds a similar one to mine thinking it must be normal behaviour. I am booked in for a medical detox in just over a week. Looking forward to my day 1 too. This site in incredible I wished I had joined sooner. You can do it !!!

  • PinkFlamingo posted a new activity comment 3 years, 5 months ago

    Ha yes been there done that too. I was quite shocked that I did it…..got caught out though, so realised I wasn’t fooling anyone but myself.

  • PinkFlamingo posted a new activity comment 3 years, 5 months ago

    Thanks @janus2 for the helpful info. I am intending on keeping to myself during the detox, not there to make friends, just to get the help I need. Might seem selfish but it is all about me so I can recover healthily. Writing a journal sounds like a great idea! It will be helpful to look back on I am sure. Books YES I want to get @MrsD book and anything else that might be useful to read. I have also just seen there is going to some Mindfulness courses on in my area so will look into those for after. Really struggling with support at home though, Husband doesn’t support me infact he told me last night that I have no will power and doesn’t think I will succeed and that he thinks that I am doing medical detox as a quick fix that I think it will instantly cure me. What utter bullshite! Well I certainly do not think that at all and my intentions are to take every advantage of help that is offered to me to help in my recovery. Lucky I have supportive friends and this page to channel my feelings and get advice.

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    Congratulations on 1650! you must feel so proud of your achievement. I am yet to make day one but will get there soon!

  • PinkFlamingo posted a new activity comment 3 years, 5 months ago

    How intense is it? How do the drugs make you feel? Was it worth it? Up until I became an alcohol I always preferred the natural side of treatment for illnesses etc. But my DR and CADS are saying it is not safe for me to stop by myself, that I am at risk of seizures, delerium etc etc. I am so scared, but know deep down that my only alternative is to go cold turkey. I have been playing options out in my mind, thinking I can do it on my own, but the thought of having a seizure terrifies me. How did it go for you? Do you recommend?

  • PinkFlamingo posted a new activity comment 3 years, 5 months ago

    Thanks janebel I sure as heck hope so !!!

  • PinkFlamingo posted a new activity comment 3 years, 5 months ago

    Hi thanks….I made it to the raft race but didn’t end up on the raft after all….too many on the deck! But I stayed to watch them set off and joined them at the other end for a sausage sizzle. Some others were sitting around enjoying a beer or wine after a long paddle down the river and basking in the sunshine. It didn’t bother me then, I have avoided drinking like that so not to embarrass myself. I wish I was one of those people that could just enjoy a couple and that’s it. Unfortunately I don’t see myself ever being a social drinker. I think its cold turkey and no going back. Well that’s the plan of attack. x

  • PinkFlamingo posted a new activity comment 3 years, 5 months ago

    Wishing you lots of strength peace and success too. I am enjoying this site just seeing that you are not on your own.

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