Hi all you lovelies out there. I've been part of this community almost from the beginning. I have met some of
you in person and that's been amazing. My husband and the love of my life died in January 2017
and since then I've been on medication and Drinking on and off.I'm
having counselling regularly and I’m learning new strategies on how to enjoy my life again. I’m really happy with the progress I’m making so far this year . More AF days than drinking ones.
Love and hugs to
Everyone who joins this community. And special thanks to Lotta. Xxx
Checking in. Did Dry January then had wine at a movie on Saturday then a bottle last night. No, I can’t be trusted . I know that I’ll slip into my bad habits again . I’m going to carry on … Day 1 or 34 – 2 . I had a splurge now it’s back on the horse again …
Right back up on that horse ya go, love! oxoxo I remember when I lapsed…it went from “one glass” (I DID manage ONCE to have just one….) to begging my husband to “pleasssseeeee go get anooother oooonee”…..Two plus bottles of red wine later…..and that was my last hangover ever. God willing.
Day 32. I’m feeling pretty good except being extremely tired after lunch . Luckily I work part time and my day finished at lunchtime. I had lunch then had a very long nap. Today I finish a bit later. I’m hoping I’ll be ok . I’ve never been this tired in my whole life. I’ve been checked out by my GP, blood tests etc but I’m perfectly healthy which is great so all I can put it down to is withdrawl. Anyway, I’m off for a long walk while it’s cool. Have a great day everyone. X
Hi there @clearrainbow . Sounds like you’ve got a very full plate on your hands at the moment ( including the ice cream ) . You will be very glad when you have shifted and you are near your daughter. Everything else will fall into place soon I’m sure. Take care x
1 month AF at the end of today and I know I’m going to make it as it’s my new norm 😀 In the beginning the concept of Dry January was all I could see myself doing and I’m so glad I’ve done that, but now what? Go back to drinking ? No the thought actually doesn’t appeal to me strangely enough. I’m happy with the way things are so I’ll keep going. There are a couple of challenges ahead however so it won’t be plain sailing. Have a great day . Stay cool everyone in NZ another day of the heatwave today ( late 30 degrees Celsius in most places ) and in the USA Northern Staes, stay warm. X
Omg @noelle I am sooooo pleased to hear this!!!! The AF life really is better in so many obvious and more subtle ways. Relationships- better. Work – better. Energy- better. Etc!!! It’s not perfect and the usual waves of blah come and go, but it’s definitely better. Good for you!!!
Sorry I just read your post below mine @sober4real. Sounds like tonight isn’t a good night for you. Try not to let things get on top of you . Can you distract yourself somehow before bed ? Or as someone has mentioned just go to bed😀
Hi @noelle, I’m binge watching Netflix doing Sudoku. I’ll be okay- it was just the first time I had been seriously triggered since I got sober and that’s a HUGE SHAME that I have to feel like that with my own kid. I will eventually have a big talk with her …..in good time. Thanks for the support. I will go to bed soon. I’ve been staying up too late and it is going to catch up with me.
Reporting in, 29 days. 😀 this hot weather is making me feel like a glass of Chardonnay but I haven’t partaken. Nice to have evenings free to do what I want without feeling tired. Hope everyone is all good. X
28 days today. I’m actually doing it- still can’t believe what’s happening. 😀Back to secondary teaching today. Teacher only day but lots to do and stress of computers not working properly. Grr hope all is up and running when Year 9 s and 13s arrive. I REALLY felt like a drink at about 4pm but I realised I was thirsty and tired again. I need to make sure I have that truly under control by having plenty of AF alternatives and treats on hand when I get home. Humid, cloudy and warm here which isn’t too bad. Supposed to be a scorcher tomorrow. Have chosen my dress for the powhiri ( Maori welcome ceremony ) tomorrow. Bag and laptop all packed ready and waiting. Lunch made. Have an amazing day or night wherever you are and think of me tomorrow teaching in a boiling hot classroom full of sweaty teenagers !
You’re doing great! Congrats. In hot weather I made sure I had a cooler of AF drinks in the car so I wouldn’t be tempted to stop on the way home. Hubby was so lovely, he packed the cooler for me and even added snacks.😘
@dontblamethemusic try to get out and interact with people again. Think about some of the things you used to enjoy, even back in your childhood. Even if you don’t talk to many people to start with you could take it in stages. Eg, walking, biking, fishing, learning or playing an instrument. I’m not sure of your circumstances and how far along the recovery trail you are but have you thought of getting a pet of some sort. Looking after an animal is very therapeutic and allows us to feel responsible for something other than ourselves. I hope this helps and keep posting on here. Others may have ideas .
Hahaha we all need a cat to keep us on the straight and narrow. Tell us more about her if/when you have time. Hope you like it here – so many of us are finding new ways to live, broadening our horizons, overcoming anxiety and so, so many other things
Hi all. Had a very quiet day today. Housework, reading, school prep, groceries. Day 27 , I can’t believe I’ve almost finished my Dry January. When I started that’s all I thought I could manage , but I think I’ll keep going😀I can’t believe I’m saying that – amazing !
Checking in. Just realised I have been miscounting my days. I had my last drink on NYE. So I’m now 26 days. I didn’t have much that night, just twoo teeny tiny ( 175 ml bottles ) of wine . I had my grandson staying the night and I had saved some sparklers from fireworks night so we went outside and had fun with those . Another reason for going AF I thought, spending quality time with him. On another note, I was listening to the Recovery Elevator yesterday and a guest mentioned that he doesn’t call himself an alcoholic in recovery. I personally hate that term too. That is one reason why I’m not keen on going to AA. Don’t you have to say.. I’m x, I’m an alcoholic… To me, if you’re trying to recover , that should be a label you want to forget ? I prefer to think of myself a problem drinker , or alcohol dependent. I don’t want to be reminded of it all the time, I just want to get better and move on. It’s a period in my life that happened , I need to be extra vigilant but I don’t need to be reminded of it. I hope I haven’t offended anyone who goes to AA here. For many, many people all over the world, it works but sorry, it’s not for me.
Many now refer to it as an “alcohol use disorder”. I’m like you, I don’t think of myself as a recovering alcoholic. I think of myself as being alcohol free. Congratulations on 26 days @noelle! That’s awesome.
I like, ” I want to be free of as many poisons as possible. ” I guess our bodies need to recover from smoking, from toxins, from all drugs, but yes the in recovery thing is a bit weird and old perhaps.
@noelle I feel the same way and I’ve been going to AA on/off for 25 years. The reason initially they asked people to identify themselves was simply to help them break down their barriers of denial. It put a lot of shame into me and I still do not like it to this day. It’s been part of the program from the beginning – maybe because those who were at bottom were harder to get onboard in the old days. It’s definitely one of the biggest reasons I don’t go often any longer.
Thanks for the reminder, my daughter loves them. What a nice melody but true I don’t want to live like this but I don’t want to die. It’s very happy music even with some of the lyrics. LOL. Reminds me of my childhood when I would be playing mudpies with grasshoppers, potato bugs and salamanders. hahaha! Catchy!
I think if you CHOOSE to be alcohol free its an advantage.That way you take ownership of your recovery and you are the one in control. That’s what happened to me 25 days ago. The thought of just doing the things that were being offered to me was enough to spur me into action. The Drug and Alcohol specialists were very surprised but very pleased that I was already a week sober before my scheduled appointment. I do realise however that this approach is not an option or could be unsafe for some people. For me, I choose to get a referral from my doctor to CADS , I choose to cut down, I choose to go AF initially for 30 days , it’s so much more powerful when you make thechoices that are right for you. Good on you for self referring 👍
24 days and still going strong just tired . Looks like it’s going to be a lovely day today . From my bed I can see blue sky . Another hot one . Thinking of our NZ “cousins” in Australia struggling in the 40 degrees Celsius heat. Hoping your air con is cranked up. On the news last night they said if the temperatures went over 40 in Adelaide, one pub was offering free beer. That sounds like a recipe for disaster to me. Why not offer free cold AF drinks?!
I remember going to a dodgy club once in my late teens. 50¢ for a handle of beer $1 for a glass of water! And a sign in the toilets saying the water wasn’t suitable for drinking! WTF I’m sure they couldn’t do that these days.
Thanks @newstartsteph you just gave me the reminder to be more adventurous with my clothes! I’ve got a wardrobe full but tend to stick with just my favourites. I need to go for more adventurous combos ! It’s amazing how they can give you a boost when you need it . Sounds like you are really going strong, keep it up !
Yes @laraised it is very normal to feel tired in tge early stages apparently. I’m only on day 24 tomorrow but I asked this same question a few days ago. I think that the explanation was that your body is adjusting to the new way of existing without alcohol. Try not to give in and just let your body heal. Good Luck on your journey.
Hi @Mrs D yup I feel the same way about my ginger beer and lime now. And – I can actually guzzle it down not like wine which I had to make last! I honestly think that half my trouble ( 23 days ago ) was that I was thirsty . 😀
Hi @clearrainbow. What a pity you felt rejected at the A.A. meeting . Was it the same one you used to go to ? Maybe they thought 2 days was not long enough under your belt to be there ? I don’t go to AA but I’m sure you could go to a different one. Yes, you have a lot on your plate but stay strong and there’s plenty going on to keep you busy. Have a good day / night .
Daughter left today so the house is very empty again. I blobbed around this afternoon not feeling like doing anything. Not much energy these last few days . I hope I can cope with going back to work next week. I really need to as only income now I’m on my own. Feeling a bit down tonight and felt like a drink but couldn’t be bothered going out in the strong winds we’ve been having. Hopefully I’ll feel better tomorrow.
Three weeks AF today. Felt very, very tired today. Had to force myself to do anything. No energy and a bit grumpy . Feeling down too about my daughter having to go back to Bristol. I so love having her here and I’m sick of living alone. On the plus side, I’m stoked about my 21 days AF. Have a great day/ night all and stay strong. X
Omg , you just reminded me how tired i felt all the time at the beginning , hang in there , your whole body and brain are getting back in sync and it takes time . And 3 weeks free of alcohol is just fantastic . ❤
Congrats on 21 days! I was very exhausted for quite a while but I can now feel my energy returning. I think it is all the Post Acute Withdrawl stuff. Hard to get through but I think normal. Have a great day.
21 days!!!! oxoxox And you have my compassion for feeling sadness over your daughter going back to where she lives. Maybe you could permanently move down the road….closer to her? It is not unheard of in families and a rather normal desire to be close to your own tribe. oxoxoxo
@Janus2 Oh I’m sooo sorry to hear about fatbum😭 I must have missed your post. I have had the great pleasure of meeting you and fatbum a couple of times and she was a lovely dog and anyone could see that she was a very special part of your life. My thoughts are with you my friend. Hugs and kisses .
3 weeks today😀Feeling positive and strong . One day left with my daughter and her baby wriggler inside her, before she goes back to Brisbane . I will miss her so much but not long to go until the baby is born and I’ll be over there being Grandma and enjoying every minute of it with no booze ! Have an amazing day everyone – N