A year sober now and my life is transformed. I feel a deep sense of contentment and pride. Oct 2017 7 months done and it's getting easier, more and more normal. I don't drink. I'm not ashamed to be sober, I'm bloody proud. Don't know how I kept going with so many hangovers. It never gets old going to bed sober and waking up fresh.
June 2017 D108 I'm doing it, I'm starting to live the life I've always wanted to. The shame and self loathing has gone and been replaced with a quiet sense of achievement and peace.
March 2017 So, I did 100 days af and then didn't know what i wanted so tried moderation one last time. Mostly I did ok but it made me realise how much happier I was without alcohol in my life so here I am, starting again.2016 Over the last few years I've tried over and over to control my drinking but it's time to accept that I'll never be someone who sips slowly or stops after one or two. I need to stop. I want to be proud, not ashamed of myself and i want to be the best mum i can be. I want my energy and sparkle back.....
Took the girls to a kids choir tonight. Miss 8 was singing. Had a really confronting moment just before the concert. We’d dropped the kids who were singing off to their teacher and were waiting for the main doors to open for us to take our seats. It was general admission so first in gets the best seats. Another mum, a mate of mine, as soon as she dropped her girl off said “right I’m off for a drink, i need to preload” they left the venue in search. I meanwhile waited with miss 10 for the doors to open and we got great seats. 2 years ago i was that mum. I would have preloaded and then probably smuggled more into the concert. Tonight it didn’t occur to me and i was horrified when i saw this mirror to my past. I am so very thankful that is no longer my life x
I love how you no longer need that drink, because I have been there, too….just like the mom you saw during the choir night today. Give yourself credit for the changes YOU made happen in your life. oxoxoxoxox So good to have you here, marmite!! Your post motivated me to keep going on this sober path. It is so very worth it….and the examples of how the alternative (drinking) looks like are all around us…each and every day.