• Mari135 posted an update 2 hours, 40 minutes ago

    Day something something
    Some o’clock

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    Something something morning coffee….aaand we’re off to work….lol….
    All is well over here but a wee bit of a morning rush…..worked till 11pm last night to prep a guest speaker event I organized for one of my classes….massive self-care failure there and a reminder that I don’t have to do these…[Read more]

  • Mari135 posted a new activity comment 2 hours, 43 minutes ago

    Two full weeks is an amazing milestone, way to go!!! oxoxx I remember the first big ones…the one week, ten days (double digits) and then the next is 3 weeks, which AA celebrates as well I believe. Keep up the amazing self-care!

  • Mari135 posted a new activity comment 2 hours, 44 minutes ago

    oxoxox it sounds like a peaceful wave is washing through to bring everyone healing. oxoxoxox Oh and that bunny….bliss much!!

  • Mari135 posted a new activity comment 2 hours, 45 minutes ago

    Hugs to reena! oxoxoxo

  • Mari135 posted a new activity comment 2 hours, 46 minutes ago

    Well done! xoox

    • Hi, I was hoping I would hear from you @Mari135. Your posts always have such calmness and wisdom to them. I aspire to achieve some of what you have. I did think about your questions about childhood and I have my theories about that. I think my drinking stems from constant anxiety and worry about life now and in the future. It is endless and…[Read more]

  • Mari135 posted a new activity comment 2 hours, 46 minutes ago

    Welcome here!
    oxoxo

  • Mari135 posted a new activity comment 2 hours, 49 minutes ago

    That’s an amazing quote….I’ll hang that up by my desk. oxoxoxxoxo Thanks for sharing your kind and encouraging morning posts with us!

  • Mari135 posted a new activity comment 2 hours, 50 minutes ago

    Day 561 is a massive accomplishment Jes! oxoxo And it’s ok to be an asshole every now and then. I am like that and I hope to God it’s normal, lol. Especially to people closest to me, like hubby. Oooops.
    πŸ™‚

    oxoxox

  • Mari135 posted a new activity comment 2 hours, 51 minutes ago

    254…boom! oxoxox

  • Mari135 posted a new activity comment 2 hours, 52 minutes ago

    oxoxoxo Loving your updates, JR! Have a lovely Monday!

  • Mari135 posted a new activity comment 18 hours, 23 minutes ago

    Loving how you give yourself the most precious gift…time.
    You got time to decide what feels right regarding the house.

    My parents downsized in their 60’s and you will know what to do and when to do it. Maybe for now, take in that beautiful spring and let new life cover up the old wounds…..the familiar and safe surroundings help guide you back…[Read more]

  • Mari135 posted a new activity comment 18 hours, 25 minutes ago

    You are not a bad person, Bobby.
    I have said AWFUL stuff when I was blackout drunk….One guy in particular in college got it good….I can’t remember what I said but I drunk-raged at him GOOD….We met up years later and he wasn’t angry at all….I think if anything people are concerned because they want us to be ok and safe.

    Now given my…[Read more]

    • Hi @Bobby ……we are with you and we hear you …..I’m only just starting out having hit rock bottom and getting to a point where I have to and want to get out of this dark hole…… so I guess I’m not experienced enough on this journey yet to offer any pearls of advice …… but this community on here will surround you and support you and…[Read more]

  • People ordering breakfast cocktails and champagne with orange juice all around us during breakfast this morning…..My thoughts?
    “Hmm….those look…too small….I’d need at least…..like 4 to even feel anything….and then I’d keep drinking all day and feel like shit right around 1pm/2pm.”

    In sum, I am still an alcoholic and I would still…[Read more]

    • She’s so f’n sneaky that wine witch isn’t Sh. Even after all the evidence we present ourselves daily in sobriety, she still tries to sneak in there with her happy lies about how good it is to be a pisshead. Sounds like you are having a great time in spite of her! And ewwww what is a “breakfast cocktail”!!!!?

    • Hi @Mari135 I often have thoughts of “a drink would be nice, a long cool southern comfort with plenty of ice and diet coke” especially when people are here like yesterday ploughing into it, my daughter and her friends…….but that thought is immediately countered with another reinforcing thought ” but I am a greedy little pisshead when I drink…[Read more]

    • Thank you @mari135 I got a really great take-away line from your post today….
      – The fantasy of drinking is fun, but the reality isn’t.

    • Happy study sweet Mari. I get a ghastly knot in my tummy just reading or hearing about such things, then remember with truckloads of gratitude, all mine is pretty light weight from here to retirement, and it is fascinating, relevant to both my role and to me – no more agonising and cramming πŸ™‚
      But good for your brain and time of life πŸ™‚ πŸ™‚ πŸ™‚ xxxxx

    • That fantasy ….fiou …we know the reality . And i know what you mean the craziest idea popped in my mind while going to my AA meeting this morning as i walked in front of a posh restaurant , the voice said : that would be a nice place to start drinking again……my first glass of red wine .
      Mmmm ….yeah sure .
      Then was offered a mimosa at…[Read more]

  • Mari135 posted a new activity comment 21 hours, 53 minutes ago

    Oh my goodness…and I just about finished that last sentence about the drunk chicken…it makes complete sense if you’re asking me!!! πŸ™‚

  • Mari135 posted a new activity comment 21 hours, 53 minutes ago

    oxoxox Happy Easter!

  • Mari135 posted a new activity comment 21 hours, 54 minutes ago

    44 days!!! oxoxo And oh boy do you have my compassion for the mood/experience swing there. How often do I start out my day on here feeling like Buddha himself….sharing love and sunshine and unicorn sparkles….self-assured of my emotional state and hopeful about the day….5 minutes later it all goes to shit. The ups and downs of a day can be…[Read more]

    • Oh my goodness…and I just about finished that last sentence about the drunk chicken…it makes complete sense if you’re asking me!!! πŸ™‚

  • Mari135 posted a new activity comment 1 day, 1 hour ago

    Man..that legacy….. oxoxoxxo
    Had no idea jelly beans grow into lollipops! πŸ™‚
    Have so much fun and soak up that so-well-deserved family time. You created this safe space for yourself and everyone close to you. Epic Easter high fice!

    oxoxox

  • Mari135 posted an update 1 day, 1 hour ago

    Day 735
    7:33am

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    Morning coffee….and a busy day of working ahead but that’s ok….summer break in a few weeks when all I do is teach online.
    Had a lovely two hour breakfast with a friend yesterday and today another one with other friends….Easter is busy and I like it!

    oxoxoxox

  • Mari135 posted a new activity comment 2 days ago

    Oh Gold…pure gold that quote! oxoxoxoxo

  • Mari135 posted a new activity comment 2 days ago

    oxoxox I am really sorry to hear that and hope both recover super fast πŸ™ oxoxoxo

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