• LuluD posted a new activity comment 3 weeks, 2 days ago

    I’ve noticed after 10 days the major cravings are gone. Unfortunately for me there are always fleeting (or sometimes longer) moments of craving. You have to do the work of playing it forward and reminding yourself that the buzz you get for half an hour (if that and that’s the only part that really feels good) is really not worth it.

  • LuluD posted an update 3 weeks, 2 days ago

    Feeling good again. It’s amazing what a roller coaster this thing called life can be. I have to remember during the down times that it really does come back up again. It takes effort and hard work though, you have to get out in the sunshine for that walk to appreciate nature and be grateful for the beauty. It’s hard but those little walks and mindfulness are the first steps and necessary steps. Work on the negative self talk, there’s no need to be so hard on ourselves. We are worth the work.

  • LuluD posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago

    Her book and facebook website is great! I actually did the audiobook. Lots of great information.

    • Thanks @LuluD. I listen to her podcasts. They are ok but not real inspiring sometimes. Just thought maybe the 30 day thing might keep me accountable. Maybe I’ll read her book first. Maybe if I understood why I can’t stop the hamster wheel I’d be able to. I don’t know

  • LuluD posted a new activity comment 1 month, 2 weeks ago

    Such a slippery slope… and a really scary, knowing the big steep plunge into darkness is there.

  • LuluD posted a new activity comment 1 month, 2 weeks ago

    @WakingOwl, I am trying to be kind and today is about rest and healing. I think I need to go back to thinking in a 30 day block of time. At least to start, after a while it does feel good to say indefinitely but it does take this first month to build those muscles!

  • LuluD posted a new activity comment 1 month, 2 weeks ago

    Yes, @sober4real! That con list is way longer than the pro list. And that pro list only has one pitiful line. Feeling good for 20 min max…. So not worth it

  • LuluD posted a new activity comment 1 month, 2 weeks ago

    Thanks @AnneC, I got a little emotional reading this because I have been in such despair about how terrible I am. Now trying to ease up on myself and find that line between feeling guilty and learning from my mistakes and just being mean to myself..

  • LuluD posted a new activity comment 1 month, 2 weeks ago

    Yes, same here. I am well aware of how this game works and I can only moderate for so long before it goes wrong. Also, it’s just so mentally exhausting to think about drinking so often.

  • LuluD posted an update 1 month, 2 weeks ago

    Haven’t been around much lately. Having trouble staying 100% AF and it’s bringing me down more and more each time. The answer is so simple, so why is it so hard? Especially once the moment is going its so much easier to stick with so what is it that is making me think that a couple will be ok? It’s not that often but I need it to be none. I know the slippery slope and don’t want to go there. Just looking for some accountability as it makes it much easier for me.

    • @LuluD, I’m glad you’re on here, and I’m sorry you’re having a hard time. You’ve got all the right ideas, and it will come. You know alcohol sucks. Now you have to set yourself up to succeed–figure out your triggers and then figure out what you can do differently. Alcohol is what’s terrible, not you. Try to remember that beating yourself up will give alcohol a ticket in. Treat yourself very, very well. The early days are tough, so make it as easy as possible on yourself. Everything you’ve done up to now counts and contributes toward your freedom from alcohol. I know: I don’t know you, but one thing I know for sure is that you deserve the beautiful, AF life you want. We can do this.

      • Thanks @AnneC, I got a little emotional reading this because I have been in such despair about how terrible I am. Now trying to ease up on myself and find that line between feeling guilty and learning from my mistakes and just being mean to myself..

    • Glad you are here @lulud it’s hard – I guess if it were easy none of us would be here right? Everyone has to be in a different place regarding being done. For me, my kidneys and liver hurt so bad all the time I was scared to death. It was horrible honestly. So that’s what it took to scare and to just realize I am so done. That doesn’t mean I don’t have to be vigilant….I do…indeed but I was really sick of it. It makes me miserable and I don’t want to live that way any longer. One thing someone told me to do a long time ago was make a list of the consequences of my drinking- such as accidents, my body, issues with my family and friends and my job, money – you name it. Maybe that will help you solidify that you are for sure in the right place. Hang in there……you can do this! If I can do it you can.

      • Yes, @sober4real! That con list is way longer than the pro list. And that pro list only has one pitiful line. Feeling good for 20 min max…. So not worth it

    • When I came here I too wasn’t drinking that often but every time I did was problematic. You’re here talking so you have a good idea what you need to do. Be kind to yourself, maybe set yourself a short challenge to build on? I started with 30 days and came here every day to count down and keep myself accountable.

      • @WakingOwl, I am trying to be kind and today is about rest and healing. I think I need to go back to thinking in a 30 day block of time. At least to start, after a while it does feel good to say indefinitely but it does take this first month to build those muscles!

    • I am constantly hearing a little voice in my head telling me I know a couple would be fine. And another little voice telling me to knock it off because I may only have a couple tonight, sure. And then next week a couple two times that week and then a couple becomes four or worse becomes whiskey which never stops at a couple and then suddenly I realize I have been drunk or at least buzzed every night in the same week. The accountability here is essential to me – checking in every day has definitely kept me from “just a couple would be fine”.

      • Such a slippery slope… and a really scary, knowing the big steep plunge into darkness is there.

  • LuluD posted a new activity comment 4 months, 3 weeks ago

    We always end up saying to ourselves that “one will never hurt” but it does, so much. It starts that inevitable slippery slope till eventually like you said its drinking all day until I’ve passed out. Thank you for this reminder. We can’t ever forget or get too comfortable.

  • LuluD posted a new activity comment 5 months, 2 weeks ago

    Glad it’s not too painful for you and you’re getting through it. xoxo

  • LuluD posted a new activity comment 5 months, 2 weeks ago

    I don’t spend as much time here as I used to but @sobermommy1013 has always been such a positive influence that really helped me through some shameful moments.

  • LuluD posted a new activity comment 5 months, 2 weeks ago

    Always awful to hear that, especially since it could’ve been us. Have you casually mentioned how great you feel and dropped it in conversation that it’s from being AF?

  • LuluD posted a new activity comment 5 months, 2 weeks ago

    @jwh612 I can’t count the times that I acted like I just remembered conversations, gossip, movies, even late night pizza! Scary… And yes, @Sober4real it got bad more than once but you’re right things could’ve always gotten really bad at any moment.

  • LuluD posted a new activity comment 5 months, 3 weeks ago

    Thanks @soberstylist and @Mari135, amazing how quickly the wine witch can manipulate us. Writing down some of the bad times ie hiding bottles, nights I can’t remember and embarrassing myself. I don’t want it! Even the other night we were looking through Netflix and I said “ooh, how about that one? ” My bf “reminded me” that we already saw it. No idea what he is talking about or which night it could’ve been that we saw it!

    • I had so many times when I faked remembering something. I wasn’t very good at it. I often heard “you don’t remember that?” from my hubby. Not a good feeling at all 😬

  • LuluD posted a new activity comment 5 months, 3 weeks ago

    Great goal to have! I am with you, not drinking today!

  • LuluD posted an update 5 months, 3 weeks ago

    Posting because I feel that I am getting complacent and lazy bout doing the work to stay sober. I always worry because this is when you start to forgot how bad it was and “it’s fine, go ahead..” So.. here I am, remembering how bad it does get and that it does take some daily work on myself to stay in a good place. Not just with sobriety but also mental health. Kinda go hand in hand. Keep working on yourself, you’re worth it!

    • Write down just how bad it got & read it every now and then, I read my story and that puts me off ever drinking again lol XX 😀

    • LuluD, I so needed to hear this today. Thanks for sharing! I had quite a few “it’s fine…go ahead” thoughts over the last couple of months….not letting the wine witch win. oxoxox

    • Thanks @soberstylist and @Mari135, amazing how quickly the wine witch can manipulate us. Writing down some of the bad times ie hiding bottles, nights I can’t remember and embarrassing myself. I don’t want it! Even the other night we were looking through Netflix and I said “ooh, how about that one? ” My bf “reminded me” that we already saw it. No idea what he is talking about or which night it could’ve been that we saw it!

      • I had so many times when I faked remembering something. I wasn’t very good at it. I often heard “you don’t remember that?” from my hubby. Not a good feeling at all 😬

    • @lulud I agree not to forget and also that it could always get worse than we can imagine.

    • @jwh612 I can’t count the times that I acted like I just remembered conversations, gossip, movies, even late night pizza! Scary… And yes, @Sober4real it got bad more than once but you’re right things could’ve always gotten really bad at any moment.

  • LuluD posted a new activity comment 6 months ago

    I feel the same way about sleep. Theres lots of reasons why I drank and why so much but definitely that end of night panic and knowing that chugging another glass of wine will put me to sleep. I still have trouble falling asleep but use melatonin and a sleep meditation app. Even though it takes a little while to fall asleep I sleep so much better and all the way through the night!

  • LuluD posted a new activity comment 6 months, 1 week ago

    Vanity is a great excuse to get started! Anything it takes. Then feeling great helps to keep you going!

  • LuluD posted an update 6 months, 1 week ago

    Day 28! Still feeling really strong about this regardless of the struggles I have been facing. Everything is much more manageable with a clear mind. I think about it like this. Every morning you wake up and these struggles will be remembered. They are much more daunting if you don’t remember the night before and your head feels like goo.

  • LuluD posted a new activity comment 6 months, 1 week ago

    I am new to Colorado and haven’t had a chance to make it there yet! Heard so many awesome things!

  • LuluD posted a new activity comment 6 months, 1 week ago

    You’re still trying and still wanting to stop the behavior so be kind to yourself. Where are you taking a mindfulness class? Such a great idea!

  • LuluD posted a new activity comment 6 months, 1 week ago

    Thank you @Liberty, @mamatomany, @Agirl, @oceania, @tipsytoegal and @lushnomore. Was so upset and felt like a puppy that had just been kicked! Seeing a little more clearly now.

  • LuluD posted a new activity comment 6 months, 1 week ago

    @Oceania it is a pretty legit business. They get leads from the website and we follow up. They are trying to be very green and sustainable and even talking about ditching sport fishing because of the impact on the environment. I think they are in over their heads. Very weird experience for sure.

  • LuluD posted an update 6 months, 1 week ago

    So today is day 27. I am trying to stay positive but I just walked out of a job. I have a great resume, 10 years at the same company before being laid off. Sr Account exec for a large tech company, so not too shabby but I have not been able to get a new job since moving to Colorado. I finally landed one and I knew it was entry level which is fine, it was coordinating and selling dream vacations. Yesterday was day 1 (there were 2 of us starting, although we did a few hours of training on the regions of the country last week. No program training) and I quickly picked up on 2 pieces of software without much direction and able to call someone, close that task and create a new while sending the follow up email all at one time. I asked to listen in on a phone call before diving in myself. That didn’t happen. After almost 10 hours, no lunch (I was starving!) I got someone on the phone and was surprised at how well I engaged considering I was overwhelmed and feeling awkward and not sure what to say. I blanked when they asked about the rainy season but put them on a brief hold and got the answer and the customer was happy and ready to see a preliminary itinerary. This was one piece of software that the owners wife had just shown us by going through an itinerary that he needed. This was at 4:30 pm. This morning I come in and was really put down and told how disappointed they were with how yesterday went. I didn’t even know the weather… we only got one itinerary done and so poorly that we probably wouldn’t even get the business. Even if we had gotten it booked it wouldn’t be enough to even cover our salary for the day (salary meaning we have to sell $50k before even getting commission). I was so close to tears. The owner kept saying how much it was going to cost him to invest in us and on and on. I was trying to think how I was even going to get past this conversation and pick up the phone to start working again when the other guy hired said maybe you’re right and…[Read more]

    • Thank goodness it only lasted one day! Imagine how bad you would have felt after one week of being bullied! You did the right thing by leaving, those people sound horrible and very unhappy. Everything happens as it should and there’ll be a better job for you just around the corner. Keep putting yourself out there and it’ll come along.

    • Aw hun that sounds horrible , i really don’t think it’s a reflection of you or your work the vibe I get is there’s something fishy with the owners and maybe you and the other dude have dodged a bullet , it doesn’t sound like a usual travel agent business ?? Like do you have to phone people to sign up for holidays or do they come to you ? Don’t you worry you will find the right job soon enough this is just a wee test I reckon and your perfect job awaits xxx

      • @Oceania it is a pretty legit business. They get leads from the website and we follow up. They are trying to be very green and sustainable and even talking about ditching sport fishing because of the impact on the environment. I think they are in over their heads. Very weird experience for sure.

    • I understand that you need a job, but those people were bullies! They pretty much set you up to fail by the sounds of it. How bizarre. Huge hugs to you @lulud, this is obviously not what you expected. And on an awesome note- congrats on day 27!!! Please take good care of yourself today.

    • Oh yuck. I’m so sorry that happened to you. It had to feel just awful. It’s great that you were able to get the heck out of there before you were stuck working for an a$$, though. Oh- I’m a Colorado girl too!

    • Sweetheart those people have terrible people skills! TERRIBLE. It wasn’t you. EVERYONE is somewhat slow at a new job, no-one hits the ground running at full speed. What are they like, saying that to you after 1 day. I don’t know if you could ever be good enough for people with that mindset and what a demoralising process that would be. Thank goodness you both left. I agree, you dodged a bullet there @lulud. Go gently today. xxx

    • Makes total sense to me and frankly, I think you dodged a bullet. (edit: haha! I wrote that before seeing the other replies). You felt that you did a good job on your first day and that is what matters. Don’t let anyone take that from you. Glad that other guy was there to show you the ‘way out.” :). Something new will come! Hang in there!

    • Thank you @Liberty, @mamatomany, @Agirl, @oceania, @tipsytoegal and @lushnomore. Was so upset and felt like a puppy that had just been kicked! Seeing a little more clearly now.

    • Ugh that sounds like a toxic work place, I’m sorry! If the owner was calculating his investment return on two people in training on their first day, I’m not sure how he’s gotten as far as he has. That’s ridiculous. It’s not you, it wasn’t your work, it was a bad manager setting the tone he intended to continue. I’m sorry you’re back to looking but… yikes that sounds like an ulcer waiting to happen!

      • Agree with Em76 and everyone else. Good that you saw the ugly before you invested more time there.

    • @luluD glad you walked out. You are worth more than that and only a few days you don’t need to share with your professional network it even happened. Hang in there and breathe – feel relief – don’t be disappointed in yourself. If that boss/owner thinks he can bring you on and guilt trip you about making money the 2nd day who knows what he’s capable of. No thanks! You will find the right fit. 🙂

    • Oh for crying out loud, I hate this shit. You are well off out of there and I wish the idiots stupid manipulation didn’t hurt you. Because that is what it was. Rush yourself off, you are a . beautiful person, worthy of far better. Good riddance to bad rubbish💙💙💙

  • LuluD posted a new activity comment 6 months, 2 weeks ago

    Protecting yourself is the best thing you can do!

  • LuluD posted a new activity comment 6 months, 2 weeks ago

    I had to keep looking at open bottles of tequila. Before this journey I would take some shots and then have to run out before he came home to buy more to replace. Ugh, that entire memory makes me nauseous… I moved them to the higher cabinets so at least I don’t see them every time I walk in the kitchen.

  • LuluD posted an update 6 months, 2 weeks ago

    Happy Lunar New Year! Feeling more determined this time around. I’m coming out of a really really dark time where there were some tough things on my shoulders but I am able to put them behind me. Started a new job today so it really does feel like my new year! My partner has also not been drinking these past few weeks which has helped more than I realized it would. He probably isn’t done forever, nor does he need to be but he wants it to be in the background of his life. I’m happy to be here guys!

  • LuluD posted a new activity comment 6 months, 2 weeks ago

    Good for you @Lee!

  • LuluD posted an update 6 months, 2 weeks ago

    Staying strong and determined this time around. I think that The Naked Mind along with reading about cognitive behavior therapy along with just being fed up of the cycle is making this time different. My partner has also cut way back and has only had one beer in 3 weeks, and I have loved having that support. I have had some strong cravings that I almost caved into but distracted myself and they do pass. Each time I think about the fact I am extremely happy I didn’t cave and have no regrets, wishing I had drank. It’s true, you never wake up wishing you had drank the night before. xoxo

    • Yay, you are doing so well! And good on your partner supporting you! This Naked Mind has helped me a lot to ❤️

    • I really relate to your post on several levels. I have just this week started The Alcohol Experiment (Annie Grace – The Naked Mind) so good. But also I asked my husband this morning if he would join me as we both have issues with alcohol; and he said yes!! Makes things so much easier when you have each others backs xx

  • LuluD posted a new activity comment 6 months, 3 weeks ago

    Since I’ve started doing work on my mental health I have realized that any sort of health takes work. You can’t be strong and healthy without exercising, why would our minds be any different? I can’t believe its taken most of my life with depression for this light bulb to click.

  • LuluD posted a new activity comment 6 months, 3 weeks ago

    I got lucky, I was planning a big move so I kept hanging on and then they eliminated my territory so I got a severance package. Getting a software sales gig is tough out here. Not sure I can do the big corporate stressful sales again.

  • LuluD posted a new activity comment 6 months, 3 weeks ago

    Thank you @ttimidwarrior!

  • LuluD posted a new activity comment 6 months, 3 weeks ago

    I agree, I am grateful for many things and keep reminding myself of that. Yes, software sales is lucrative but my last couple of years were in a terrible territory so it was just stressful! I am not sure what to do. I am sure I’ll figure it out though.

    • @luluD I quit a job last year because I had the WORST territory and it was not disclosed upon me accepting the position. Infuriating! Anyway, glad I quit. There’s nothing worse than having the crappiest territory and feeling like you’ve been set up to fail. We can say no more to that!

    • I got lucky, I was planning a big move so I kept hanging on and then they eliminated my territory so I got a severance package. Getting a software sales gig is tough out here. Not sure I can do the big corporate stressful sales again.

  • LuluD posted a new activity comment 6 months, 3 weeks ago

    I think thats one of the reasons I would drink so much. I just wanted to fall asleep. You’re right though, after a few hours you wake up feeling awful and never get back to sleep so the morning is the worst! I just keep thinking about that. Hope you get some rest tonight! xoxo

  • LuluD posted an update 6 months, 3 weeks ago

    Feeling blah today but that is part of the process. Still not working so spending too much time in the house and think thats the blah. I think a job will be happening soon just don’t want to jinx it before its a done deal. Taking a risk with this one and there’s not much money to start but will be at the beginning of what could be a good thing. Or I can go back to software sales that didn’t make me happy… Anyway, have a great day all! xoxo

    • @luluD software sales is pretty lucrative – but if it doesn’t make you happy then it’s no good. I was super blah too but grateful to have the time to get sober. Once we start working again it will be a whole new world. That’s when I’ll really have to put my tools to good use!

      • I agree, I am grateful for many things and keep reminding myself of that. Yes, software sales is lucrative but my last couple of years were in a terrible territory so it was just stressful! I am not sure what to do. I am sure I’ll figure it out though.

        • @luluD I quit a job last year because I had the WORST territory and it was not disclosed upon me accepting the position. Infuriating! Anyway, glad I quit. There’s nothing worse than having the crappiest territory and feeling like you’ve been set up to fail. We can say no more to that!

        • I got lucky, I was planning a big move so I kept hanging on and then they eliminated my territory so I got a severance package. Getting a software sales gig is tough out here. Not sure I can do the big corporate stressful sales again.

    • Good luck for the job! I’ll keep my fingers crossed for you x

    • Good luck with the job! Staying home a few days in a row makes me blah too!

  • LuluD posted a new activity comment 6 months, 3 weeks ago

    I just posted about my epiphany that mental health and sobriety as well is something that needs daily work for life. Just like physical fitness. I’m not sure why I kept thinking if I do “xyz” then I’m good, move on in life. Daily work is what it takes.

  • LuluD posted an update 6 months, 3 weeks ago

    I’m taking a different approach this time and looking at the big picture. I’ve been reading a CBT self help book and well as listening to Annie’s TNM. Just like wanting to get my body in shape or practice a new hobby, mental health needs to be approached in the same way. If you don’t work at it then you likely won’t get anywhere. My mantra today is “Do the work!”. There are little exercises to do that require about 15 min a day and I think this has been my epiphany!
    I’ve also been looking at the idea of being sober a little harder and more big picture. A few weeks ago, I was hungover, sneaking drinks and just crying in bed. A few days into not drinking (again) I felt a little stronger and started making choices to get better. Today I feel like I have done a 180 in my mental health and that is way more important than a quick buzz that lasts what, 20 min? After that it feels shit. Life is not perfect, I still have a lot of work to do and just like any exercise, will need to do for the rest of my life to stay in mental shape. For me, now I see how worth it I am. Have a wonderful day friends! xoxo

    • I had the same epiphany about “mental health”. I was always an athlete – grade school through college and a runner even through 4 pregnancies. I finally realized that my mental health had never received any training or attention. When I finally processed that and started putting in the mental training/work the sober light finally turned green. We have to keep plugging away PROACTIVELY to achieve goals. And thank goodness now we have sobriety as our #1 goal. Best luck to you!!

    • Great thinking! A 20 minute vanishing buzz is not worth ruining our life for. We spend so much time planning, worrying, and in misery for that short period of time every day. Lose the drink and gain so much extra time.

    • So true & sometimes the 20 minute buzz didn’t even happen for me so it was completely pointless!

  • LuluD posted a new activity comment 6 months, 3 weeks ago

    I feel like “healthy” places like SB where the people are so beautiful and fit are a little more accommodating with the healthy lifestyle and have more options for NA beverages. Good for you, it’s always tough going on a trip and abstaining!

  • LuluD posted a new activity comment 7 months ago

    Hi Vanessa, does your doc have any other recommendations to start getting you sober slowly and safely? Very scary stuff to deal with. Thinking of you

    • I can’t stop drinking but trying to keep it a level that I don’t spaz out… I am ready to stop now having a job is keeping me sane at the moment

    • i take Naltrexone to stop the cravings.. but I physically can’t stop quickly

  • LuluD posted a new activity comment 7 months ago

    Thanks @Morgan, you’re right. Really giving attention to the things we are grateful for does help turn your thinking around!

  • LuluD posted a new activity comment 7 months ago

    It’s been a rough year, that is a motto I try to remember when things get unbearable. Sending big hugs your way so you feel supported through your rough times! xoxo

  • LuluD posted a new activity comment 7 months ago

    I am so excited just by the first couple of chapters. It’s easier to read so far than other self help books I’ve had.

  • LuluD posted a new activity comment 7 months ago

    He says 15 min a day for 2 weeks. At that point it should become a little more automatic. I’m usually too shamed of my negative self talk to bring it up to my friends. Honestly with things as bad as they’ve been I’ve had a hard time just reaching out to friends. I’m hoping this will kick that negative self talk in the ass!

  • LuluD posted an update 7 months ago

    I know a lot of us struggle with negative self talk, usually pairs with depression. I am determined to do something about it and have been researching Cognitive Behavioral Therapy. I am reading David D. Burns Feeling Good: The New Mood Therapy. I am just starting but this “summary” got me. When you are depressed you are likely telling your self how awful you are to the point you believe it and the emotional reaction is of complete despair. You may become inactive and paralyzed, afraid and unwilling to participate in the normal flow of life.
    OMG- someone gets me! The despair and paralyzed in life feeling has kept me pinned down for the last 6 months- year. So far I have learned that the first thing to do is spend 15 min day writing down your negative thoughts in one column and the rational thought next to it. Theres more to it but that’s a start and this just the first couple of chapters. I’m feeling hopeful that I can be nicer to myself. xoxo

    • I have suffered with depression and crippling anxiety on and off all my life (alcohol has definitely not helped). I have a book that I bought many years ago – a self help CBT book which I found really helpful, I’ve kept hold of it! I’ll dig it out and give you the title x

    • @luluD – i like this idea!!! I am going to start that today, i have so much negative self talk and most times when i talk to my sister or friends about it they help me see that i’m being completely exaggerated. The column idea will help for sure! thank you for this!!

      • He says 15 min a day for 2 weeks. At that point it should become a little more automatic. I’m usually too shamed of my negative self talk to bring it up to my friends. Honestly with things as bad as they’ve been I’ve had a hard time just reaching out to friends. I’m hoping this will kick that negative self talk in the ass!

    • Thanks for this tip, I may read the book too. Although depression is a thing of winter for me. Descending with the temperature and daylight 🙁

    • My psychiatrist highly recommended the David Burns book – going to order it now; thank you so much for sharing. Xxx

      • I am so excited just by the first couple of chapters. It’s easier to read so far than other self help books I’ve had.

    • That is soooo positive, go you! I would suggest another page, if you have time, to write 3 things you are grateful for each morning, and before you go to sleep. The research on this lifting people out of depression, is stunning. It is amazing how you begin to change and notice the little things – a nicely made bed, a cup of tea, a call to someone, a flower or with me, a vegetable emerging – doesn’t have to be at the win lotto level.

      @enzedgirl and a few others kept us tracking gratefulness for a while. I loved their posts as it started me off (and I never even got to the writing stage 🙂 )

      @hetiheti and her daughters email gratitude thoughts each day – still doing that heti?

      • Shame but no … we kept it up for a long time … might be time to restart again msybe … i do 3 gratitudes every morning … and in the bed i find 3 things to be thankful of for and during that day … and it is true, it helps a LOT

      • Thanks @Morgan, you’re right. Really giving attention to the things we are grateful for does help turn your thinking around!

  • LuluD posted a new activity comment 7 months ago

    Restaurant work is tough when trying to abstain…

  • LuluD posted a new activity comment 7 months ago

    The agitation and anxiety is so tough to get through. Even if you can’t run can you go for a long slow walk? Anything to burn of the excess energy? As hard as that can be it seems to be the only thing to get through the restlessness in early days.

    • It’s awful, I am so full of rage, or I was, today I feel a bit calmer and I have t cried all day so maybe my meds are kicking in?! I’m hoping I can get back to running next week, I’ve tried walking but it just doesn’t do the same thing. Maybe I should try Pilates again?!

  • LuluD posted a new activity comment 7 months ago

    I get to come here and start my morning with support from a lovely group that understands me. xoxo

  • LuluD posted a new activity comment 7 months ago

    @mumofthree I am in the same boat. I am in the US and have court next month to see what happens. We had the DMV hearing and won that but apparently courts can still take my license. Who knows, I may end up in jail. I am scared to death. Thank you for sharing, I feel like a lot of people don’t and I have felt very alone and the shame is killing me. As well as the anticipation of whats going to happen. Thinking of you

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