120 days today and really beginning to see the positive changes in my thinking. Especially in terms of my past relationship with alcohol. It was a broken crutch for so many years and a weapon that I used against myself at times. It is possible to break and mend at the same time but it’s very unproductive. I can’t even justify drinking anymore which is an extreme change in my behavior after having lived in denial about my condition for so long. I can not fight alcohol, never could. It will take me down each and every time, therefore I just leave it alone and life has become so much simpler. There’s a huge event taking place every day, it’s called Life and I’ve chosen not to drink for it. My mind, body and spirit thank me every day!
@DaveH, @malibustacey. @liberty, @jocord, @Ro and @everyone else here. These were my own exact words a week prior to drinking again. “Is it possible to break and mend at the same time?”I’ve answered that question with a “Yes” but only because the part inside of me that desires a better way of life remains. There was a slight delay in my journey and I can look at is as a layover during a flight or any type of halted resolution during a well anticipated journey. I’m finding a significant amount of relief just being able to look back and gain some recognition of how I faltered. This place, LS, is by far one of the best tools that I have found in order to abstain from drinking and to, therefore, better my life. I thank you all for being here.