I’m a married father of 2 great kids and I’m a functioning alcoholic “never thought I was”. I’ve always struggled with anxiety and drinking took that away for a short period of time but also made it so much worse the next day, I ended up in a viscous cycle. My hangovers have always been absolutely horrible to the point that any non addict would never drink again but not for me I very stupidly have punished myself for the last 20+ years.That all changes now because I don’t want my kids following in my footsteps and I hope that by seeing their dad not need it they might think about it differently because alcoholism is in my family and also my wife’s.
Day 1 for me again very disappointed I had 19 days up no problems but we held a Boxing Day family event at my place yesterday and ended up getting hammered 🤬🤬🤬🤬. So sick now and anxiety through the roof, which is so annoying because I was feeling fantastic. Hopefully this passes quick and this one session doesn’t set me back weeks…..
@kebab123456 don’t do it, it is not the answer just think of the next day it will be exactly like every other time and generally you are going to be kicking yourself more than not having a drink that’s for sure. I’m hosting boxing lunch at my place and all of mine and my wife’s family are big drinkers it’s just the norm to get hammered on that day and I’ve already told them I’m not drinking and of course they are giving me shit but I simply said I’m sick of being sick it’s my choice you just worry about yourself.
@01oceanbreeze well done it has to start somewhere that’s always been my problem there was always a reason to start another time but I had the same thought as you looking at myself from the outside was not nice.
Day 8 and got through my first weekend which is always the hardest, it wasn’t without plenty of temptation but Thankfully managed to resist. I found it was easier to just say I didn’t want a beer “which for me is unheard of lol” instead of trying to say I’ve stopped drinking because that just gets all the usual responses which piss me off. Next test is tonight it’s my sons birthday so family coming around and no doubt grog is on the menu but I’m telling myself it’s better to feel better all day than great for a few hours.
I went 45 days AF and was feeling best I have since I was a teenager, so good I managed to get a new job purely due to having a clear head and more confidence without grog. Since then I’ve slowy slipped back into bad habits, so slowly I didn’t realise what I was doing so annoyed. So today is day 1 again this time I don’t plan on ever having a day 1 again I’m glad I found this site.
Well done on making a,fresh start @kickthegrog 🙂 and I alwats think its so great when youve had some sober time before (45 days, yay!) because you already know you can do it, AND you know how much better you feel when you get some distance from the booze. Check in as often as you can and let us know how you are doing! 🙂