• Kerryjean47 posted an update 4 weeks ago

    Day 60. I’ve decided to go off all social media for awhile.
    It depressed me and I just can’t do it.
    I will find my way and be alright.
    Love to you all and I will check back in when I find myself again.
    ♥️

  • Kerryjean47 posted a new activity comment 4 weeks, 1 day ago

    Great job!

  • Kerryjean47 posted a new activity comment 4 weeks, 1 day ago

    Welcome back.

  • Kerryjean47 posted a new activity comment 4 weeks, 1 day ago

    In my book, going to bed early is a great plan.

  • Kerryjean47 posted an update 4 weeks, 1 day ago

    59 days without drinking and 9 days since I lost my husband.
    Tonight after getting home from my first grief support group I thought of having a beer but I didn’t. Instead, I gave myself a generous dose of an over the counter sleeping aid.
    Hanging by a thread.Still here. Still sober. hango

    • Hiya @kerryjean. Your signing into a support network sounds like a super practical move. Thnx for poppin’ in here.

    • @Kerryjean47, deepest condolences about your husband. xo

    • I am sorry to hear about your husband, but so glad you are finding some support. You are doing a great job staying AF under such challenging circumstances.

    • I admire your strength @kerryjean47. You are doing what’s best for you during the worst possible times. My heart goes out to you. I can only imagine how hard this all is, but your hanging in there and taking care of yourself. Sometimes we have to be our own hero.

    • Very sorry about your husband but admire you greatly for staying sober. Hugs from Texas.

    • Sending lots of cyber hugs @kerryjean47. Your pain must be overwhelming right now, but as we know alcohol will not help one bit. Stay strong, we are here. x

    • I’m glad you are going to a grief support group. I hope some people don’t bring up alcohol as a coping mechanism. Hugs to you! xoxo

    • Agirl replied 4 weeks ago

      You are so amazing @kerryjean47. Hang in there, you are doing so well in spite of everything. Amazing woman, more cyber hugs to you.

    • gage replied 4 weeks ago
  • Kerryjean47 posted an update 1 month ago

    Day 58. I don’t even feel like drinking. I don’t feel like doing anything.
    After dropping off my grandson I took a five hour zquill induced nap.
    Getting ready to head to bed.
    Goodnight all.

  • Kerryjean47 posted a new activity comment 1 month ago

    Great job on five months.

  • Kerryjean47 posted a new activity comment 1 month ago

    So sorry for the loss of your friend.

  • Kerryjean47 posted a new activity comment 1 month ago

    You and your family continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.

  • Kerryjean47 posted a new activity comment 1 month ago

    Great job!!

  • Kerryjean47 posted a new activity comment 1 month ago

    Yes we do.

  • Kerryjean47 posted an update 1 month ago

    Day 57. Yesterday and this morning I was in a very bad place. I’m so thankful I didn’t drink. It could have been much much worse.
    Today, tonight and tomorrow my 5 year old grandson is visiting ( he lives in Wisconsin and is here on Spring break).
    This will keep me from even thinking of drinking and the darkness a bit less dark.
    Thank you all for…[Read more]

    • You don’t owe us responses, we understand xx Sending you some more love. Enjoy your grandson 😊

    • Please don’t worry about replying lovely, we just want to send you our love and support ❤️
      Well done on staying sober through these unbelievably hard times. Enjoy those 5 year old hugs xxx

    • No need to respond, no expectation you will @kerryjean47. I second what the others said. Sending love. Enjoy that wee boy. xxx

    • Thinking about you @kerryjean47. 💗💗💗

    • You are doing so incredibly well lovely. Keep up the good work you will never regret remaining af through adversity. ❤️❤️

    • Yes! your grandson will lighten your load a bit. Thinking of you everyday KerryJean xo

    • Oh, fi e year old grandsons are the best tonic for all life’s burdens. Glad he has a sober granny to watch over him.

    • A child makes the now so tangible ( sorry don’ t know how to write that word in english ) .
      It’s a nice gift to spend some time with your grandson ❤

    • Lots and lots of love hon and don’t bother at all with responding – just you popping in to say you are surviving and didn’t drink is a treasure for us to behold XXXX

  • Kerryjean47 posted a new activity comment 1 month ago

    Good job

  • Kerryjean47 posted a new activity comment 1 month ago

    I don’t have much to give right now myself.
    I do know how it feels to need a hug now. So here’s one♥️

  • Kerryjean47 posted an update 1 month ago

    Day 56. The urge to drink was strong today. My sisters both texted me a couple hours ago and are home drinking beer with their husbands.
    I’ve turned down my phone, took some nighttime sleep medicine and am in bed.
    It seems as though things are getting harder. People are inquiring about my husband’s belongings, my financial situation and…[Read more]

    • Oh I hope that group will help support you @kerryjean47. It’s a great idea to try something like that.
      So hard to both be feeling the loss and have to tackle these things by yourself. No wonder it’s feeling overwhelming.
      I think you are not in NZ? Otherwise I’d recommend the grief centre to you. Actually I’m going to put the link here anyway as…[Read more]

    • Thinking about you, hope you get some sleep tonight. Xo ❤️

    • So much to deal with, no wonder you’re exhausted. The grief support group will be a good thing. We run one at work for family members and I know it’s helpful. Wishing you a good nights rest. Hugs.

    • Lee@ replied 1 month ago

      @Kerryjean47 So sorry that you are going through this. The grief support group will definitely help and drinking always makes everything a million times worse. So glad to hear that your staying sober through this. xoxox

    • Aria replied 1 month ago

      So sorry@kerryjean47 for your loss. Death brings up so many feelings. It is very hard. Yes drinking will not help. Have confidence in your ability to make your own decisions, however ask for support from people you trust when you need it. Some decisions can wait until you are ready. Take care it is an exhausting time. I am glad you can get some…[Read more]

    • You are so strong and awesome well done. You are right nothing alcohol has to offer makes anything better at all. ❤️

    • You just take all the time you like, @kerryjean47. You’re going beautifully as you are. xo

    • gage replied 1 month ago

      @kerryjean47 You are naturally exhausted with shock and grief. Take good care of yourself and be gentle with yourself. Sleep is good, support group is good, this site is good, no alcohol is good. Take one day, one hour, one minute at a time – whatever it takes. Sending healing energy.

    • Well done you for looking after yourself and organizing going to a grief support group! Sending you strength during this unbelievably tough time! He is your husband, you believe in yourself and what you want and don’t let anyone else tell you any different ❤️❤️❤️

    • You are doing so awesome! This HAS to be pretty da!Ned hsrd, and people come out of The woodwork to say and do weird things after any tragedy, been there, done thst, have the tshirt. Well done on getting thru another day without the poison.💜💜💜

    • oxoxoxox I am so very very proud of you how you are handling things right now. One next best task at a time.
      If that means a soothing shower….or putting on a new fresh outfit of clean clothes to feel a wee wee bit better. oxoxox
      Do you have access to a grief counselor? Friends/family members you trust and who make space for YOUR grief as you…[Read more]

  • Kerryjean47 posted a new activity comment 1 month ago

    I’m glad you and your friend have one another.

  • Kerryjean47 posted a new activity comment 1 month ago

    I love this post.

  • Kerryjean47 posted a new activity comment 1 month ago

    I’m so sorry for your loss and the pain you are feeling.

    • Thanks @kerryjean47 I hope things are going well for you xx

      • So sorry for the loss of your baby. My children were born around the same time and I remember how heartless people could be and how feelings were supposed to be buried forever. I lost a baby too, very early, but I grieved something terrible because I was afraid it was my fault because I’d fallen. I finally went to counseling 10 years later. The…[Read more]

  • Kerryjean47 posted an update 1 month ago

    Day 55. I really thought about drinking today as my daily visitors have left and I’m alone. So very alone.
    I’m not going to though because I know there isn’t a damn thing that will ease this pain in my heart. Not even alcohol.
    I don’t know if I will ever drink again but I do know I won’t drink today.
    Thanks for being here.

    • I have been thinking about you. I know I’m possibly a world away but I care. Wish I had great advice to give but I’m hanging in there with you. You are not alone. Hugs❤️

    • @kerryjean47 you are amazing given your huge loss. I’m also not drinking today….lets do this together today. Lets check-in with each other tonight if you like?

    • Xxx

    • Great not to today. What are you going to do instead? Planning might be the best thing to do for the next days, weeks, months. Maybe our @Noelle could talk about getting through these dark days

    • hugs.

    • Sending you love, and strength xx

    • Ah, hugs.

    • Sending much love and a hug xo

    • I’ve been having the same thoughts lately. About future drinking. I just tell myself one day at a time. The hangover is not worth it. It’s never worth it. When I was in my early 20s and would raise hell, it was worth it. Haha but now…..no way. Keep your head up.

    • Sending you all my love and hugs ❤️❤️❤️

  • Kerryjean47 posted a new activity comment 1 month ago

    ♥️

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