• Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 4 months, 1 week ago

    Oh look a good book recommendation @soberT – thanks!

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 4 months, 1 week ago

    Lovely number! x

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 4 months, 1 week ago

    Like @robynb I have been doing the 16:8 and generally find it pretty easy (I never was a breakfast fan anyway). In my eating hours I do my best to stuff in nutrients. Mostly eating vegan at the moment but not too strict on the rules. Have some treats most days – seems to be working. I am snoring less like a warthog and less aches and pains, the weight is coming off slowly slowly and I am being patient and kind with myself. I lost 4 kgs when I stopped living on wine, but put it all back on again in the following months. But instead of watching the scales I am just focusing on healthy eating and walking, walking, walking when I can. Be gentle with yourself x

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 4 months, 1 week ago

    Yep flat as a pancake here too but this too shall pass. Hang on to hope. You are doing so great x

  • So @morgan gave me a shout out and dragged me back in here. Thank you so much lovely! How am I doing? 194 days sober and well over $1000 dollars better spent. The stats look good. Everything is not always rosy. It has been a tough start to the year, but things are improving slowly, they have to. The low down feeling still sits in the wings and pops out centre stage some days. But as you reminded us this morning we are scrappy and bad-assed. So I will rock on with my mission, sober and keep feeding myself love. Eventually the joy will also pop back up, it too waits in the wings. Much love to you and all the sober crew x

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 4 months, 1 week ago

    You are amazing!

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 4 months, 1 week ago

    Welcome to the most supportive sober site I know of x

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 4 months, 1 week ago

    @morgan as always you are an inspiration. I am indeed scrappy and bad-assed. That is what it takes to get by, so no regrets about how I came to be so. x

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 4 months, 1 week ago

    You have a beautiful day too – before you know it three weeks will pass… and then three months x

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 4 months, 1 week ago

    You are doing so well. Already you ARE a better person as you are investing time and effort into your whole, real self x

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 4 months, 1 week ago

    You are amazing to keep at it so persistently. None of those sober days are wasted – they make you healthier and stronger. Keep going! I haven’t cracked 400 days yet – my first 200 is looming large though x

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 5 months ago

    Thanks Dave – always appreciate your fulsome replies. Getting back on the plan has helped lift my mood and you are right – helping others always helps us. Have set up a date with my sober buddy in real life too. x

    • Hi Kate. Spending time with your sober buddy is a great idea and will help you a lot. Give them a damned good listening to is my advice… it will help both of you.
      And here’s a quote from Franklin Roosevelt for you: “Do something. If it works, do more of it. If it doesn’t, do something else.”

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 5 months ago

    Hi @mtedenmummy, yes I am on Quetiapine. I dropped my dose down to 150mg a few months before giving up the drink. Psychiatrist put me back up to 200mg a night when I went off the antidepressants. Her advice was 200-300mg is a mood stabilising dose, less is an antidepressant dose and above 300mg is an anti-psychotic action. So she was more comfortable with me on more Q without the ADs. I’m keen to drop back to 150mg as the weight gain is a bit horrible and hard to fight but I’m not in a rush for that. I find I am a bit up and down during the day (hence my post) but certainly appreciate the mood reset from the Q each night. Things are going OK for me since Friday. x

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 5 months, 1 week ago

    Yes the amount per drinking session is probably the key. Anxiety from drinking is a normal physiological response. Have a look here and see if you find something helpful (I can’t recall the full explanation coherently enough to describe it): http://www.alcoholexplained.com/

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 5 months, 1 week ago

    I find people are like this usually because they are threatened by your non-drinking. Might force them to take a look at their own, or maybe they are already asking themselves questions about their drinking that are uncomfortable. Sobriety seemed like the worst punishment to me while I was drinking, even when I was hating myself for it. Ha ha it so isn’t though 🙂

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 5 months, 1 week ago

    I also ran a HALT assessment on myself. Hungry? yes, had a lovely smoothie and some dosa with peanut sauce and sauerkraut – nom nom, Angry? no, not really, Lonely? a little so I got on here and talked to you lovelies, Tired? possibly, took a nap.

    • I’m so glad, sweetie. Have a lovely mood lifting sleep. My hubby is also on a mood stabilizer at night for sleep. It’s such a relief for him after a tough day.

    • You are going awesomely well Kate1975. i was going to take myself off the antidepressants but was strongly advised not to so i will work on that goal with my doctor. Right now, being AF for me is everything. Go well and look after you. Put the oxygen mask on yourself first. You sound like a strong lady.

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 5 months, 1 week ago

    Thanks all, I felt better just getting it out there. I am still on a mood stabiliser at night which has some antidepressant function too (I have type 2 bi-polar). The huge benefit of that is that I get a bit of a mood reset after I sleep. I am under the care of a psychiatrist through drug and alcohol at the hospital and due to see her in a few weeks. I haven’t had any withdrawals from the ADs @jocord as I spent several months changing meds and coming off them slowly (that was its own kind of hell). I’m going to hang in there without the ADs at the moment. Going through a rough patch. If it doesn’t come right by my birthday in April then I will go back on them. I will not drink and I am at no risk of self-harming. I have tools and resources and I am very resilient, I know I can crawl back out of the lows. Feeling like this is a trigger though – time to shift the self-care to the next level. That is a great idea @morgan I think I know someone who might help 🙂 As always just having you all to talk to has lifted me a little. x

    • I also ran a HALT assessment on myself. Hungry? yes, had a lovely smoothie and some dosa with peanut sauce and sauerkraut – nom nom, Angry? no, not really, Lonely? a little so I got on here and talked to you lovelies, Tired? possibly, took a nap.

      • I’m so glad, sweetie. Have a lovely mood lifting sleep. My hubby is also on a mood stabilizer at night for sleep. It’s such a relief for him after a tough day.

      • You are going awesomely well Kate1975. i was going to take myself off the antidepressants but was strongly advised not to so i will work on that goal with my doctor. Right now, being AF for me is everything. Go well and look after you. Put the oxygen mask on yourself first. You sound like a strong lady.

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 5 months, 1 week ago

    Yep day-after drinking brutal anxiety – I got to that point a few years ago and then everytime I drank I got it. Heart pounding, panic attacks, waking up in the night. The anxiety alone was scary enough to make me want to think about stopping. ‘Alcohol explained’ is a great book for understanding the effects of alcohol on our bodies and emotions. I highly recommend it.

  • Hello LS crew! Day 168. It has been some time since I posted here but I think the Pink Cloud has burst for me over the last two months. ANy advice on getting through the other side of this phase @daveh? I have been off my antidepressants for about 3 months now and I feel like I am sitting on the brink of the big black hole. The witch in my head is telling me just to have a wine and dive in, accelerate the fall as it is inevitable anyway. I haven’t done it but I am really struggling, particularly whenever I leave the sanctuary of my house. So its back to the plan, back to posting here for support, kindness and understanding. Back to meditation and self-therapy. My health is slowly improving after surgery on my jaw in January (which went horribly wrong and left me with a half numb face). I am eating really well, exercising and sleeping OK. But I feel like I am just going through the motions each day with little joy or hope. Not feeling like a great Mother right now. My little ones spend too much time in front of the screen and I am not engaged enough to manage that well. My big girl is still struggling with her mental health and tensions between her and my Husband are rising again. I feel stretched in every direction. Work doesn’t help as it just emphasises how bad the state of the planet is (I’m an environmental scientist) and I fear for my children’s future. But I am getting through the work tasks and prioritising well. I just feel low, low, low. But today I will not drink, and I will make a plan to back away from the hole. x

    • @Kate1975 – you know that the wine is only going to accelerate the depression. While getting off antidepressants is an amazing achievement, maybe you are asking too much of yourself to be AF and drop the medicaiton at the same time. We are human. Feeling low is human, but low, low, low maybe you need to check in with your doc.

    • You are doing phenominal on day 168! I echo @rise2015s concern about stopping antidepressants so soon after quitting drinking. I’ve heard that coming off those is like a hard drive winding down to a stop with brain zaps and other horrible withdrawal symptoms. And being an environmental scientist on top of that? No wonder you are feeling low. Your daughter really needs you right now, but more importantly, you need you. Grab all the help you can to lift you out of the hole. It’s tough going it alone. Hugs being sent your way! xo

    • @kate1975 why are you off your anti-depressants at the same time you quit drinking? That’s really hard. I tried it once and within 6 weeks I was at the doctors. The brain can only handle too much change at once. Perhaps speaking with your doctor about it would be a good idea. 🙂 I want you to feel better. xoxoox

    • It does sound as if you have had a great deal to contend with when really, child care is more than a full time job. I used to get lovely teens to come and play with mine, even while I was there. It kept them so happy, and I could get stuff done, while still being near the angels. Is there such a possibility near you? A bit of extra pocket money for them.
      Who else can help bear the load? XXX

    • Big hugs @kate1975 don’t listen to that wine witch she tells lies, and a wine won’t make the situation any better! Wish I could offer some advise, really hope you feel better soon… be super kind to yourself, sounds like a lot going on xx

    • Thanks all, I felt better just getting it out there. I am still on a mood stabiliser at night which has some antidepressant function too (I have type 2 bi-polar). The huge benefit of that is that I get a bit of a mood reset after I sleep. I am under the care of a psychiatrist through drug and alcohol at the hospital and due to see her in a few weeks. I haven’t had any withdrawals from the ADs @jocord as I spent several months changing meds and coming off them slowly (that was its own kind of hell). I’m going to hang in there without the ADs at the moment. Going through a rough patch. If it doesn’t come right by my birthday in April then I will go back on them. I will not drink and I am at no risk of self-harming. I have tools and resources and I am very resilient, I know I can crawl back out of the lows. Feeling like this is a trigger though – time to shift the self-care to the next level. That is a great idea @morgan I think I know someone who might help 🙂 As always just having you all to talk to has lifted me a little. x

      • I also ran a HALT assessment on myself. Hungry? yes, had a lovely smoothie and some dosa with peanut sauce and sauerkraut – nom nom, Angry? no, not really, Lonely? a little so I got on here and talked to you lovelies, Tired? possibly, took a nap.

        • I’m so glad, sweetie. Have a lovely mood lifting sleep. My hubby is also on a mood stabilizer at night for sleep. It’s such a relief for him after a tough day.

        • You are going awesomely well Kate1975. i was going to take myself off the antidepressants but was strongly advised not to so i will work on that goal with my doctor. Right now, being AF for me is everything. Go well and look after you. Put the oxygen mask on yourself first. You sound like a strong lady.

    • @Kate1975 if it’s too personal a question just tell me but do you take Quatiapine? I only ask because I used to take it and I’ve often wondered if I could get away without my SSRIs if I took it again. I know everyone is different but always good to hear other people’s stories.
      Sounds like you have loads going on. I hope you can ride out this funk. Up the self care as much as you can, get some extra sleep and don’t beat yourself up…you’re doing amazingly!!!!!!!

      • Hi @mtedenmummy, yes I am on Quetiapine. I dropped my dose down to 150mg a few months before giving up the drink. Psychiatrist put me back up to 200mg a night when I went off the antidepressants. Her advice was 200-300mg is a mood stabilising dose, less is an antidepressant dose and above 300mg is an anti-psychotic action. So she was more comfortable with me on more Q without the ADs. I’m keen to drop back to 150mg as the weight gain is a bit horrible and hard to fight but I’m not in a rush for that. I find I am a bit up and down during the day (hence my post) but certainly appreciate the mood reset from the Q each night. Things are going OK for me since Friday. x

    • Hi @Kate1976. When we begin we are completely desperate and will try absolutely anything to get free of alcohol. We manage to get a few days up and begin to get hope. Then we find we are actually doing it… getting through day by day and not drinking. After that we get the pink cloud and it really feels like the effort is worthwhile and we’re getting some results and rewards for our effort. But the pink cloud doesn’t last. It doesn’t stop abruptly but tapers away like you’ve noticed. You are now sitting in the post-pink cloud slump… but have a close look at what else has changed. You’ve stopped doing the things that were helping you. While on the pink cloud we don’t need to do much, the buzz of feeling really alive keeps us going, but when it ends we need to get back to doing the things that kept us well. You are already onto it. “So its back to the plan, back to posting here for support, kindness and understanding. Back to meditation and self-therapy.”

      In time you will learn the self-awareness that lets you recognise when you aren’t right, when you need to do things, and what those things are… but it takes time to learn what works for what and when to do it. In the meantime there are challenging periods like you have now. When it all doesn’t seem worthwhile take a look at how different your days are now to when you were drinking and celebrate that.

      But here’s something else for you. Talking to another sufferer ALWAYS helps. Engaging here will help you, but you also now have something very special to offer. Try extending a hand to someone new here. Let them know they’re not alone, and that other people recover from exactly their position. You know this because you are one of them. Helping someone else helps us. If you get low then help someone else to help yourself.

      168 days is brilliant… don’t let yourself forget that.

      • Thanks Dave – always appreciate your fulsome replies. Getting back on the plan has helped lift my mood and you are right – helping others always helps us. Have set up a date with my sober buddy in real life too. x

        • Hi Kate. Spending time with your sober buddy is a great idea and will help you a lot. Give them a damned good listening to is my advice… it will help both of you.
          And here’s a quote from Franklin Roosevelt for you: “Do something. If it works, do more of it. If it doesn’t, do something else.”

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 6 months, 2 weeks ago

    Just read all of the thread – not the only one with the biopsy worries it seems – much love to all those who are struggling with health issues over the New Year xxx

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 6 months, 2 weeks ago

    Happy New Year @morgan! I am doing OK. 128 days sober and going well there. December was a health write off for me after an aggressive course of antibiotics removed most of my gut lining – so a slow month-long recovery from that with things returning to normal around the New Year. Christmas was not a drinking challenge but family dynamics were challenging: me, my sister and my Mum in the same place for once – a volatile combo. Survived that and had a few relaxing days at Hanmer Springs (my favourite place in the world) and with friends in Kaikoura on the way back north to Palmy. New Year was quiet and lovely and my garden is rocking. Tomorrow however, I go in for a surgical biopsy on my jaw (which has a big lump on it, hence the antibiotics as it got horribly inflamed in early Dec) and to have my last wisdom tooth out while I am under general anesthetic. I’m pretty anxious about that but have talked through a strategy for pain relief meds with my A and D counselor. Anxious about the outcome. The lump is big, nobody knows what it is or why it’s there and it has been making me quite ill with ear ache and swollen glands all over the place. So today I am tidying my bedroom and making soup in preparation for a week or so of recovery and whatever the results bring. If any of you lovely LS crew have some spare healthy thoughts to send my way they will be much appreciated x

    • Just read all of the thread – not the only one with the biopsy worries it seems – much love to all those who are struggling with health issues over the New Year xxx

  • Kate1975 posted an update 7 months ago

    Day 108. Fully in the triple digits. Pre Xmas appointment at drug and alcohol this morning. Seems they are getting ready to release me into solo sobriety in the new year. I feel ready. 108 days of full on sober research and preparation behind me. The post alcohol anxiety has gone and I have some mad skills these days for dealing with whatever tough stuff comes my way. I’m feeling proud of my efforts to get this far, I’ve worked hard and it has worked out 😎

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 7 months, 2 weeks ago

    Another great read is The Brain That Changes Itself by Norman Doidge

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 7 months, 2 weeks ago

    You are struggling with really hard stuff @kjpeche. Acknowledge that it is hard to yourself. You did great getting your girl help. I have similar issues with my daughter who is now 18. You know what: you built an environment for your daughter where it was safe for her to tell you she felt like hurting herself – you did that and you are a wonderful Mother for it. Many children struggle with no support or safe way of getting help x

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 7 months, 2 weeks ago

    Acknowledging that it is hard is a great self-compassion exercise. This sounds cheesy but it works: when I am finding stuff hard I put my hand on my heart gently and tell myself “this is hard, it is allowed to be hard, we all struggle, I’m sorry it’s hard and you are struggling” just like I would tell a good friend. It really helps me feel better about doing and feeling the hard stuff x

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 7 months, 2 weeks ago

    Beautiful. Love will win out @morgan. I have just been reading Soft-wired – it is about making positive neuroplastic changes to our brains right up to the grave. It is truly an amazing science and gives me great hope for humanity. x

    • Very true

    • I had better read it Kate – need some positive brain changes, that is for sure.
      @tipsytoegal @soroise?

    • Thanks again. I got Soft wired on kindle and it saved me from more rumination when I was falling apart today. Nothing like a good research book to fill the mind with better thoughts – and learn to save ourselves! ‘Grain Brain’ is one to study if there is any dementia in the family or if wanting to think about health. Pretty astounding research and ideas from a neurologist

  • 90 days today! Was tempted when away glamping with my husband for our anniversary on Sunday to have just one nice glass of wine. Nope. Didn’t do it, know where it leads Can’t believe it’s 90 days already, 100 just around the corner. x

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 8 months ago

    And the lovely @jes!

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 8 months ago

    Living with courage xxx

    • Hi Kate1975, Yes it takes courage to live every day and I am doing it sober and happy and present love light and prayers. Thank you, XX.

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 8 months ago

    And if I have learned anything from this journey it is that vulnerability is courage (some credit to Brene Brown due here): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iCvmsMzlF7o

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 8 months ago

    Yes my final psychology appointment for the year will be planning for xmas and dealing with drunken family members – got that in place in advance as I foresee a challenge for me there. All those triple digits will be rolling over for team 100 days at xmas!

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 8 months ago

    Yes @Lucylocket our self-critical voices inside can go stick it! Be kind and compassionate with yourself, no one is keeping score but you – and you don’t have to x

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 8 months ago

    @Jessi, @honestjoy, @Ro, @mari135 – I know I will have missed some of you who so helped in the early days because I’m not great at remembering names, but you are all in my thoughts x

  • Kate1975 posted an update 8 months ago

    Day 80!!!!! I have been away from the LS community for a while due to work and family pressures – quite a lot going on in both those arenas but my head is still above water and I am still sober AF 🙂 So a big update from me:
    I have been a week off my antidepressants (!) since finally getting that psychiatrist appointment I so wanted through Drug and Alcohol services. I am still on medication in the evening, to be reviewed 3 monthly with the psyche to look at whether I can come off those eventually too. Things are shifting finally and I am really grateful to be back in regular therapy with a lovely psychologist through Drug and Alcohol at the hospital.
    I had a very tough week last week, came off antidepressants, neighbour screamed at me (had to adult my way through avoiding WW3), had my final root canal, massive work deadlines and travel, still supporting teen daughter in her mental health battles by getting her to a mindfulness workshop (where she promptly had a panic attack) and a few other horrible bits and pieces. But I made it through – I really wanted a drink Friday night just to put the load down for a bit, but it was just a wanting that I wasn’t going to follow through on because I know exactly where that leads and it would undo everything I’ve struggled so hard for over the last 80 days.
    Yesterday I attended a Spilt Milk Yoga workshop with Cathryn Monro in Wellington. It was a self-inquiry workshop based around our experiences of Motherhood and looking at them with a yoga philosophy. It was emotionally very intense, I was already crying in the car on the way down just contemplating having a day devoted to exploring my mothering journey – which has been so tough this year. It gave me space to address the load I have been carrying while holding safe my children’s feelings, suffering and anxieties. I really needed it, and it was hard emotional work. I have come away with some great insights, largely associated with letting go of old patterns of…[Read more]

    • @Jessi, @honestjoy, @Ro, @mari135 – I know I will have missed some of you who so helped in the early days because I’m not great at remembering names, but you are all in my thoughts x

    • Ro replied 8 months ago

      What a fantastic post @kate1975 you sound like life is just busy enough! Your self care is awesome. Well done on the med and nicotine reduction – go you!

    • Huge congrats lovely! Sailing towards Xmas and triple digits!!

      • Yes my final psychology appointment for the year will be planning for xmas and dealing with drunken family members – got that in place in advance as I foresee a challenge for me there. All those triple digits will be rolling over for team 100 days at xmas!

    • Wow! Just wow Kate. And you did it with getting off the anti-d’s. I remember you saying you were going to get a handle on sobriety and then attack the ad’s. You just sound so strong and capable. I so needed to read “I just fit in as much as I can whenever I can, I don’t pressure myself to stick to a particular schedule for any of it.” That’s way healthier than my “must try harder, must do more.” Really happy for you. X

    • awesome @kate1975 xx

    • Great to hear from you. Sounds like u keep moving. Great post.

    • So fab 2 hear from u @kate1975 & huge congratulations on them 80 days! Right there at 80 with u, such an awesome feeling. U sound very busy but very content, love all the self work your doing!! I’ll be looking at some of your recommendations definitely so thanks for sharing. Wishing you loads of luck & love, peace & happiness 🙂 xxx

    • No wonder you haven’t been on here much @kate1975, what an awful lot to be taking on while decreasing your meds – you’re doing so awesome 🙂
      Love your post – i too try to exercise at least every 2nd day and only eat plant based food.
      Take care xx

    • Wonderful… absolutely wonderful! And well done for drawing in so many powerful allies to the fight… we need all the help we can get and you built a great therapeutic community around yourself.

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 8 months ago

    Thanks for the shout out – reminded me to log and see that I am at day 80! Had stopped looking at the counter for a while then so must be time I posted an update. Nice to be in your thoughts @ladyhawke and @kitten. I’ll post an update up top. x

    • congrats on day 80, even if it was over a day ago 🙂 Great to see you’re doing well!!

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 8 months, 2 weeks ago

    Welcome @Sythie – support and hope is right here

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 8 months, 2 weeks ago

    Keep at it @Stopthatsnotme. The good news is we can undo all that damage from the drinking and black outs. Black outs were with me almost every time I drank near the end. No more. x

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 8 months, 2 weeks ago

    Just awesome 🙂

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 8 months, 2 weeks ago

    Welcome @Leelou – this is a wonderful and supportive community 🙂

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 8 months, 2 weeks ago

    Boxed for 25 minutes hard out today – thought I was going to spew! Like you @Temperance I just have to keep at it again and again… and again. It will stick eventually 🙂

    • OMG, maybe I shouldn’t go! Nah, I will, whoever my poor partner turns out to be will just have to put up with slow going.

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 8 months, 2 weeks ago

    Yay getting past that first week – well done!

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 8 months, 2 weeks ago

    Oh that’s wonderful @sunny_disposition! Feels like coming home is a lovely way to describe it. I haven’t been on LS much lately (I’m still just one day sober ahead of you :)) but have been meditating like crazy and have made myself a tiny special meditation room in my house where I can put my thoughts on the wall. I have been doing ten-finger gratitude practice – counting off ten things on my fingers each day that I am grateful for. @frog another great starting app is headspace.com which does a ten-minutes a day for ten days intro to meditation. Peace all

    • Same here @kate1975 such love for this site but trying 2 limit my phone/social media use, found I’m much happier away from it all…
      Your little room sounds fantastic, great idea, thanks again for planting that seed, early days but really enjoying meditating. Glad 2 hear your still a day ahead 🙂 keep it up & take care xxx

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 8 months, 2 weeks ago

    Great way to set your direction @Saoirse!

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 8 months, 3 weeks ago

    Yep mortgage literally means “death pledge”

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 8 months, 3 weeks ago

    Welcome to Living Sober @field&green. This is a great supportive community.

  • 61 days and feeling pretty mostly good. Only mostly good because I am in a severe procrastination event (again) from finishing a project for work. I still don’t seem to have got my mental focus back to full force yet. All I seem to want to do is read, meditate, exercise, eat and sleep – nothing else really appeals right now. If I didn’t have to pay the bills then I would just roll with it. But I do, so checked in, did some post reading here and now back to work for me. x

    • Hope the distraction of getting replenished here helped some @Kate1975. Congrats on 61 days! You’re doing great!

    • Hey, me too! But that bloody mortgage…

    • Hi @kate1975 I found that I was a completely different person after I stopped drinking…. I just didn’t feel the same about things. It took a while to find my feet again. 61 days is great! watch out for the surprise attacks that will come out of the blue now that you’ve taken the heat out of your routine triggers.

    • I think that’s ok. The only thing you HAVE to do is stay AF. the rest is icing on the cake 🙂

    • Sometimes i just can’t focus at work either @kate1975. there’s so much more to think about now – different things other than, “is it nearly 5? which bottle shop shall i stop at on the way home? how much wine do i have at home – don’t be silly, you don’t leave any undrunk wine at home lol
      I just have to give myself a talking too and get back to work – after reading a few posts here of course 🙂

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 8 months, 3 weeks ago

    I stayed in bed for about the first week – was just so so tired. Yep at day 61 all weird bowel issues have gone away and the anxiety has definitely eased to manageable levels. 5 days is great going – things do get so much better if you stick at it x

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 8 months, 3 weeks ago

    Yep loving that lack of face bloat here too. Cutting back the antidepressants and no more wine has helped me with a little weight loss, slowly very slowly it seems to be creeping off (although side note: no chocolate in the house while working meant I raided a block of fondant icing – sugar you creepy little devil!). But actually I think the best bit has been just being able to accept my body and my shape for what they are at 43, after three children and a pretty full-on life, all of which I am very grateful for now that I’m not hazed out on booze.

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 8 months, 3 weeks ago

    Oh 150 days is just lovely – I would hate to see my bottle stack – ugh 😉

  • Kate1975 posted a new activity comment 8 months, 3 weeks ago

    Wow – now that’s something to celebrate – happy healthy birthday!!! x

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