I hear ya! I have been trying the fast forward thing this afternoon and imagining myself at 8pm happy I haven’t drunk because if I had the wine would be all gone by then anyway and I would feel like crap.
Its so nice to have real empathy! I have eaten dinner and think I’ve made it tonight! It’s amazing what a good dinner does for the cravings. Most of my recent drinking has been in secret. It makes it easier to maintain the addiction, yet so much harder because there’s some shame in it. Thank you all for the replies. Take care.
You go hang in there, and if you crawl across the finish line before bed. Wine will always be there. It’s not going anywhere. Nothing to miss out on… Just for today…..sobriety gets to do its magic. oxoxox