• Jesss posted a new activity comment 14 hours, 36 minutes ago

    Welcome back @vodcath

  • Jesss posted an update 14 hours, 45 minutes ago

    I did a 60 min “float” in a sensory deprivation tank today. Was pretty cool. Feeling kinda zenned out. I will definitely do it again. It’s supposed to help with addiction/anxiety/depression. (U know, all the fun stuff😜) Will put a link down below if u guys are interested. Hope u all are well! Day 588 here. Have bit a bit of a rough patch going on…[Read more]

  • Jesss posted a new activity comment 16 hours, 55 minutes ago

    Omg that sucks @mari135. Really sorry about your friend. Addiction is a bitch😒.

  • Jesss posted a new activity comment 20 hours, 3 minutes ago

    @rise2015 that is so awesome u and your brother are sober together and have that kind of support from each other to go through this with your father. I am so sorry about your father! That sounds incredibly hard. My father has cancer too. I feel for u. Huge congrats on day 364. That year point is very exciting. 🌼

  • Jesss posted a new activity comment 1 day, 5 hours ago

    Im glad u got that off your chest @tewy☺. I totally feel u! Sometimes it’s super overwhelming and just sucks. I’m impressed with your effort. Congrats on 34 days. That rules!👍✌

  • Jesss posted a new activity comment 4 days, 10 hours ago

    That is awesome @buggles🌼

  • Jesss posted a new activity comment 4 days, 10 hours ago

    Thanks for sharing @missbennet. Yup hangovers blow! I wish that my entire brain would catch up on all of this. Unfortunately there is a part that missed the memo. Training for a marathon would be amazing. I have entirely too much going on right now for that though.

  • Jesss posted a new activity comment 4 days, 10 hours ago

    Thanks @kitten. U are so right about independence. I have had it my whole life so to not have it now, well it has definitely gotten to me. And that “pull” u talk about gets pretty strong sometimes. Freaking alcohol. If i had a middle finger emoji i would put it right after that!

  • Jesss posted a new activity comment 4 days, 10 hours ago

    Oh my goodness drinking was completely my way to block out my reality. For sure. No doubt. I am in the process of working on my own reality. I think that is a pretty good realization to have!🌼

  • Jesss posted a new activity comment 4 days, 10 hours ago

    @kitten wow what a great post. I can really relate to a lot of it. Especially the part of looking at your life with sober eyes. I get the pull too, i wonder if it will ever go away? Hangovers suck. I am happy for u they are no longer part of your life! Super huge congrats to u closing in on 300 days. That is awesome🌼🌼🌼.

  • Jesss posted a new activity comment 4 days, 18 hours ago

    Awesome day to u too! I really enjoyed reading your post. U are doing fantastic! Your attitude is inspiring🌼.

  • Jesss posted a new activity comment 4 days, 19 hours ago

    @mari135 i really like that. Thank u! “Just for today”. I start all these lists in my head of everything i need to do, it becomes overwhelming and then the next thought is “well now i need a drink!” Lol. Yes, just for today. Just for today. This will be my new motto!

  • Jesss posted an update 4 days, 20 hours ago

    Day 584. I have been telling that voice to f*ck off lately. That voice that tells me, “just one night, u can drink one night and just start over tomorrow.” I was driving pass the liquor store on the corner of my street last night and i flicked it off. There is a part of me that just wants to bring me down. Wants that instant gratification of that…[Read more]

    • 584….and man, I could have written that down to not believing that I am capable of finishing school etc.
      Sometimes it helps me to think of “just today”. What are my tasks today…..(assignments, housework, etc.) and to do that. Then repeat the next day. To think too far down the road of “can I do this in the future” scares me too much to the…[Read more]

      • @mari135 i really like that. Thank u! “Just for today”. I start all these lists in my head of everything i need to do, it becomes overwhelming and then the next thought is “well now i need a drink!” Lol. Yes, just for today. Just for today. This will be my new motto!

    • Morning, let me pop this little bubble; you wake up with a head that cannot be lifted, it won’t think, it’s full of cold grey noise and it hurts. You keep thinking it will clear. You feel sick because you’ve lost your balance, your skin oozes alcohol and worse than ten hours like that, is the heavy and deep depression you feel for ruining your…[Read more]

      • Thanks for sharing @missbennet. Yup hangovers blow! I wish that my entire brain would catch up on all of this. Unfortunately there is a part that missed the memo. Training for a marathon would be amazing. I have entirely too much going on right now for that though.

    • hey @jesss – yes, you make goals and you meet them, then you have different goals different problems, but you are stronger with each goal met. Independence will isolate you in some ways because you will become less dependent on men and most of them don’t like this, but you will be responsible for you, in my world, this is bottom line. the more…[Read more]

      • Thanks @kitten. U are so right about independence. I have had it my whole life so to not have it now, well it has definitely gotten to me. And that “pull” u talk about gets pretty strong sometimes. Freaking alcohol. If i had a middle finger emoji i would put it right after that!

    • Awesome congrats @jesss ! Sober warriors we are! Love it!❤️❤️❤️

    • Let’s break down your focus @Jesss. What can you control at this minute?

  • Jesss posted a new activity comment 4 days, 20 hours ago

    So awesome @wakingowl!🌼

  • Jesss posted a new activity comment 5 days, 20 hours ago

    I like your analogy @sobere!

  • Jesss posted a new activity comment 5 days, 20 hours ago

    That is rough @robynb. Sending peaceful vibes your way….🙏

  • Jesss posted a new activity comment 5 days, 21 hours ago

    That’s really awesome @tom4500🌼

  • Jesss posted a new activity comment 1 week ago

    Wow @lee-2. U are totally changing the direction of your life. And after generations of suffering u are choosing a new path. That is so impressive. I am so sorry u lost your mother at such a young age. I can’t imagine. I bet she would be very proud of u.

  • Jesss posted a new activity comment 1 week ago

    Aww great post @hammer123! I’m the same way. Since my first drink i have had very little control over my drinking. Who am i kidding though, i have never really had any control. The nights where my attempts at moderating my alcohol intake were successful were really just an unpredictable fluke! They gave me false hope. And they were ALWAYS followed…[Read more]

  • Jesss posted a new activity comment 1 week ago

    @gglover it was a nightly struggle for me in the beginning. I felt wierd, like something was missing. I thought about it every night. I don’t anymore. It’s no longer a nightly struggle. In fact i enjoy being sober at night. It’s my new “normal”. Now this is not to say I havent had cravings, because i totally have. But they are WAY less frequent.…[Read more]

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