I feel that alcohol has stolen so many hours from me. Hours spent sitting on a sofa, watching television with a glass of wine. Years of poorly contrived sleep, irritably ejecting me into the morning as a slow, dull wraith of myself. As I leave home, I’d like to have more time for kindness and smiles for folk on the street, but that thief had me hurrying to work, tired, head down, not caring.
I want to experience more of the subtle filamentary structure that lies on top of the world, the web that says: “this is me, that is you” and the strands, broad or whisper-thin that link ourselves to each other. I’m tired of feeling unraveled.
I used to stand on a cliff by the Ocean and watch the colourful city that lies over the horizon, listening to its music, before I drank daily. I knew that it wasn’t there and that it most certainly was, realer than the rocks around me, and I understood why.
All people are seekers, I suppose, but I haven’t been looking much for a very long time. I don’t want answers, I want better questions, and I want to be the one who poses them.
I had a lovely day wondering around Telluride. Bought some vintage ski clothes at the thrift shop. Great charity, they support a dog shelter. I ate Pho soup – something I’ve not had before, and had an NA drink in a bar at the top of the canyon overlooking the town. I even discovered a new NA beer – Coors, which I’d not had before.
Congratulations on 800, @Tom4500. I have my fingers (and everything else) crossed for you wife’s health.
You’re quite wright about the “you’re a robot if you can’t drink” commercial; in fact, you’re a robot if you *do* drink, because you are no longer under your own control – you’re allowed your behaviour to be determined by a beer manufacturer.
Afternoon one skiing – we hit the slopes very hard, going straight for the black diamonds and generally having an incautious whale of a time. This may have been a mistake; there’s a bit of a booboo in my knee area that prompted me to visit my friends in the medical centre. It seems to be getting better really quickly though, and the doctors seem…[Read more]
Day 1 in Telluride – we arrived late yesterday. I went to the Last Dollar Saloon last night – and they had an NA beer available, plus live music. Not too bad! An aircraft is a pretty good place for reflection and I certainly had plenty of time in the air. What came up was a lot of weird stuff from my teenage years. I can see some roots of my…[Read more]
I love Telluride. We were there in early January and stayed in the Smurf Cottage! My husband still drinks occasionally but overall does not drink much around me. I miss it at times but it was not enough. I am trying to be a great role model for my nearly 16-year-old and 12-1/2-year-old. Go see Bridal Veil Falls if you can. Riding the…[Read more]
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