• Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 3 days, 1 hour ago

    I love this

  • Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 3 days, 1 hour ago

    Haha YES @jaxisdry😎

  • Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 3 days, 1 hour ago

    Oh @janus2 I JUST read this…and I’m so sorry you have to have THIS HELL and I am hugging u in cyberspace!!!!
    But of course ya made me giggle with “fuckity fuck fuck” ☺ and what ya wish you could say while applying and interviewing…HAHAHAHA priceless
    How are you right now, friend? Oh…today is Aug 22…LOL

  • Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 3 days, 2 hours ago

    If I give you my address here in good ole USA, can you send me some ginger cake, mate?☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺ lol
    @Ro cancer sucks but your baking is top shelf…..

  • Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 3 days, 2 hours ago

    Love THIS

  • Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 3 days, 2 hours ago

    That is cool!!!!!!!

  • Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 3 days, 2 hours ago

    You are doing GREAT and congrats on day 4!!!!!!!! You’ll see…as the days go by you will feel so much better…your skin,eyes,over all mind alertness will be so huge you will be amazed!!! And those good “ahh ha” moments will happen…get ready for an exciting, empowering life☺

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  • Iowadawn posted an update 3 days, 2 hours ago

    @DaveH @jocord @lee and all of us…
    I posted last week about my journey…721 days today…of AF lifestyle but allowing myself to drink “once in a blue moon” At 721 today…we know a few times I drank(4) First year…zero percent booze
    So scratch the blue moon thing(I was being totally honest,what I do on here and what I am about…exception my lying “cover up” fails from binge drinking past..) INSTEAD my commitment and phrase should be “I AM NOT DRINKING TODAY”
    B Day coming up..8 days…and 2 years ago that day I have been on this journey. ❤
    Life ? Its been hard with all I shared with you guys. Fucking miserable events I can’t control…yet I control my RESPONSE to (said fucking miserable, heartbreaking) events. Yet life with no booze has been JOYFUL PEACEFUL MIND BLOWING FANTASTIC. I relish the hang over free weekends !! Self care for this lady has been eye opening (who knew one can care and reward herself without wine? And even implement self care in the first place? With a zillion kids and holding the weight of the world on my shoulders…in booze clouded days I didn’t even entertain the thought of self care…another lie booze tells us!)
    So today I will not drink. Who’s with me?💛☺

  • Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 1 week ago

    @DaveH point taken. I get what you are saying and I thank you for caring about me and speaking your mind. I don’t feel like my mind is lying to me…its like I’m in this peaceful place where I dedicate my life to alcohol free. But if “the blue moon” is there(like a beer after running marathon and celebrating) I can go back to my non drinker identity. BUT booze can be playing with fire. I get it. And why do I feel like I’m 53 going on 15? Lol!!! I feel like the more I explain the more I am making excuses lol
    But u really are making me think…IS my empowerment and way I feel (in control) actually wine witch back in a different form? I don’t want to EVER be hung over and anxious from booze again. IS bit possible for a person to be not a normie, but a “I don’t drink except for once in a blue moon ” Being a normie is too much for me…if I had a glass of wine every weekend, at dinner…I KNOW I would start horrid binge drinking again. I know it

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  • Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 1 week ago

    @sober4real originally I laughed when I heard it(haha spirits my ass!) yet the more I thought about it, the more creepy I felt. Guess that’s good for me! Black out drunk takes a new level of horror for me!! Actually…as a Christian person, me black out drunk…I know I cannot and do not feel Gods peace….so that resonated with me

    • @iowadawn being a Christian and an alcoholic aren’t related – there is no correlation. Alcoholism does not discriminate and my God doesn’t judge us if we are sick or ill. He just wants us to get better. I have only been really blacked out meaning drunk, functioning but am not there a few times in my life – but a lot of falling a sleep in the recliner. I think when we spiritually are in a weakened state it’s easy to believe things that aren’t true, not be grounded and think evil can get to you. It’s an interesting concept really- if I am drinking then I don’t care about things as much, put myself in bad situations which could be perceived as evil I guess but don’t overanalyze things. I thought it was creepy when I first heard it too but it’s BS.

  • Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 1 week ago

    Beautiful ☺

  • Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 1 week ago

    @Ro that daughter of mine with the doggie has shipped out😎 my man..almost there. I’m afraid I am hyper sensitive about “the phone” situation. After all, I trust man BUT I was the one who’s ex husband, the fuckwit, had three affairs on me. Followed with lively abuse and him attempting to smear my reputation around this town. And finincally broke me. Its embarrassing I don’t look all confident and easy going when it comes to other women I don’t know texting my man…I yearn to be that cocky, who gives a fuck, I am THE woman so who cares if he has female friends? Kinda thing. Man and I been together 8 years and he is so good at understanding my feelings, my boundaries, etc. IDK. The shock and dread of coming back here to Hell OH maybe makes anything tons worse
    I’m still in culture shock but trying my Damn est (is that a word haha) to be positive and remember I’m resilient. Its hard for me to be controlled indirectly from fuckwit ex husband based on utmost extreme cruel unfairness. Dawn can sail through shit BUT this has got me!
    But almost 18 year old down syndrome son of mine is doing AMAZING. THE PACEMAKER CHANGED HIS LIFE ❤ and he is running around saying(non stop)…all grins…”I’m a BIG senior!”😁 He has blue eyes and white blonde shiny hair and just lights up the room that he IS a senior. The baby(sweet daughter, 14 year old) is a freshman and i see her everyday this year at school and we love it😎
    Not trying to be a bitch, BUT fuckwit ex looks physically worse…fat, bald and grey, not well. He DOES drink…think functioning alcoholic…I am a Christian woman, YET I wonder if karma of some sort will FINALLY happen!!! I know, I know, I sound horrid. But…well…don’t they say “what comes around goes around…” Heehee

  • Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 1 week ago

    That’s AWESOME @hikermom! Now I shall have an ice cream sandwich in honor of you😳

  • Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 1 week, 1 day ago

    Haha @Lee!!!!
    Imagine trashed people slurring..”the spirit got me and I can’t let go!”
    Haha. VUT I must admit it is kinda creepy in good way for me to think of booze as letting in bad spirits!! BOO!!!!!!!

  • Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 1 week, 1 day ago

    @scared I cannot lie…it made ME feel SCARED (creepy dark spirits) lol

    • @iowadawn just say a prayer and ground your house. Besides, it’s not like you are going to get black out drunk any time soon right? It was super creeps when I heard about it a few years ago I agree.

  • Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 1 week, 1 day ago

    @Ro..BLAHAJAHAHA!!!!
    😎 But come on…it IS kinda interesting,eh??

  • Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 1 week, 1 day ago

    You THE BOMB @Ro!!!
    Love ya MATE😎😎

    • Nice to see you again Dawn been wondering how you’ve been getting on after getting home. Have you heard from your guy in the last couple of days? Hope that’s all blown over and good again. The two youngest settled back in ok? And what about the daughter with the dog that was staying? Has she shipped out yet?

      • @Ro that daughter of mine with the doggie has shipped out😎 my man..almost there. I’m afraid I am hyper sensitive about “the phone” situation. After all, I trust man BUT I was the one who’s ex husband, the fuckwit, had three affairs on me. Followed with lively abuse and him attempting to smear my reputation around this town. And finincally broke me. Its embarrassing I don’t look all confident and easy going when it comes to other women I don’t know texting my man…I yearn to be that cocky, who gives a fuck, I am THE woman so who cares if he has female friends? Kinda thing. Man and I been together 8 years and he is so good at understanding my feelings, my boundaries, etc. IDK. The shock and dread of coming back here to Hell OH maybe makes anything tons worse
        I’m still in culture shock but trying my Damn est (is that a word haha) to be positive and remember I’m resilient. Its hard for me to be controlled indirectly from fuckwit ex husband based on utmost extreme cruel unfairness. Dawn can sail through shit BUT this has got me!
        But almost 18 year old down syndrome son of mine is doing AMAZING. THE PACEMAKER CHANGED HIS LIFE ❤ and he is running around saying(non stop)…all grins…”I’m a BIG senior!”😁 He has blue eyes and white blonde shiny hair and just lights up the room that he IS a senior. The baby(sweet daughter, 14 year old) is a freshman and i see her everyday this year at school and we love it😎
        Not trying to be a bitch, BUT fuckwit ex looks physically worse…fat, bald and grey, not well. He DOES drink…think functioning alcoholic…I am a Christian woman, YET I wonder if karma of some sort will FINALLY happen!!! I know, I know, I sound horrid. But…well…don’t they say “what comes around goes around…” Heehee

  • Iowadawn posted an update 1 week, 1 day ago

    Hi team!!!
    Have any of you heard or read a theory
    about how…when one is blacked out drunk…their “good spirit” leaves and than our bodies are subject to “bad” demons? Hence alcohol called “spirits” And alcohol means being overtaken by dark spirits?
    I find it fascinating and terrifying(in a good way…yet another reason to not get wasted on booze)
    I think there’s a book about it????

    • I have read many times that the word spirits is used because bad spirits can take over when one is under the influence..never seen a whole book dedicated to the theory pass through my hands at the library, but it wouldn’t surprise me if there were more than one.

    • Sounds like fucking bullshit to me mate lol

    • I haven’t heard anything like that but makes sense in the old days people thought bad spirits were at play.

      • @scared I cannot lie…it made ME feel SCARED (creepy dark spirits) lol

        • @iowadawn just say a prayer and ground your house. Besides, it’s not like you are going to get black out drunk any time soon right? It was super creeps when I heard about it a few years ago I agree.

    • It’s an old BS legend. Although when I have been blacked out I no doubt have done really stupid shit! LOL.

      • @sober4real originally I laughed when I heard it(haha spirits my ass!) yet the more I thought about it, the more creepy I felt. Guess that’s good for me! Black out drunk takes a new level of horror for me!! Actually…as a Christian person, me black out drunk…I know I cannot and do not feel Gods peace….so that resonated with me

        • @iowadawn being a Christian and an alcoholic aren’t related – there is no correlation. Alcoholism does not discriminate and my God doesn’t judge us if we are sick or ill. He just wants us to get better. I have only been really blacked out meaning drunk, functioning but am not there a few times in my life – but a lot of falling a sleep in the recliner. I think when we spiritually are in a weakened state it’s easy to believe things that aren’t true, not be grounded and think evil can get to you. It’s an interesting concept really- if I am drinking then I don’t care about things as much, put myself in bad situations which could be perceived as evil I guess but don’t overanalyze things. I thought it was creepy when I first heard it too but it’s BS.

  • Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 1 week, 1 day ago

    Ahhh…yes!

  • Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 1 week, 1 day ago

    I love this!!!

  • Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 1 week, 1 day ago

    Oh @waking owl I just read this. I am so sorry about the loss of your mom ❤

  • Iowadawn posted an update 1 week, 1 day ago

    Hi @Morgan and @Ro!!
    Yes…I feel wonderfully in control with the occasional drink, BUT for the first time…I am AWARE and know drinking is playing with fire!!!! I never want to be a weekend binge drinker AGAIN. Never never. I feel so FREE and so empowered!!! I love freedom of alcohol. I love being a non drinker. My idea is to be “non drinker except on a blue moon” status. I can’t go up to next level of ‘nirmie” as I know me. And we know my humiliating past. I don’t identify myself as a drinker but as a vibrant person who wants to be present ❤ And I must have some addict type personality(binge drinking of past with horrid humiliation, go big or go home with running marathons, all or nothing when I want to achieve something, and my hurt past combined with my spontaneous rebellious side…..this all points to me not being a drinker) I’m a complicated woman LOL
    So at 716 days I celebrate and am committed to FREEDOM OF ALCOHOL. And I need to stay here as I love you all, we all relate, I love our connection. As it will forever be a journey to not drink /keep this new lifestyle going…and most important…helping and hearing everyone here. ☺

    • ❤️ You too

    • I wish you much luck being a “blue moon nirmie”. More power to you if you can. I’ve gotten away with a few short slips but know that I can’t anticipate more or I am bound to sink again and it’s no fun playing with fire anymore when your in hell.

    • Hi @iowadawn Feeling “wonderfully in control with the occasional drink” is the bait that puts you back in the trap. Your mind is lying to you.

      • @DaveH point taken. I get what you are saying and I thank you for caring about me and speaking your mind. I don’t feel like my mind is lying to me…its like I’m in this peaceful place where I dedicate my life to alcohol free. But if “the blue moon” is there(like a beer after running marathon and celebrating) I can go back to my non drinker identity. BUT booze can be playing with fire. I get it. And why do I feel like I’m 53 going on 15? Lol!!! I feel like the more I explain the more I am making excuses lol
        But u really are making me think…IS my empowerment and way I feel (in control) actually wine witch back in a different form? I don’t want to EVER be hung over and anxious from booze again. IS bit possible for a person to be not a normie, but a “I don’t drink except for once in a blue moon ” Being a normie is too much for me…if I had a glass of wine every weekend, at dinner…I KNOW I would start horrid binge drinking again. I know it

    • I don’t know how you can have just one drink and stick to it @Iowadawn! I just tried to imagine having only one drink and my head went bonkers. I don’t want that sudden letdown feeling because I KNOW without a doubt I will start craving that feeling again. Better for me to stay away for good.

  • Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 1 week, 3 days ago

    And I bought a new car!!!!! In TN with my man. It is used 2015 but I AM SO HAPPY as my ancient, 300 thousand miles van needs to be my back up vehicle😎 So process of getting loan, complications of me now in OH yet owner in TN…etc etc. A lot of facing working texting all lady week
    But I am going to have a new car. 100 percent for me and bought by me. I am so happy I can’t stand it. Once title in my hands via mail than I need to get it in TN. Than back to OH DMV to get plates etc etc

    • Very good to have a decent vehicle, that is for sure.
      The ‘culture’ shock and change sounds massive.
      Are you feeling the freedom with occasional drinking, or are you playing with fire?
      So glad your friend came to you and is going to get help. Ghastly.
      Challenges scaled down – good idea! Keep in touch xxxx

  • Iowadawn posted an update 1 week, 3 days ago

    @Morgan HELLO!!!!!!!!!
    I am responding to you up here as I can’t find our thread HAHA
    Its been out of control, insanely past busy since I left TN one week ago and returned to OH. As in over the top…job/back to school/new coaching job at school/3 months of mail(imagine the screwed up medical bills) my older kids literally back and living here for one more week/broken house shit/ …
    Emotionally, me in culture shock ..
    the “thing” with the man(still hurting) and a weird sense of living life in a place I don’t want to be in…transitioning back to the feeling of being “single” one woman show and now man not communicating…(due to me lashing out) Fuckwit ex 3 weeks late on child support so my bank and auto bills bounced. Whee. I DID drink last Friday when my close friend came over(she left her ex fiance as he beat her physically to a pulp) and she needs support but I’m past burning candles on both ends. Told her to contact “Women helping women ” MORGSN I LOVE WHAT YOU SAID !!! I just couldn’t get back on here!!! Well I almost did driving but almost wrecked. Bad Dawn!!!!!
    700 something days “freedom of alcohol” for me but NOT ALCOHOL FREE. As we know of my few times now. I love you all and once I get more of my …”challenges” scaled down I look forward to getting back on here normally

    • And I bought a new car!!!!! In TN with my man. It is used 2015 but I AM SO HAPPY as my ancient, 300 thousand miles van needs to be my back up vehicle😎 So process of getting loan, complications of me now in OH yet owner in TN…etc etc. A lot of facing working texting all lady week
      But I am going to have a new car. 100 percent for me and bought by me. I am so happy I can’t stand it. Once title in my hands via mail than I need to get it in TN. Than back to OH DMV to get plates etc etc

      • Very good to have a decent vehicle, that is for sure.
        The ‘culture’ shock and change sounds massive.
        Are you feeling the freedom with occasional drinking, or are you playing with fire?
        So glad your friend came to you and is going to get help. Ghastly.
        Challenges scaled down – good idea! Keep in touch xxxx

    • Maaaaate! Was just going to give you a shout out too 🙂 What was it like drinking with your friend? Did you get fucked up or just have one or two? Being home sounds full on and out of control with the ex and grown up kids and stuff. So not cool not being able to even control your own life- you can control how you react though eh? But fuck it must be so hard to not lose it. Come here and let it all hang out. Wonderful to have new wheels! Hope it all gets sorted smoothly for you 🙂

  • Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 2 weeks, 4 days ago

    Hi there @Morgan!
    Been heartsick knowing I leave with my kids tomorrow. So sad BUT 2 hours ago, this evening, I saw a woman I don’t know named Linda texted my msn. She asked if he was ok as she didn’t see his truck at the store this morning. She texted him 9 am. He responded at 7 pm tonite explaining the store wasn’t open so he was late and left for work. Literally 3 minutes later this kinda woman texted “ok. We stalkers need to know. Lol”
    I was washing dishes and saw thread. I don’t look at his phone and I trust him
    I asked him and he said she’s a friend. I said I do not know her..I am open to us having different /opposite sex friends but I don’t even KNOW her(kinda thing) Apparently she works at the store…so…who gives out their number to a customer? A cell phone number?
    As you know my story of this relationship….I am wondering if I am truly a fool again. I was cheated on and second best my first marriage
    I am dreaming of drinking. But I won’t. And emotions are so high. Not at all how I wanted our last night to be. I am in the bedroom now. Yes I talked to him but I feel humiated and stupid and I want to just disappear. I don’t want to go back to Hell OH. But now this…I don’t know what to do

    • No, you will not go back to hell sweet lady, you have far too much experience of life, reality, love, freedom. Every relationship will be challenged by another potential on the horizon – a fact of life. The most stable, happy, amazing couple in my family (after myself and my husband – who left after going mad as you may remember), have broken up late in life as she “fell in love” – yeah right, but … maybe this is something that will awaken them…
      Anyway, you know the drill; spend your days in hellish worry and fear, or live, love, enjoy to the max, relishing every moment you have and have had with your man, trusting that the best outcome will occur, knowing something else interesting or even wonderful will happen if this love is not for the rest of your lives.
      We truly do make our own hell or happiness – though I am always hesitant to say this when people (as you know all too well) have horrible illnesses or tragedies occur. But you have made the best of the horrible things medically you have gone through, and no doubt saw those who made it a total hell, and those who rose up, strengthening themselves as they went through treatment. (My last aim, age then die well, showing a good example to my children – ARRRGGHHHH can I do it????)
      End of rave. Sorry if totally insensitive, but I have live the good and lived the hell, and made the hell way worse than it had to be, so know a little XXXXX much love. Try to make the homecoming an adventure, and the communication with your man from afar erotic and freely highlighting all that you loved – no pointed comments! XXXXX

  • Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago

    ..I shall stick a “Post it” somewhere on my body…lol😀

  • Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago

    @kitten you ROCK, woman!!😀😀😀😀😀 Congratulations ❤

  • Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago

    Oh, @Saorise..that is so good to remember…who knows where any of us will be then???
    The here and now….the here and now….❤

  • Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago

    HAHAHAHA @Morgan…the “living with man” part. Sorry guys, but all we women on here are like..nodding and smiling with that”I know, right?” gleam in our eyes!! Lol
    Morgan…its just so natural, and fun(our sense of humor compliments one another)..the fun and just the ordinary…everything so great!!!
    As you know my love is a “normie” I joked about wanting a sip of his beer and he ..with love and with joke..reminded me about the woman who goes bat crazy with tequila …LOL
    He got me NA beer but I am living this virgin coconut juice mixer with crushed ice and slices of fresh lemon. It is so good!!
    Yes…here and now. HERE AND NOW…oh, and no booze😀

  • Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago

    Ahhh…I thank you @Aprilsfool😀
    We are about 40 min from Nashville. My love works near base and our home is in beautiful country. But only 5 miles from civilization (lol) Best of both worlds….he built us a pond amo at our cedar tree forest. Little frogs “moved in” 😀 The sound of nature and frogs ..especially at night…on our porch swing…is so serene and just beautiful.
    Ahhhhhhh

  • Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago

    Haha @winner..I’m all about “YIPPPPPEEEE!”
    😳😳😀😀😀😀

  • Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago

    Awww…I thank you @JM
    Its like I finally feel I am home. And I belong ❤
    It will be so hard to leave in August, it will.
    Besides the obvious(being and living with my love) there is such peace and distance(about 280 miles lol) from ex husband. And drama.
    The culture in TN just suits me, it really does. I flourish and feel so peaceful and happy with southern hospitality 😎

  • Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago

    I like that…”days AWAY from alcohol” instead of “this many days Not having alcohol”

  • Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago

    Good on you @timidwarrior!!
    Life can be so complicated, lol and the truth !!! I think its great you are focusing on you😀 And you are correct…another opportunity will arise!!

  • Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago

    Oh ,@Maril135 its like you went into my head!(lol but the truth) Brilliant and so raw and so true…all of your words. You GO sister!!😀
    I like that “dangerous territory” remark…oh how TRUE!! Thank God that scares the living shit out of me. I have never been hung over on a teaching work day for 670 something days and I can say I am Damn proud of that!! We get A plus PLUS marks for that!!😀 Funny, I , for some reason, drifted back to an awful memory of teaching hung over. And a close friend/co worker telling me I smelled like alcohol. Oh God…the humiliation. Even to this day

  • Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago

    That’s great @Tom4500!! So nice to hear. Now go make that toast. Lol😀

  • Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago

    😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀 I love this @jocord!!! Good on you
    I took my son(with down syndrome) putt putt golfing the other day…no bar scene for me…we had a BLAST. I think he beat me, too. Lol

  • Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago

    For some reason I am loving watching old seasons of Greys Anatomy on Netflix…

  • Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago

    @jocord..LOL 😀
    @Frog…xoxo to you! I hate shit days. And trying to wind down and relax only to have the relaxation technique suck!(lol) Tomorrow will be better😀

  • Iowadawn posted an update 1 month, 1 week ago

    Hia there @Morgan and everyone!!!
    Thank you so much for the shout out. I feel so loved 😎
    Life is good this summer, here in Tennessee with my love and my two kiddos..14 year old daughter LOVES it here. 17 year old down syndrome son likes it, enjoying himself, but he thrives on routine…misses OH. Can’t wait for school (EWWWW…I know, right? Lol)
    Starting to get back to school emails for me as educator and for kids….GRRR. I DONT WANT TO GO BACK TO OH!!! I DONT WANT TO LEAVE MY LOVE. I DREAD L9NG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP!!!! Help!!!!!!!!!
    We are all in such a good place. 14 year old turns 18/graduates high school in 3 years and 10 months. I will be mid to late 50s. Love will be bumping 60. I know…you friends that have known me since day one here know the story
    I need to get back into “the here and now” and enjoy each day. I know….
    Approaching 670 something on my journey…I’ve decided its my journey. As we know I had 3 drink notes during this whole span of time. So I cannot say AF for day count for me….rather journey of freedom from booze 😎
    Anyway…I’ve truly gotten a “rebirth” of LOVING HANG OVER FREE MORNINGS. In beginning of my journey, it was new and so empowering!! I got used to this way of living…yet recently I am back on that “high” of loving hang over free, beautiful mornings. I also realize I am anxious (with or without) drink during that “happy hour” time. Muay be my body rhythm. Babies and young children are fussy during this time…perhaps we are all inbred to feel “off” this transition time of day….food for thought
    Have a beautiful weekend everyone😜

    • So great that you’re having such a happy summer @Iowadawn! You so deserve it. xo

      • Awww…I thank you @JM
        Its like I finally feel I am home. And I belong ❤
        It will be so hard to leave in August, it will.
        Besides the obvious(being and living with my love) there is such peace and distance(about 280 miles lol) from ex husband. And drama.
        The culture in TN just suits me, it really does. I flourish and feel so peaceful and happy with southern hospitality 😎

      • Yeah ! Yipppeeeee from me❤️❤️

    • You sound so joyful I just can’t help smiling when I read your posts. I love Tenn. Nashville in particular. What a beautiful city and the people are wonderful. So glad that you’re enjoying your summer. School starts soon for me too – but not quite yet. Keep enjoying every minute of your time and your family.

      • Ahhh…I thank you @Aprilsfool😀
        We are about 40 min from Nashville. My love works near base and our home is in beautiful country. But only 5 miles from civilization (lol) Best of both worlds….he built us a pond amo at our cedar tree forest. Little frogs “moved in” 😀 The sound of nature and frogs ..especially at night…on our porch swing…is so serene and just beautiful.
        Ahhhhhhh

    • Beautiful post. Love the way things are going – except the leaving part. I have said goodbye to two of my dearest people recently, ages before seeing them, so the challenge is powerful – live in the NOW. Make each day count. I will! 🤩🎵🎶
      Tbh very very sad though. Not that being with my man is easy… lord, …
      Make the most of your time! Xxx

      • HAHAHAHA @Morgan…the “living with man” part. Sorry guys, but all we women on here are like..nodding and smiling with that”I know, right?” gleam in our eyes!! Lol
        Morgan…its just so natural, and fun(our sense of humor compliments one another)..the fun and just the ordinary…everything so great!!!
        As you know my love is a “normie” I joked about wanting a sip of his beer and he ..with love and with joke..reminded me about the woman who goes bat crazy with tequila …LOL
        He got me NA beer but I am living this virgin coconut juice mixer with crushed ice and slices of fresh lemon. It is so good!!
        Yes…here and now. HERE AND NOW…oh, and no booze😀

    • Hi there @iowadawn, good to hear you are having a great time!!! Enjoy. Don’t worry about August, who knows where any of us will be then. ❤️

      • Oh, @Saorise..that is so good to remember…who knows where any of us will be then???
        The here and now….the here and now….❤

    • I have been thinking about you and hope all is going well with your treatment.
      So very glad to hear you are loving your summer!!! You deserve all that is good and then some.
      oxoxox

      It will be ok.
      Take those 3 years and some months one next step at a time. There will be more long summers and other breaks. It will fly by.

      oxoxoxoxoxoxo

  • Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago

    Xoxoxoxo hugging you across the ocean , dear friend. You are not having pity party….you DESERVE empathy and support and love!! I get you, sister. I get where u are coming from and you are doing a Damn good job!!!

  • Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 2 months, 1 week ago

    @jocord I thank you for your sincere and SMART insight…perfectly goes hand in hand with our @Morgan
    Man is home and he told me I have a lot of hidden anger as it surfaces when I was drunk. Another of all reasons no drinking for me
    I love self care so I think I should focus on that. Again. And steer clear of danger. (Alcohol) now I am feeling embarrassed and a Little mad and disappointed in myself. Grrr

  • Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 2 months, 1 week ago

    Hi @jocord!! I totally agree..watc h ing friends getting drunk is so bad. And affirming. I just like the normie that are enjoying a drink, outside, in beautiful scenery, with fancy and tasty appetizers?

  • Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 2 months, 1 week ago

    Hi @JM. There is something relaxing/appealing ..maybe because I’m in TN , so beautiful, with my man and kids😀

  • Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 2 months, 1 week ago

    Hi there @itsnowornever!
    I like your name 😀 Yes…a sense of humor can go a long way😀

  • Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 2 months, 1 week ago

    Hi @kitten thank you so much💛 And you are so sweet ☺ I need to worry. It is playing with fire to drink

  • Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 2 months, 1 week ago

    Hi @kitten! Over 2 years ago ..omg 3 years ago…I got black out horrid drunk with man in a hotel out in Maryland. Man flew me out as he was on mission with army. Anyway..next morning as he was driving me to airport he said it was imperative I stop drinking. I was humiliated and stopped for 7 months. Than when he deployed to Afganistan, it was summer..I teach so outta work…and I started drinking again. And sending him drunk texts. So THAN Aug of2017 I stopped and came on here? My man against drinking but..this last year…he offered me beer or sip. He loves me not drinking yet once in awhile he’s fine with me sipping. A lot of times he drinks the NA beer with me. Or if he makes dacuriis (strawberry ) I drink the non alcoholic ones with kids. He is 100 percent against drinking around my kids
    So…yes…he is a moderation type of guy. I told him i gave problem with binge drinking. As he knew. Its like he accepts it(me not being a drinker) yet its nice to share a beer with him sometimes
    Yep….I am complicated lol

  • Iowadawn posted a new activity comment 2 months, 1 week ago

    Hi there @ellie24! Welcome!

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