Today was a Monday, lol, but handled all the bumps with a calm spirit. One brief spell of short temperedness in the afternoon that I rode out. Took a short nap, then ran my two miles outside in the green spring. No booze today, friends! 🤩
Having a good Saturday so far. Feels good to connect with my family and get organized around the house. Lots of good things happening in my extended family in terms of jobs, so I am grateful. I’m enjoying everyone’s postings…have a great day, LS warriors!
Day 1. Good morning! I haven’t been here in a month or so. I’ve been discouraged about failing. During that month have gone back and forth with drinking. A week sober, then drinking a couple of days, then back to a sober week. So tired of it. I met a woman at a bible study who said she was sober. I hope to talk to her more when I get to know her a little better. Husband is away on work travel and I am feeling a bit lonely, even with kids and work. Thanks for listening!
Chocolate, Bubble Bath, Call a Friend, Ice Cream, Small piece of Jewelry, Netflix, Plan a Vacation, Take a Walk, rescue an animal, New Shoes, …. You deserve to be AF! You deserve that gift most of all. Yeah You!!!
so weird isn’t it, that celebration drink, that drink on a nice day. you are retraining your stinkin’ thinking’ – what a great feeling. dig deep. what @thork said, what @lee@ said, plus – go out for dinner, go out for lunch, get the bubbliest mineral water you can find, or a soda, or . . . enjoy your day.
Day 11. Feeling good. No thoughts that make drinking sound good! Learning how to manage emotions and take care of myself has been an awesome side effect of learning how to quit drinking, I’m tired and a little overwhelmed with life’s busyness, but I know I’m not taking the quick way out of it.
@honestjoy that’s a great attitude. I had a DAY today – and it was all me- total grouch. I have to work on my attitude. My first 3 months of recovery I was in my cocoon and now I’m out in the work world again.
Go honestjoy. That self care can’t be underestimated. I find life gets overwhelming too. Got into worrying today. Not productive. I think I’ll phase out the casual shifts at the children’s house as well. Its quite stressful. Its funny but being alcohol free I want to minimise stress in my life. Some things have just become unacceptable for my well being.
geez, i know what you mean about the busyness of life. dealing without drinking is certainly a different way of dealing. i feel like i am in the process of putting together the life that i want now. the old one is a bit worn out. be well. glad to see you on day 11, @honestjoy.
Made it through the birthday dinner. I ordered tonic and lime and received soda water plain in a clunky glass. I just dumped it into the gigantic wine glass that was part of the place setting and took a lemon off my friends plate for flavor. And I toasted the hell out of the birthday toast, lol! Today felt great until I went to my salon to get a haircut and hey offered me wine. Split second thought was, no one will know if I have a glass. That’s not even a rational thought because no one even knows I quit except my husband. My subconscious is so sneaky! @jwh612 day 9:) @sunshinestace I lol’d at your comment about ordering NA drinks 🙂
Day 8. Feeling good, went for a run and ran in to an acquaintance I hadn’t seen for a while so we walked together for a bit and caught up. She is a “real” person, who I don’t know well, but I feel like I could talk to her and be real. She is a little older than me and always makes me feel heard. It’s a funny connection that I would like to keep up because I don’t often click and feel comfortable with people easilyor quickly. Also, tonight is a friends birthday dinner, and while I know I won’t drink, I feel a little cringy because I know “that moment “ will come where everyone orders drinks. Maybe it’s still close enough to January people will still be trying to lose weight or cut back, lol, and I won’t be the only one not drinking. But even if I am, I’m ok with that!
Hi @honestjoy! So great you have a friend you can really connect with and feel real and authentic. Sometimes I find my older friends are better friends, maybe they have had more practice being a friend and life experience and that makes them better listeners? Anyway. Good luck at the bday dinner tonight, I understand the cringy moment well. Seems like no matter how discreet and nonchalant I try to be when ordering my “tonic, cranberry, with lime”, I always have to explain it to the server when they loudly say “what’s that?!? you mean with vodka?” Idiots!!! =)
@honestjoy thank you so much and of course, I enjoy your posts! I’ve been in situations where I was a lot worse off. It’s not perfect, life has it’s ups and downs but it’s better sober than drunk. xoxoxoxxoxox
One week..been here before, but the good news is, it’s been easy and nice and it feels normal, because it IS normal. Drinking is not normal for me and I don’t want to ever do it again. I don’t know how to keep those gross, disgusting feelings fresh, so in a month, or whenever it gets hard, I’ll be able to remember what it’s really like. And I’m not just talking about physical feelings…I hate all the thoughts that come with drinking. Have a wonderful night/day!
@honestjoy feel free to chat with me any time on that! LOL. I keep a running list of all the bad times not because I wallow about them – but because it helps me never forget where I can go if I choose to allow alcohol to run my life.
Hi @honestjoy. “I don’t know how to keep those gross, disgusting feelings fresh, so in a month, or whenever it gets hard, I’ll be able to remember what it’s really like. ” This point you make is really important. As I got more AF free days under my belt I noticed that I could no longer properly recall the full horror of what it was like. It seems like our brain starts to hide those memories from us. If you can find the time it would be really worthwhile writing down what it was like… how did it FEEL to be you when you were still drinking daily. I bitterly regret no doing that because, as you say, it would have really helped me later.
So true @daveh When I relapsed after a decent period sober I made myself write it all down, all the gritty, shameful, messy, confusing ugliness of it. I think it is what got me through the same mark again the next time (and a fair few moderation fantasies since!)