Drinking has always been my go to friend to friend since my early teens to numb out some bad things that happened then. It was then my friend to become the social butterfly I became in my late teens and 20s. I've always worked in an industry where it was not only the norm, but the thing to do and although I always sensed I had a bit of an issue I always felt it was under control. Fast forward to my 30s, getting married, failed pregnancy attempts, ivf, miscarriage and my dad then getting really sick and many trips from Sydney to London to see him. Things just became too much and when I saw him pass away last November of liver cirrhosis (you would think I would know better) I started to drink to oblivion to block it out. My marriage has been rocky for some time and I felt alone through everything. I done 40days in July, but now I'm back and determined to get at least 100 days and get the clarity and hopefully find the happiness that I so desperately want. My husband and I have seperated, but I just got a new job and have a 2 year old to be strong for. I'm determined that now is my time!!!!
Day 14 and feeling much stronger. Currently on a trip to the Hunter valley with my mum (a trip arranged prior to me stopping.) it is a little tough but Mum also not drinking and been to a coffee and desert bar and swim in the pool so far. Enjoying some much needed time out from the kids and reflecting. Confident I can get through the weekend AF.…[Read more]
That’s really tough. Well done on staying strong. It’s amazing how different things look from the outside looking in. I’m sure your friend is conscious of it too but sounds like she is stuck in a rut. Glad you still enjoyed your time away xx
@Hodge have you got something else planned that you can enjoy? It might pay to make sure you do something nice for yourself so you don’t feel like you are missing out on the Christmas fun. I caved this time 3 years ago (after 203 days) at a Christmas work do, so I am hanging around here a lot at the moment … kind of a bit of insurance to…[Read more]
Day 7. How i wish I could rewind and undo my actions this time last week. I know I need to be strong and take the bad memories and use them as a tool to not let it happen again but feeling so lonely right now and still getting the silent treatment from hubby. At least tomorrow morning won’t be as bad as sane time last week!
@hodge look forward not back. Shame helps nobody actions speak louder than words and the fact that you are doing something by being here is movement In the right direction. Be gentle with yourself yes it will take time with your hubby but focus on yourself and what you’re doing and in time you’ll come around that sounds hard but be gentle with yourself
I agree with @JR, dear @hodge. Be kind and gentle with yourself and forgive what’s in the past. Dwelling there will just make you feel worse, and can sabotage your (awesome!!!) 7-day sobriety streak! Keep looking forward and know that everything will be okay. Sorry about the silent treatment – that’s hard to deal with. Hang in there!!
Oh hon we have ALL been there. That burden of shame can crush us. So set it down and focus on the beautiful things sobriety has to offer … self respect, balance, energy, peace. As the others have said, give your husband time. Your actions will speak volumes. We’re here for you.
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