I was born in Scotland but immigrated to Canada with my family when I was four. I had my first drink at thirteen. I have always struggled with my drinking, moving from boasting about how much I could drink to hiding how much I was drinking!In my early twenties I spoke to an older coworker who was in recovery about my drinking and he told me not to go looking for trouble. I took that to heart and continued my drinking until I was forty. By this time I was what I would consider a functioning alcoholic. I was successful at work but it was a slippery slope and my drinking was picking up speed even though I wasn’t drinking every day I was binge drinking once a week and on weekends. When it cost me my second marriage I stopped for exactly one year and then was back drinking like before. That year of sobriety was awful but I white knuckled my way through it, proving to myself I didn’t have a problem and could quit if I wanted too. That year of white knuckling put off my sobriety another 15 years. I could not imagine living the rest of my life like that.I met my current wife when I was forty and moved to Southern Manitoba to start my life over. My wife had just started her career in nursing and was working shift work. I didn’t have any friends in town and that’s when I started drinking on my own and that turned into daily drinking. I started seriously thinking about quitting when I was in my late forties but that year of white knuckling kept me trying to find a way to moderate. It took a note from my wife on April 24, 2018, that said I had to choose between her and drinking. I was passed out on the couch for the hundredth time and she was dreading coming home to me. This was finally enough for me I was exhausted trying to moderate and looking for my next drink. I couldn’t imagine my life without my wife, who is the kindest most supportive person I have ever met. That evening I went for a walk and my wife phoned to apologise for the note, I told her I that I had made up my mind and I was going to stop drinking but I needed her support.That was a year ago, my one year soberversary is April 25, 2019. The difference between this time and last time, I just decided drinking was not an option. Last time was for one year and that made it like a prison sentence always knowing that I was going to get to drink again. This time I had to come up with a strategy, that included sober podcasts. On the Recovery Elevator podcast a guest mentioned this site and this site has changed my life. I now know I am not alone, that other people have the same struggles that I have. The support, advice and love shown on this site has shown me that I can live a happy and full sober life!If you are lurking here that is enough proof that alcohol is disrupting your life. Stop poisoning yourself and start dealing with your problems, stop drowning them in booze. You can live your own great, authentic life! A lifetime of sobriety starts with one AF day!
Day 393 7:10am Today’s thought from my big comfy chair: Start here, start today! This one is self explanatory, no one ever wished they put off getting sober not even one day! If you are here you have a problem of some sort with alcohol. Start here start today! @mrs-d started this community for people just like you and me! People who have finally realised that poisoning yourself had to stop! People who needed help and support, there is lots of that available on this site! The biggest thing that impacted me on this site is reading everyone’s personal stories. I could relate to them I wasn’t alone, I could lose the shame! All of these people had at least 3 years sobriety, so I new it was possible! Start here, start today! You are strong enough, you deserve it, your life will be better! You will be free of the chains of alcohol and the world will open up! You can be your authentic self, get in shape, be successful at work, rekindle your love life, enjoy your kids and grandchildren! It starts here, start today!