Sober since September, 2016. Booze has no place in my life. I finally switched my thinking from "I'm missing out" to "I'm free." My recovery journey has taught me so much. I wish I had started it a long time ago, but I'm here now.
We are back from our annual week on the lake with family friends. This is my third sober year doing this vacation and my sobriety now feels like a cozy sweatshirt that I comfortably wear. It used to be tight and restrictive but I have stretched it and softened it and it fits my body well. It gives me peace and comfort. The first lake trip after I got sober was hard … I was scared to death I was going to be triggered and slip. I logged on here often and you carried me through. Encouraged me. Reminded me why I was fighting the good fight. There were still triggers this year when the other adults would kick off the cocktail hour. But I easily pulled my tools from my sober toolbox … fixed LaCroix and lime, though how fabulous I was going to feel the next day, recognized the urge would pass and I didn’t need to give it credence or substance. I guess the point of my rambling post is recovery morphs over time … it’s no longer a battle where I’m constantly on guard. It’s a natural part of my life that I’m so very grateful for because it allows me to finally live. I watched my kids water ski and tube and joke and laugh with their best buddies. I listened to their meaningful chats as some finish up college and others are just embarking. And that’s where the meaning is for me. Not in some lousy bottle of Chardonnay. Peace friends.
Wow, I love love LOVE your sweatshirt analogy. There is nothing I love more than a cozy, well-worn sweatshirt. I am going to write this analogy down in my journaling and keep it in mind as my long term goal. Thank you for your post! 🙂
I LOVE your cozy sweatshirt analogy. That is just so perfect! I am very comfortable with my sobriety too and it’s great that you are good with social situations. In the past 15 years I haven’t drank in social situations so most people are used to it with me. Now I want to buy a comfy sweatshirt! hahaha! Fall is coming…woohoo! My favorite season.