I'm a 42 year old Mum of two, and it's fair to say that I'm taking sobriety in baby steps. Stating first with a firm commitment to 100 days without wine. Or for that matter, anything alcoholic.
Is it going to be the game changer that I’m hoping it will be?
Who knows? I certainly hope so. I need it to be.
I’ve known for probably 5 years or so that my drinking is problematic. Not ‘Whiskey on my Weetbix’ kind of problematic, but definitely enough to (at times) have detrimental effects on my marriage, my kids and my health.
You’d think that would be enough to change, moderate, quit. But it’s become increasingly apparent to me of late that I’m addicted. Somewhere along the line, the amount of wine that I’ve tipped into myself over the years has meant that I’ve developed a dependency.
And that presents some problems.
One who is addicted to something doesn’t just quit.
They ignore the problem for a while, convince themselves that there’s no issue. They try and moderate their use, putting rules around how much, when they indulge. Or, interestingly despite knowing they got a big problem, they let their subconscious take over and they start drinking more than ever. It’s a rather odd phenomenon that I’ve seen in myself and apparently really does exist.
And when none of those things work out (which they were never going to) they may, if the stars align, decide that they need to pull the pin.
That’s where I’m at.
I’m pulling the pin. For 100 days as a start. Apparently that’s the magic number of days that gives the one a real taste of what it would be like to live a life without booze and just how good that life could be.
It bloody better be. Seems like an awfully long time to abstain only to decide that alcohol is indeed the answer to everything that I always thought it was, and life without it is awful.