• Em100 posted a new activity comment 1 month, 3 weeks ago

    I did 30 days last year and to be honest I think it made things worse – because I was a bit like “oh yeah, i haven’t got a problem, I can take a month off easy and things aren’t even that great off the booze so why bother doing any longer…”. For me the magic was definitely well after 30 days. And I’ve read people say it’s even better after 6-months. 🙂

  • Em100 posted an update 1 month, 3 weeks ago

    Just dropping in. I’m on day 57 today. I found it really helpful (and still do) to read about other people who’re at a similar stage to me so I just wanted to share…

    When I first started on this journey, I was expecting big results and fast. You know. Glowing skin, bright eyes, peace in my soul and feelings of contentment every moment. I must admit after 3-4 weeks I was so far away from that it was funny. My anxiety was through the roof, my skin was horrendous and I felt tired and run down.

    BUT… this last week has been totally different. I actually think I look different, and I know that I feel different. I feel like ME. Whole. I feel confident. I had read before the booze takes your confidence and I didn’t really know what that meant. But I do now – I feel surer in myself because I know that everything I say or do is 100% me.

    I’m currently re-reading Jason Vale’s Kick the drink easily’ and that’s another thing I’d say – just because you’ve read these books (Annie Grace’s book is the other I’d recommend) once, doesn’t mean you can’t re-read them again. I’m getting a lot out of Jason Vale’s book this time, much more than I did the first time I read it. Something is clicking this time.

    I have no doubt that there’s more cr*p to come and at 57 days I’m only a newbie, but I just wanted to let anyone who is wavering and struggling at an earlier stage that it absolutely gets better and to stick with it. Live your best life.

    • Thank you, great to hear your happy success to date

    • Thank you so much, day 3 for me but feel dreadful. Have got to 30 days before and never felt any better and my resolve wore out, reading this will make me hang in in there much longer xx

      • I did 30 days last year and to be honest I think it made things worse – because I was a bit like “oh yeah, i haven’t got a problem, I can take a month off easy and things aren’t even that great off the booze so why bother doing any longer…”. For me the magic was definitely well after 30 days. And I’ve read people say it’s even better after 6-months. 🙂

  • Em100 posted a new activity comment 2 months ago

    Thanks so much. I think you’re right… just need to talk it out with someone and move on. Feeling better today already after positive on here – and cheaper than therapy!!!

  • Em100 posted a new activity comment 2 months ago

    It’s crazy huh?! Ok maybe I need to bite the bullet and see someone. Are you in NZ? Did you go through your GP?

  • Em100 posted an update 2 months ago

    Hi all – Day 44 for me. Been a bit all over the show the past few days. One minute feeling really grounded and whole – almost like I’m more ME than I’ve been for a long time. But… then the next minute (and this has dominated today) my brain is fixating on a ‘thing’ from my past that I know I need to work through – it’s probably more than half the reason I drank. Because I can’t numb the related anxiety, fear, shame with wine it’s digging itself in front and centre in my mind and it’s pretty raw. I’m not big on therapy but I’m wondering if I need to talk to someone? Or is it just another stage of being AF that will work itself through do you think?

    • Oh my gosh, this is exactly what I am experiencing. I have these awesome moments of elation and that feel like I am finding my true self. Next out of the blue a feeling or memory will come to me and knock the wind out of me. I see it as uncovering the layers I buried with the booze. For what it’s worth I am seeing a counsellor and it is helping.

    • Tell someone, even if it is writing it on a piece of paper saying it out loud then destroying the paper. You are stronger than past thing. Wishing you the best ways to get there.

    • Ccongrats on day 44 especially with that “thing” from the past. Does it effect your life now or is it a cringeworthy memory you are holding on to? If it accounted for more than 1/2 your drinking you should probably work it out. Sometimes just telling someone one time out loud is enough to heal that area and move on.

    • Thanks so much. I think you’re right… just need to talk it out with someone and move on. Feeling better today already after positive on here – and cheaper than therapy!!!

  • Em100 posted a new activity comment 2 months, 3 weeks ago

    Thanks guys. I’ve just been reading a bit online about anxiety in recovery. It helps to know it’s not uncommon. Think I need to get back to meditating as that’s really helped me in the past. Really appreciate your comments too 😊

    • Do you exercise? I think that is number one anxiety buster. Any remedies tried? St John’s wort can be great for some.

  • Em100 posted an update 2 months, 3 weeks ago

    Day 27. The honeymoon appears to be over. Feeling anxious and low. I won’t do it, but would love a bottle of wine to numb the feelings. Clearly that’s what I’ve been doing for years. Finding it very difficult to sit with these feelings – my brain is almost obsessing about past regrets/mistakes. It just won’t switch off. A wine would numb it beautifully.

    • It would numb it for an hour or two, then tomorrow morning you’d wake up, with a dry mouth, sore head and a whole lot of regret. I’m day 23 and have had some of those thoughts during this past week, so I know where you’re coming from. Dont do it, stay with your feelings, let them come, and then watch them go – and wake up clear-headed in the morning.

    • Stay strong. You dont need that horrible stuff.

    • Delay distract do something different clean, read a book hot bath cup of tea etc, or surf the urge, in reality feelings don’t last long if you sit with them, it’s the thoughts that get us so hence why we need to change thoughts.

    • Thanks guys. I’ve just been reading a bit online about anxiety in recovery. It helps to know it’s not uncommon. Think I need to get back to meditating as that’s really helped me in the past. Really appreciate your comments too 😊

      • Do you exercise? I think that is number one anxiety buster. Any remedies tried? St John’s wort can be great for some.

    • Hi Em100. Freedom from alcohol has been incredibly liberating for me.
      The past (we all have one) is dead energy, done, take the lessons and kick it out of the luggage. “To live in the past is a violation of spiritual law” (Florence Scovel Shinn).
      Meditation helps bring us into the present, good idea. And my other favourite- the future is an illusion.
      You are going great 27 days, the brain is making new pathways don’t confuse them now.

  • Em100 posted a new activity comment 3 months ago

    Thanks to both of you for your advice – it’s very much appreciated!

  • Em100 posted a new activity comment 3 months ago

    Haha. Yes! Thanks…

  • Em100 posted a new activity comment 3 months ago

    Exciting! Thank you… 🙂

  • Em100 posted a new activity comment 3 months ago

    Do you need a GP script for Thiamine or can you buy it at the chemist?

  • Em100 posted a new activity comment 3 months ago

    Thanks! I’m generally pretty fit and healthy (aside from an under active thyroid but I’m medicated and my levels are ‘normal’ at the moment) but I definitely underestimated the effect removing wine would have on my energy levels! I think I over-did the chocolate too – my skin broke out a treat. So much for bundles of energy and glowing skin 😉

  • Em100 posted a new activity comment 3 months ago

    Thanks! I’ve been drinking for over 20 years (aside from two pregnancies) and pretty heavily the last 10 years. Generally a bottle of wine a night and often more in the weekends. And of course the massive ‘special event’ nights of binge drinking thrown in there too. Regardless of the tiredness, I’m so glad to have it GONE.

    • Good for you! Yes, I had been drinking for 7 years heavily but I’ve been working on this alcohol thing for 25 years. Glad to have you here and glad to be sober!!

  • Em100 posted an update 3 months ago

    OK – I’ll try again… and yes Jess, I did edit it so maybe that was the problem!
    Just wondering if anyone else was super-tired during these early stages (day 16)? Like SUPER-tired. I can sleep a solid 8 hours at night and then go an afternoon snooze as well!! Taking B-vitamins, have a good diet and am reasonably fit. Thoughts? 🙂

    • Absolutely @Em100. It all depends on how much and how long you drank but honestly I was tired for 2 months. I’m older though and let myself get out of shape. Great on the B-vitamins and diet…you are healing…soon your energy will back with a vengeance! 🙂

      • Thanks! I’ve been drinking for over 20 years (aside from two pregnancies) and pretty heavily the last 10 years. Generally a bottle of wine a night and often more in the weekends. And of course the massive ‘special event’ nights of binge drinking thrown in there too. Regardless of the tiredness, I’m so glad to have it GONE.

        • Good for you! Yes, I had been drinking for 7 years heavily but I’ve been working on this alcohol thing for 25 years. Glad to have you here and glad to be sober!!

    • (Not sure what your daily nutrition or health might be, but it’s sure sounds likely your liver is experiencing massive changes (bless your liver) along with the added shock in blood sugar levels. Try and keep your eye on eating healthy carbohydrates like apples, berries, fruit, butternut squash, carrots, black beans. When we eat these foods, for eg., our body breaks them down into glucose which is the fuel that keeps us going & alive. Leafy greens, coconut water/water, fruits and rest sounds pretty natural (to me). Has your GP given you a script for Thiamine as well?) Serious business, this alcohol, aye. (And, don’t forget a little chocolate, too) 🙂

      • Ooooh @malibustacey you have such a way with words. Excellent advice- I have to agree – Thiamine is a big lifesaver. 🙂

      • Thanks! I’m generally pretty fit and healthy (aside from an under active thyroid but I’m medicated and my levels are ‘normal’ at the moment) but I definitely underestimated the effect removing wine would have on my energy levels! I think I over-did the chocolate too – my skin broke out a treat. So much for bundles of energy and glowing skin 😉

      • What is Thiamine exactly and script/no script advantages? Is this an NZ thing? I’m intrigued

    • Thanks to both of you for your advice – it’s very much appreciated!

    • Day 16 and I’m exactly the same, I’m enjoying it though. As when I was drinking my sleep was shit. But could do without the random dreams 😂

  • Em100 posted a new activity comment 3 months ago

    Ahhh ok – I shall stop taking it personally then 😉

  • Em100 posted an update 3 months ago

    Hi all – I posted yesterday about being super-tired and wondering if that was normal (day 16) but the post disappeared!
    I’m just wondering if I said something wrong?! Or perhaps a technical glitch?!

    • Hi @em100 It wasn’t anything you said or did… this site occasionally drops posts without any warning or explanation. It’s frustrating but doesn’t happen that often.

  • Em100 posted a new activity comment 3 months, 1 week ago

    I’m Day 10 as well. I think I’m sleeping a lot better but still tired and brain very foggy half the time.
    Congrats on double-digits!

  • Em100 posted a new activity comment 3 months, 1 week ago

    In my opinion half a glass definitely DOES NOT warrant re-setting your count. Positive thoughts with your Mum x

  • Em100 posted a new activity comment 3 months, 1 week ago

    Happy Mother’s day! My first sober Mother’s Day in 9 years… apparently my kids said to Husband – what can we buy Mum now that she’s not drinking?! I received a lovely candle and a big bottle of Kombucha. Perfect! Enjoy your day.

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  • Em100 posted a new activity comment 3 months, 2 weeks ago

    I’m day 6 as well. My first Saturday morning without a hangover in years! But yes, also VERY tired (despite a good sleep?) and irritable. Husband taken kids out to buy a Mother’s Day present so at least I can have some peace for the moment. And it’s lovely and sunny x

  • Em100 posted a new activity comment 3 months, 2 weeks ago

    Hi Marnielee – I’m new on here today as well. Your story sounds very familiar to me – and I can totally relate to the forgotten conversations. It’s horrendous. I have younger children and there have been times that I can’t exactly remember putting them to bed. How awful is that? But like you, I couldn’t quite fathom life without alcohol… so I’m giving 100 days a go as a start. Apparently 100 days is a good chunk of time to heal your body and clear your brain. I’m on day 5 and have no doubt I’ll achieve it (I’ve told too many people not to!!). I’m enjoying not having the constant battle with myself about whether I will drink today or not. So, maybe consider giving up for a set period? Forever can seem like a long time. Oh and I’m re-reading This Naked Mind – it’s sinking in a lot better second time around. Take care, E.

  • Em100 posted a new activity comment 3 months, 2 weeks ago

    Well lovely to meet you, good luck with tonight and have a great (hangover-free!!)
    weekend!

  • Em100 posted a new activity comment 3 months, 2 weeks ago

    Wow. Thank you.
    I umm’d and ahh’d (is that such a thing?!) about posting something after I registered but eventually chickened out. Currently sitting on Day 5 of a commitment to do 100 days booze-free. My first Friday today… focusing on a hangover and guilt-free Saturday.

    • I too am on day 5 – so I feel ya! I am gonna keep busy tonight and I have horse stuff on weekend so lots to focus on.

    • Well lovely to meet you, good luck with tonight and have a great (hangover-free!!)
      weekend!

  • Em100 became a registered member 3 months, 2 weeks ago

    • Welcome 🙂

      • Wow. Thank you.
        I umm’d and ahh’d (is that such a thing?!) about posting something after I registered but eventually chickened out. Currently sitting on Day 5 of a commitment to do 100 days booze-free. My first Friday today… focusing on a hangover and guilt-free Saturday.

        • I too am on day 5 – so I feel ya! I am gonna keep busy tonight and I have horse stuff on weekend so lots to focus on.

        • Well lovely to meet you, good luck with tonight and have a great (hangover-free!!)
          weekend!