Jennah me too; I can go a few days and then the wine witch comes to call. If you are looking for something to read that might help, I would suggest “This Naked Mind” by Annie Grace. Annie also offers a free 30 day alcohol experiment where when you sign up she sends you a daily email with videos and exercises designed to help you deconstruct your patterns. She has a wonderful online community not unlike this one as well.
Freedom, I love the analogy of Dorothy and the Wizard of Oz. I just started reading “The Little Book of Big Change” by Amy Johnston. One thing she said in the introduction is that our human state, or our “baseline” is calm, content, habit free: “You are by nature full of peace of mind, clarity and connection. By nature you are confident, calm and habit-free. You were not born with your habit and it is not an essential part of who you are. It may dominate your thoughts, emotions and behaviors, but your habit says nothing at all about your basic nature – that part of you that is always there and always true, underneath your surface thoughts, emotions and behaviors.” She likens our “baseline” to the sky above the weather. If you have ever flown, you know that above all the clouds, the sky is bright blue and beautiful. That’s us. Our thoughts are the weather flies below the baseline. I thought this was profound and very helpful. Thank you for the Wizard of Oz analogy!! It makes perfect sense.