Good day today. Went to dinner with hubby and son and hubby really doesn’t drink, but today he ordered a drink out of nowhere. And I am happy to say that I was not bothered by it at all. No internal struggle about it, no feeling of self pity wishing I could have a drink…just felt perfectly happy with my lemon water. I think that I am finally coming to grips with the realization that abstinence from alcohol is the only way to live my life from now on.
I know it won’t be easy but the way I feel at this moment in time is far better than the shame and despair feeling I get from boozing.