Its time to start this journey of sobriety......again. I have always drunk quite heavily and slowly but surely wine has become my best friend. I have been married more than 35 years and my husband is a shift worker. I have never got used to being alone at night when he is at work. First it was fear of the dark and then it was just plain old loneliness. He works nights at least 2-3 times each week year in year out, when he leaves at 4.30pm I head for the fridge and my best friend is always there. Not that I blame my drinking on this but it certainly hasn't helped. So I joined this site a week or so ago, have read lots of posts and it feels like a safe and supportive place to be. So here I am!
Day 50 I did not drink yesterday and I will not drink today.
Moving slowly forward. I spend a lot of time feeling sad (which I guess is normal) but am starting to think of whats next. I’ve been looking at jobs online and although daunting I feel it would be great to move in a new direction. I don’t feel I want to go back to work in the DHB (District health board) I have worked with before and I want to do something different. I constantly waiver between taking a lesser job and either working part time or casual (to spend time with family etc) or Take on a full time full on role and go hard for the next couple of years and then pull back/retire. I am very grateful that I potentially have the choice. I do know that whatever is right for me, the opportunity will present itself and I will either have to be brave or content. Being AF helps tremendously with mental clarity. Off now to exercise, more clearing of Dads Villa and then job hunting……busy busy busy….just how I like it. have a great Monday everyone