Its time to start this journey of sobriety......again. I have always drunk quite heavily and slowly but surely wine has become my best friend. I have been married more than 35 years and my husband is a shift worker. I have never got used to being alone at night when he is at work. First it was fear of the dark and then it was just plain old loneliness. He works nights at least 2-3 times each week year in year out, when he leaves at 4.30pm I head for the fridge and my best friend is always there. Not that I blame my drinking on this but it certainly hasn't helped. So I joined this site a week or so ago, have read lots of posts and it feels like a safe and supportive place to be. So here I am!
Day 34 I did not drink yesterday and I will not drink today. A sad time in my world at the moment. My much loved Dad passed away yesterday and although it was his time I already miss him greatly. My life over the last 3 months has pretty much been consumed with looking after Dad and I have treasured the close times I had with him. It has been exhausting and all consuming and I can’t imagine what life will be like without him. My resolve not to drink has really been tested and at least 3 times now I almost gave in but managed to stay strong. I know it would only make me feel worse. On the plus side my Neices and Nephews are so proud at my AF status….they wish their mother (my sister) would do the same. Off to bed fellow soberites
I’m so sorry your father passed away. That is wonderful that you had the opportunity to spend 3 months with him before he passed. At least being sober you can go through and feel the stages of grief and process it. Take care.