My story? Hmm Just a self destructive soul with an addictive nature. Have found myself in trouble with all sorts of substances but those things fell away mostly once I became a parent. Then there was just the booze left. After years of beating myself up for overdoing it time and time again, lying awake in the early hours hating myself, struggling to remember what I had done, chronic blackout drinking, self esteem all shattered, I amazingly had the good sense to finally listen to that inner voice that told me it was time to quit. That was at the end of 2014 and I got to nearly 2 years sober when I stupidly decided that I could be a normal drinker. After a few months it became apparent (doh!) that this was not the case, so I have recommitted myself to sobriety and I'm so thankful to be back in the tribe.
Hopping into bed with my herbal tea. Made it through – it was touch and go there for a bit earlier this evening, I am away on a “mini break” with my sister. Took a bit of talking to myself – coming in from that ledge I wanted to go over. But all good. Pheww. Need to be on my guard for the next few days. But like @MissFreedom below me has said, the…[Read more]
Wise. Yes, willpower will let us down according to research – our bank account runs out pretty quickly if used too much throughout the day. Neural change is really the only safe thing, and takes a lot of time which is hard for we impulsive types!
Have fun xxxxx
I went to a 50th birthday today. I was reluctant – it was a camping weekend. It was the birthday of one of my yoga teachers, so it wasn’t going to be a bender, but being around that many people, drinking just normally….felt pretty conflicted. It was actually my 12 year old that convinced me, as some of his mates would be there. So I took my…[Read more]
Love the esky/chilly bin thing…I remember all of those words from Australian English and miss being immersed in it. Sorry to hear about your sober hero lapsing….may it be a lapse and not a full on relapse. You’re a good person for wanting to reach out to him in peace and quiet, he may be more open then. oxxoxxo
Love the term chilly bin in south Africa we call it a cooler box. I love hearing different words used in different english speaking countries. A funny one I think unique to south Africa is we call traffic lights robots so if you’re ever here and someone says turn left at the robots you’ll know what they mean 😉 hope you manage to have a good chat…[Read more]
Sorry to hear re your sober role model drinking. I can see how that would rock you. And I think your idea of talking to him later about it is a good one. Be prepared, if he’s on his way back to drinking he might not want to talk to you about it 🙁
That is a lovely post after the way you have been feeling. Great news about the sleep too. Have you grabbed any other remedies? I read a great article on raising dopamine so will try and capture to post here – every new person should follow, and those of us who start to feel a bit meh
Just been driving home tonight listening to the news – I’m so saddened, and shocked. My prayers and thoughts are with all NZ’ers tonight , Im so sorry this has happened in your beautiful country. Love to you all xxx
*So when I lie in bed at night and can’t sleep, I try and switch my thoughts back to look for things to be grateful for. To switch off from the shite that usually floats in my head.
*I found this good app called “Calm”. I signed up kind of accidentally the other night – you get 7 days trial for free and after that they hit you up for a year $70.…[Read more]
30 das done and dusted high five!!! oxxox Love the sleeping help strategies there. I found that moderate physical exercise also helps. Puts my body and brain into an exhausted state so that sleep beats thinking, as I tend to overthink and ruminate.
Thanks for sharing this! Now I REALLY want some lavender tea tonight myself! Nom!
Insomnia – sounds awful though I rarely have experienced it. Have you tried the soporific Tara Brach late at night? or in the too, too early morning? She does it for me every time, but then, I am a sleeper from way back – sorry, not meaning to rub it in your poor tired faces @Ellislou and Delgirl
My mum has it too, she’s in a care facility down in Sydney – 4 hours away. I try and visit once a month or 2 but geez it’s awful. We were very lucky, it was a very smooth transition, moving her in there (not for my sister and I though). Funny this came up cos I was just thinking about mum tonight while I was cooking dinner. I thought I’d love to…[Read more]
Sounds like you are shaking things up in there and hahaha not many people like their boat rocked! Must feel great to be appreciated, and so good to know your’e making a difference in these kids’ lives @janus2. They can’t do anything with the video surely. You’re rocking it xx
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