• Clowance posted a new activity comment 5 hours, 31 minutes ago

    Woohoo – that’s a wonderful achievement!

  • Clowance posted a new activity comment 5 hours, 31 minutes ago

    Can you send the grouchy husband to join the whiny kids 😉 A bit more seriously, sounds like you’ve got some good strategies in place. Hope the kids sweeten up when fed and the husband’s had a good day at work and thinks, on his way home, how much he appreciates his missus xx

    • I would love to. Grouchy husband retreats to his phone after dinner leaving me with the rest of it. But at least that way he’s not yelling.

  • Clowance posted a new activity comment 5 hours, 34 minutes ago

    I hope tomorrow is better, and that you get over, under or through some of those brick walls xx

  • Clowance posted a new activity comment 14 hours, 59 minutes ago

    So glad your goldie is feeling better and can come out again. They are such ‘enjoying life’ dogs that they lift my spirits too.

  • Clowance posted a new activity comment 15 hours, 1 minute ago

    That makes me laugh – I always have the most amazing panicky tidy up when anyone is coming. One day I will be tidy and organised, so that I don’t die of embarrassment at the idea of someone just turning up!

  • Clowance posted a new activity comment 15 hours, 2 minutes ago

    Congrats on day 30 and I’m so glad you’re are beginning to feel more and more peaceful moments xx

  • Clowance posted a new activity comment 15 hours, 11 minutes ago

    @lee-2 I’m sure you’re right, it’s the dopamine swinging about trying to get level. I was all ‘where’s this pink cloud everyone talks about’ cos I hadn’t had it. Got it this morning I think, but no doubt I’ll swing the other way as well before long.
    But we’ll get evened out eventually xx

    • @clowance, I never got that “pink cloud” either. Was kind of jealous of people that did..all talking about the joy of being sober. I was like…what frigging joy? This is hard work!

  • Clowance posted a new activity comment 15 hours, 15 minutes ago

    Congrats on day 3! Yes, I felt like someone had removed all my blood or something at the end of the first week and in the second week. I can’t remember having been so exhausted – and therefore down – apart from having real flu. I kept having to have major naps!
    The upside – day 26 now and I am feeling much more chipper. Hang in here with us, it d…[Read more]

  • Clowance posted a new activity comment 15 hours, 20 minutes ago

    @lee-2 I quite like being redundant but I did like getting paid too……. will have to start thinking about what next soon, because of those pesky bills. Good luck going back to work xx

  • Clowance posted a new activity comment 15 hours, 22 minutes ago

    Thank you 😊

  • Clowance posted a new activity comment 15 hours, 24 minutes ago

    French horn. Only been playing 18 months, but we have this wonderful open access, but aspiring to the best standards we can, orchestra here, so even as such a beginner, I get to play wonderful music and with many excellent players. And because our conductor is such a charismatic and amazing man, he gets top professionals to play with us as part of…[Read more]

    • I’m a trumpet player. That totally explains the addiction to alcohol! Haha. That sounds like a fabulous concert. The French Horn takes great ears. Best challenge ever. Congratulations!

  • Clowance posted a new activity comment 17 hours, 51 minutes ago

    Yeh, I think I need to re-train my brain. This was at home, afterwards, but I suppose the trigger was the food, so it could easily have been out to dinner as well.
    Never mind, feeling so chipper this morning is definitely better 😊

    • Chipper is good!! Gimme some of that!! ha. I’m beginning to stress a bit over having to get back to work. Really wish I could take more time off but the bills keep coming. Had I not drank again I would not be in this position. Makes me hate the shit alcohol even more.

    • @lee-2 I quite like being redundant but I did like getting paid too……. will have to start thinking about what next soon, because of those pesky bills. Good luck going back to work xx

  • Clowance posted a new activity comment 18 hours, 23 minutes ago

    Hope you’re feeling better soon. And hey, maybe the purple streak was meant to be – I bet it looks awesome!

  • Had a wonderful day yesterday, played in an orchestra concert with an amazing soloist.
    Met up with the friend who’s cut down on the booze and lost weight, was able to comment on that so got a big hug.
    Sat down to dinner and *really* wanted a glass of wine with it. I think the taste more than anything, there isn’t really an equivalent that I kno…[Read more]

    • Sounds like a lovely evening @clowance. Seems like most places would allow you to bring your own AF wine and maybe charge a corkage fee. I’ve never done it though. To scared that I’ll either get frustrated knowing that I have the placebo and or that it will be a trigger. Lately I’ve stuck to h20 and coffee (lots of coffee) Everything I’ve been…[Read more]

      • Yeh, I think I need to re-train my brain. This was at home, afterwards, but I suppose the trigger was the food, so it could easily have been out to dinner as well.
        Never mind, feeling so chipper this morning is definitely better 😊

        • Chipper is good!! Gimme some of that!! ha. I’m beginning to stress a bit over having to get back to work. Really wish I could take more time off but the bills keep coming. Had I not drank again I would not be in this position. Makes me hate the shit alcohol even more.

        • @lee-2 I quite like being redundant but I did like getting paid too……. will have to start thinking about what next soon, because of those pesky bills. Good luck going back to work xx

    • Ooo another 🎼 musician. What do you play?

      • French horn. Only been playing 18 months, but we have this wonderful open access, but aspiring to the best standards we can, orchestra here, so even as such a beginner, I get to play wonderful music and with many excellent players. And because our conductor is such a charismatic and amazing man, he gets top professionals to play with us as part of…[Read more]

        • I’m a trumpet player. That totally explains the addiction to alcohol! Haha. That sounds like a fabulous concert. The French Horn takes great ears. Best challenge ever. Congratulations!

    • Congrats on 26 days-glad you’re feeling chipper!!

    • The day I sipped my partner’s wine at a beautiful seafood restaurant, as my jealously was too high, I had to test myself, was the most freeing ever. It tasted like chemicals. I turned back to my lovely organic feijoa juice, with lots of soda water, and it was heaven. I had to try again, disbelieving. It was true! My taste buds had healed, changed,…[Read more]

  • Clowance posted a new activity comment 19 hours, 6 minutes ago

    Congrats on day 3! The rest does get better xx

  • Clowance posted a new activity comment 1 day, 6 hours ago

    You don’t owe us responses, we understand xx Sending you some more love. Enjoy your grandson 😊

  • Clowance posted a new activity comment 1 day, 7 hours ago

    Have some hugs xx

  • Clowance posted a new activity comment 1 day, 7 hours ago

    Hey, congratulations on 2 weeks!!
    Yeh, I thought I was doing ok, and then just sat down to dinner – pasta – and really wanted a glass of wine with it. I didn’t, but. So I get the ‘isn’t always easy bit’ but hey we’re still here!

  • Clowance posted a new activity comment 1 day, 11 hours ago

    Congratulations on day 48! That cedar oil sounds lovely, must look some out. But good on you for finding yourself some time with it, and your breathing exercises, when your boss was being a dick.

  • Clowance posted a new activity comment 1 day, 11 hours ago

    Woohoo – congratulations!

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