• claloula posted a new activity comment 7 hours, 54 minutes ago

    So sorry, lovely, hugs!! xx

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 2 days, 9 hours ago

    Wild swimming in the lakes sounds gorgeous – and 35 days is really really solid progress. Don’t worry about being ‘authentic’, we don’t judge here! And that calm emptiness, that jewel you describe is one of the most precious things, I find. Bravo you!

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 2 days, 10 hours ago

    Welcome here!

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 2 days, 10 hours ago

    Welcome, Azikha!

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 5 days, 11 hours ago

    Whoop! Well done you xx

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 1 week, 2 days ago

    Hey Ro! I’m in the UK, but I lived in Paris for six years while I was studying for my doctorate – it’s an amazing place. Cold, grey, and rainy is our normal here, I don’t mind the bleak too much either, though I miss the sunshine I had in Sydney, even during the winter! It’s so so tough for your friend, but even being a virtual presence can be a helpful one (as this place attests so perfectly). Warm soup and dogs by the fire sounds just lovely! Take good care xx

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 1 week, 2 days ago

    Isn’t it! Everyone else around was bracing themselves against the wind and I’m extolling how it’s my favourite thing ever! It’s not a worry about the job really, just fancied a couple of years back in Paris! I’m proud of my day count! How are things with you and yours? sounds like a tough old time xxx

    • Wow Paris! How fantastic…..I’ve never been to Europe, Of course Prudence is in Europe at the moment, and so is my mother, who incidentally has pretty much been M.I.A since she got there. Having far too much fun obviously to keep in touch with the little people back in Antartica lol lucky buggers. Prudence’s pictures have been amazing. I could go to Italy and never come home.
      Yeah I’ve been heart sore for my friend losing his wee girl. I haven’t seen him for a long time. I don’t want to see him now πŸ™ How utterly desolate he must be feeling. But I will go and see him the next time I go up the road. It’s a few hours away. Not far but I don’t go very often at all.
      Where abouts are you in the world? The U.K or U.S.A? It is a cold,grey and rainy day here in the deep south of New Zealand today. Quite bleak. But that’s alright. I’ve already got a big pot of chicken and vege soup on and when I’ve dropped my guy off shortly I’ll get the fire going. The dogs love baking their brains out by it.

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 1 week, 2 days ago

    I only properly started reading it a couple of days ago – I love the dive into prose not knowing quite where you’ll end up. There was some amazing radio today about it. It’s a really really long work – but as a dear friend said of Proust, you never skip the same bits twice πŸ™‚ Walking the dog was lovely and thanks for the congrats.

  • claloula posted an update 1 week, 2 days ago

    D505 – had an intense Skype call for a job which I didn’t get – it’s fine, but would have meant a relocation to one of my favourite cities in the world, mais tant pis! Just as it ended though I had the merest glimmer of a ‘crikey I deserve a drink after that’ – and it was so weird, and I didn’t have a drink either, I took the dog for a walk and got some air. Does anyone else think they’d happily live in a wind tunnel? I’ve a fan next to my bed, I find it really soothing…when I’ve been panicking, getting out into the air, or travelling is my therapy. It was nice to talk about my work though, which I’ve not done for a while. Someone had a glass of wine at home earlier and I could just smell the ethanol, it’s all I can smell when people have been drinking too, I find it very disagreeable. Sorry this is total stream of consciousness – happy final few ours of Bloomsday, seems appropriate! Toodle pip!

    • Hi claloula! I like your stream of consciousness – did not know it was Bloomsday, couldn’t actually get through Ulysses. Interviews are stressful, understandable that thought ran through your head. Walk w dog is often my go to strategy. Congrats on 505 days!! : )

    • Hi claloula! I like your stream of consciousness – did not know it was Bloomsday, couldn’t actually get through Ulysses. Interviews are stressful, understandable that thought ran through your head. Walk w dog is often my go to strategy. Congrats on 505 days!! : )

      • I only properly started reading it a couple of days ago – I love the dive into prose not knowing quite where you’ll end up. There was some amazing radio today about it. It’s a really really long work – but as a dear friend said of Proust, you never skip the same bits twice πŸ™‚ Walking the dog was lovely and thanks for the congrats.

    • Its always wonderful to blow out the cobwebs with a walk in the wind! Sorry about the job-not for you this time. Way to go on your day count πŸ™‚

      • Isn’t it! Everyone else around was bracing themselves against the wind and I’m extolling how it’s my favourite thing ever! It’s not a worry about the job really, just fancied a couple of years back in Paris! I’m proud of my day count! How are things with you and yours? sounds like a tough old time xxx

        • Wow Paris! How fantastic…..I’ve never been to Europe, Of course Prudence is in Europe at the moment, and so is my mother, who incidentally has pretty much been M.I.A since she got there. Having far too much fun obviously to keep in touch with the little people back in Antartica lol lucky buggers. Prudence’s pictures have been amazing. I could go to Italy and never come home.
          Yeah I’ve been heart sore for my friend losing his wee girl. I haven’t seen him for a long time. I don’t want to see him now πŸ™ How utterly desolate he must be feeling. But I will go and see him the next time I go up the road. It’s a few hours away. Not far but I don’t go very often at all.
          Where abouts are you in the world? The U.K or U.S.A? It is a cold,grey and rainy day here in the deep south of New Zealand today. Quite bleak. But that’s alright. I’ve already got a big pot of chicken and vege soup on and when I’ve dropped my guy off shortly I’ll get the fire going. The dogs love baking their brains out by it.

    • Hey Ro! I’m in the UK, but I lived in Paris for six years while I was studying for my doctorate – it’s an amazing place. Cold, grey, and rainy is our normal here, I don’t mind the bleak too much either, though I miss the sunshine I had in Sydney, even during the winter! It’s so so tough for your friend, but even being a virtual presence can be a helpful one (as this place attests so perfectly). Warm soup and dogs by the fire sounds just lovely! Take good care xx

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 1 week, 3 days ago

    I love the idea of ‘helpful indifference’!

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 1 week, 3 days ago

    That’s so incredibly tragic, Ro. I can’t imagine the pain you must all be going through. Grief from suicide is so immensely complicated and even more so when a child. There is specialist help for this situation and it’s really important to try and get it. I work with an organisation that does postvention work with schools after a suicide, mainly advising on the community aspect of things. Your friend has amazing support from you, but you need to really look after yourself too. Lifeline, Samaritans – places where people listen in confidence and without judgement and where you can talk frankly about suicide and suicidal feelings – just to help the fog clear a bit. All love, darling x

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 1 week, 3 days ago

    Awesome you! I love the rebellious aspect to sobriety too – it’s one to hold on to!

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 2 weeks ago

    A mixture, I suppose. First, this time when I stopped drinking it was like a switch had flipped, having tried to stop/moderate before, just a sense that it was going to hold; reading everything about sobriety, the different sorts of experiences you have at different stages, support on here was and still is the best thing ever. I think also having a sense of gentle curiosity about myself, realising what mood, food, situation might prompt the thought about drinking, what was I actually looking for in that moment? what was I trying to escape from or ignore? I’ve slowed everything right down – was very career-focused and I’ve taken some time away from that. Yoga, exercise and swimming are tremendously therapeutic. Knowing that letting go, even of things that are bad for you, is still something that provokes grief before joy ! I also do a fair bit of volunteering, offering emotional support and postvention in youth settings after suicide, working with refugees and asylum seekers and I’m an activist politically too – all those things are immensely fulfilling as well as challenging.

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 2 weeks ago

    πŸ™‚

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 2 weeks ago

    Thanks all – I tried to reply individually but can’t seem to make it work! Yeah, the money stuff is unreal! It’s such a nice thing not to have in my life anymore, if that makes sense… xxx

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 2 weeks ago

    I’m exactly half-way behind you! AMAZING work xx

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 2 weeks ago

    Thanks! xxx

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 2 weeks ago

    Thank you! xx

  • claloula posted an update 2 weeks ago

    Hello sober warriors! I’ve been lurking of late, but today is Day 500 – whooooooooop! I’ve not spent (let’s face it saving isn’t something I do) over Β£5000. It’s been tough and amazing and would have been impossible without this amazing space. Keep going! love, Claire xx

    • JM replied 2 weeks ago

      Day 500!! You total warrior, congrats!! : )

    • Yay you!!! Congrats! I totally agree,this is a beautiful space. Love to you too.

    • Wow Claire – thank you for sharing. Congrats. You made my day!

    • Wonderful! 500 days and 10 times that in the pounds saved. Drinking drains away everything.

    • 500!!!! Oh my goodness what a number!!! Congratulations!!!
      xoxoxo

    • Thanks all – I tried to reply individually but can’t seem to make it work! Yeah, the money stuff is unreal! It’s such a nice thing not to have in my life anymore, if that makes sense… xxx

    • Great work @claloula πŸ™‚

    • 500 has a seriously cool ad, well, serious sound and look to it. As I always want to know, what has been your best strategy? set of strategies?

      • A mixture, I suppose. First, this time when I stopped drinking it was like a switch had flipped, having tried to stop/moderate before, just a sense that it was going to hold; reading everything about sobriety, the different sorts of experiences you have at different stages, support on here was and still is the best thing ever. I think also having a sense of gentle curiosity about myself, realising what mood, food, situation might prompt the thought about drinking, what was I actually looking for in that moment? what was I trying to escape from or ignore? I’ve slowed everything right down – was very career-focused and I’ve taken some time away from that. Yoga, exercise and swimming are tremendously therapeutic. Knowing that letting go, even of things that are bad for you, is still something that provokes grief before joy ! I also do a fair bit of volunteering, offering emotional support and postvention in youth settings after suicide, working with refugees and asylum seekers and I’m an activist politically too – all those things are immensely fulfilling as well as challenging.

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 3 weeks, 3 days ago

    Thanks gorgeous people. I’m going to book an appt with my GP and get some blood tests done. It makes a whole lot of sense actually, I’ve done a ton of work on past trauma – and I know it’s never completely done, but this sort of thing does seem to coincide with occasions where I’ve either overloaded on carbs or not eaten, the same happens with intense exercise, and I was thinking that I was just associating panic with the high heart rate. Will keep you all posted. Thanks also for the nice words about the day count – it’s an amazing thing to see the days mount up. And it’s an opportunity to thank this brilliant and supportive community who’ve helped immeasurably in keeping going xxx

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 3 weeks, 4 days ago

    Aw, thanks lovely πŸ™‚ I had some lucozade which is glucose based and it made me feel massively better when I got home – so it really could be that. I also think you’re on to something, little and frequent healthy eating. If I have anything carb heavy or not even that heavy for lunch I find I get really sleepy, not just a post-lunch lull, but a eyes-down full-on need to sleep…. It was such a lovely thing that rainbow xx

    • Have you ever looked into keto eating? It is quite remarkable how many report going off meds, no longer feeling anxiety, no more brain fog and need to sleep after meals. That and so many pain issues better or gone – I am constantly amazed by the reports on our NZ FB page – huge number of people on it, vast array of psychological an physical issues resolved. A bit like giving up drinking – as long as sugar mania doesn’t replace it !

  • claloula posted an update 3 weeks, 4 days ago

    Hey Sober Warriors, D489 – I’ve been struggling a bit with panic attacks, I had one this pm, while walking the dog with my nephew. I’d been feeling a sort of uneasy queasiness earlier, but that stopped with eating. Towards the end of the walk, it increased, I flushed hot and cold and felt super super sick. I had to rush home and as long as I keep moving I’m okay…it calmed down after about 15 minutes but was rather tired. I wondered actually if it isn’t to do with histamine, we’d been walking through fields and I do get hay fever…It’s limiting because I become terrified of them happening again and without being able to run away. Ridiculous – I’ve travelled all over the world, crossed into the West Bank from Jordan on my own, moved to Australia and back, Beirut is my favourite city…. Doc has put antidepressants up to 20mg and I’ve not had any sort of craving for grog other than fleeting thoughts about how a brandy would settle my stomach (but that’s just self-medicating) so need to face things head on. I know year 2 sobriety can be different from the first and a bit of a reality hit, but oof, tricky. On something much brighter, I saw some cloud iridescence (fleeting rainbow) this afternoon which was really beautiful…

    • Hiya, @claloula, whoa your day count looks gigantic. That’s sooo…whoa, well pretty farkin’ wonderful. Hey, sometimes if (I) find myself smacking into that sliding-glass door with the hot/cold, urgent, sharp, uneasy feeling like you describe, it’s usually because my glucose levels are hitting bottom and (I) haven’t been eating/sustaining myself at regular intervals. Might this be a possibility for you? A banana (I hate bananas) here, a few hand-fulls of something there, every couple hrs sort of thing. Fruit works wonders as does a fist-full of spinach or whatever green-leaf thing you’ve got around. Sustenance. Best believe that rainbow was just for you ~

      • Aw, thanks lovely πŸ™‚ I had some lucozade which is glucose based and it made me feel massively better when I got home – so it really could be that. I also think you’re on to something, little and frequent healthy eating. If I have anything carb heavy or not even that heavy for lunch I find I get really sleepy, not just a post-lunch lull, but a eyes-down full-on need to sleep…. It was such a lovely thing that rainbow xx

        • Have you ever looked into keto eating? It is quite remarkable how many report going off meds, no longer feeling anxiety, no more brain fog and need to sleep after meals. That and so many pain issues better or gone – I am constantly amazed by the reports on our NZ FB page – huge number of people on it, vast array of psychological an physical issues resolved. A bit like giving up drinking – as long as sugar mania doesn’t replace it !

    • Yup. Agree with @MalibuStacey. A sugar drop can definitely make you feel that way. Almost 500 days under your belt! That’s the kind of accomplishment that should make you want to jump for joy! Congrats! I hope you feel better.

    • Thanks gorgeous people. I’m going to book an appt with my GP and get some blood tests done. It makes a whole lot of sense actually, I’ve done a ton of work on past trauma – and I know it’s never completely done, but this sort of thing does seem to coincide with occasions where I’ve either overloaded on carbs or not eaten, the same happens with intense exercise, and I was thinking that I was just associating panic with the high heart rate. Will keep you all posted. Thanks also for the nice words about the day count – it’s an amazing thing to see the days mount up. And it’s an opportunity to thank this brilliant and supportive community who’ve helped immeasurably in keeping going xxx

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago

    Bravo you!

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago

    Also, it was a different dental hygienist thank goodness – she was lovely and expressed opinions only about my gums.

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago

    Thanks @freedom1025!! @morgan aw, I think you might be right, definitely revisiting things and differently. Did some nice yoga at home today, but I really love the group classes – once I get there – and I’m really fond of municipal swimming pools (I did a radio programme about them!). I miss the ocean hugely, but I find any sort of water immersion incredibly therapeutic!

    • Also, it was a different dental hygienist thank goodness – she was lovely and expressed opinions only about my gums.

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago

    Thanks! The chances of bumping into him are rare, thankfully! But yeah, it’s quite a “comble” comme on dit… I think it’s a matter of understanding where and when the panic attacks take place. in the past I’d thought of them as a response to drinking too much and they definitely subsided hugely when I stopped drinking. Their resurgence now is challenging because it highlights the self-medication of alcohol (but also the double bind of it – as it actually makes everything so much worse). My challenge today is a racist dental hygienist – hard to argue when she’s got sharp implements in one’s mouth!

    • You could have bitten her 😁😁😳😳
      It sounds as if you are a very brave woman who now has to face past trauma at a deeper level perhaps? Exercise is amazingly helpful I find and yes, getting myself to the gym, or out the door… never ending battle, but I will do it! We will do it!!!💥✨💪

  • claloula posted an update 1 month, 1 week ago

    D473 – my fellow sober warriors, I’ve been really struggling with panic attacks this last week. There’s lots of reasons why and I spoke with my lovely GP about it and we discussed how in the past I would have self-medicated with alcohol. The panic I had on Monday, for example, I thought, this would stop if I could have a brandy etc…in the end, I ran away from a colleague (it’s okay he didn’t take it personally!) and had to catch the bus home. As long as I’m moving or in transit I’m fine. It’s crazy – I’ve travelled by myself all over the world, to the Middle East, the West Bank etc, but going into my home town gives me all the heebie jeebies. I guess I’m encountering things to do with my childhood which was marked by abuse (all resolved in some respects, the perpetrator, a neighbour, went to jail, but is now released and the bus into town goes past the road where he now lives). It’s the anticipation that’s worse – but I find exercise amazingly helpful, it’s just the hurdle of getting to the gym/pool…. It’ll pass, I’m sure, but even well into my second year alcohol free there are interesting times! xxx

    • @claloula – wow, i am not sure anyone could deal with the perpetrator living anywhere within miles of where you are at, the amount of forgiveness, calmness, or whatever it is, i don’t even know, must be incredible. please take care of yourself. geez.

      • Thanks! The chances of bumping into him are rare, thankfully! But yeah, it’s quite a “comble” comme on dit… I think it’s a matter of understanding where and when the panic attacks take place. in the past I’d thought of them as a response to drinking too much and they definitely subsided hugely when I stopped drinking. Their resurgence now is challenging because it highlights the self-medication of alcohol (but also the double bind of it – as it actually makes everything so much worse). My challenge today is a racist dental hygienist – hard to argue when she’s got sharp implements in one’s mouth!

        • You could have bitten her 😁😁😳😳
          It sounds as if you are a very brave woman who now has to face past trauma at a deeper level perhaps? Exercise is amazingly helpful I find and yes, getting myself to the gym, or out the door… never ending battle, but I will do it! We will do it!!!💥✨💪

    • Big hugs!

      • Thanks @freedom1025!! @morgan aw, I think you might be right, definitely revisiting things and differently. Did some nice yoga at home today, but I really love the group classes – once I get there – and I’m really fond of municipal swimming pools (I did a radio programme about them!). I miss the ocean hugely, but I find any sort of water immersion incredibly therapeutic!

        • Also, it was a different dental hygienist thank goodness – she was lovely and expressed opinions only about my gums.

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 2 months ago

    Well done! And how lovely to be looking after your dad in that way!! xx

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 2 months, 1 week ago

    And no-one wants to face a tooth extraction with a hangover! Day 6 is great – ride the cravings like a wave and they’ll dissipate. Keep going!! x

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 2 months, 1 week ago

    yeah, sleep and the need for it is massive. It clears gradually and then the energy starts to come back. If you can just go with it that’s great – and in early days, just staying alcohol free is enough… good on you !

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 2 months, 1 week ago

    Woah! Congrats πŸ™‚ That’s brilliant. D. 442 here and likewise, was a highly functioning alcoholic until it stopped and I was a non-functioning one – it’s amazing have the calm back. Even though things are still tricky and life isn’t perfect, it is better. There is not one decision I’ve made that was a better one for being drunk and plenty that were very dangerous. I always feel like the lights have come back on, the world is brighter, more colourful, more vibrant! xxx

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 2 months, 2 weeks ago

    All love and strength to you and yours, lovely! xx

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 2 months, 3 weeks ago

    Thanks x

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 2 months, 3 weeks ago

    I’m not sure what’s opening up! I’ve just trained as in suicide postvention too so am keen to try and bring all of it together somehow! We’ll see xx

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 2 months, 3 weeks ago

    I’m an academic, I guess -I’ve been a lecturer in French at various places, but when my last job ran out and because of having enough of grumpy professors (and a whole load of gender inequality where I was working) decided to go back to school and did the MA in refugee care – it’s been wonderful, involved a placement working with asylum seekers etc…

    • I remember you writing about that now. Will you work in that field now?

    • I’m not sure what’s opening up! I’ve just trained as in suicide postvention too so am keen to try and bring all of it together somehow! We’ll see xx

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 2 months, 3 weeks ago

    Thanks, lovely xx

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 2 months, 3 weeks ago

    Aw! Thanks – it’s a relief more than anything and true, I was, in the absence of anything pressing to do, thinking I could go out and get smashed – it was really fleeting, but you’re right, it’s like a latent trace. Fancy flowers sounds a lovely idea. The yoga was fab (even if I was leapt upon by a doggie mid relaxation) xx

  • Coucou fellow sober warriors D.431- I’ve finished my MA, honestly it has been so protracted for various reasons but I got the dissertation in finally. It was tough work too, based on work I did in the aftermath of a major fire in London and I was a bit overwhelmed by the end. Have been feeling really tired and a bit off ever since, but it’s good to finish it. It’s my fourth university degree!!! Anyway, for the first time in ages I really fancied a glass of wine – it was transitory but weird. I’m veggie too and really fancied a steak, so lord knows what’s going on. No way would I touch either…. I’m going to find a nice restorative yoga class and set about relaxing. Love you guys who keep me sane xx

    • hey congrats!! I remember when I finished my MA and it really was such a high! Funny that we still have those urges to ‘celebrate’ in the old ways.. but a nice restorative yoga class sounds lovely.. and maybe a huge bunch of fancy flowers or some such?! Good on you! x

      • Aw! Thanks – it’s a relief more than anything and true, I was, in the absence of anything pressing to do, thinking I could go out and get smashed – it was really fleeting, but you’re right, it’s like a latent trace. Fancy flowers sounds a lovely idea. The yoga was fab (even if I was leapt upon by a doggie mid relaxation) xx

    • Congratulations, @claloula! That’s an achievement worth celebrating for sure πŸ™‚

    • Well done!!! Now are you so over qualified employers will be suspicious? (I get a bit of that).
      What is your desired job – or are you in it and have been studying anyway? Been there, done that with babies ARRRRGGGHHHHH

      • I’m an academic, I guess -I’ve been a lecturer in French at various places, but when my last job ran out and because of having enough of grumpy professors (and a whole load of gender inequality where I was working) decided to go back to school and did the MA in refugee care – it’s been wonderful, involved a placement working with asylum seekers etc…

        • I remember you writing about that now. Will you work in that field now?

        • I’m not sure what’s opening up! I’ve just trained as in suicide postvention too so am keen to try and bring all of it together somehow! We’ll see xx

    • Congratulations!

  • D414 – whoop! I remember hitting 14 and thinking two weeks was amazing – it was the longest I’d been alcohol free since I was 17 I think and those early days involved a lot of sleep – when just staying sober was enough for the day. There are occasionally tiny moments when I feel like that again – but I’m so much happier on tea! Mum (I’m still living at home) has stopped drinking too now, she’s on something like 85 days which helps (her drinking was difficult for a while). It’s so true that life becomes both brighter, the colours are more vivid, but at the same time so much calmer – even the good things are measured. I look back and see that so much of my depression, mental health stuff, despair was linked to alcohol – in that it always made it so much worse. I was reckless with myself, my health and with others. It’s self-care and self-love to take that away. Hope the ‘recueillement’ and community responses are helping through the grief, my NZ friends. Big love xoxox

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 3 months, 1 week ago

    That’s wonderful Jessi! Well done – this place is one of such beautiful humanity, I find. xx

  • Love to all you lovely NZ people, I can’t imagine how you must be feeling – but I do know how safe that part of the world feels, so the shock must be terrible, to have hatred so close and so manifest. After the fire at Grenfell, the muslim community response was extraordinary, we were at an event commemorating that recently and it was all framed by this quote of the prophet : ‘the best of people are those that bring most benefit to the rest of mankind’ and I often think of those words in relation to this space and how people support each other. Stay strong, stay resolute. Big love, xxx

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 3 months, 1 week ago

    ❤️

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 3 months, 3 weeks ago

    Thanks, and also in no small way to this wonderful place xx

  • My lovely fellow sober warriors, today is day 400! I can’t imagine how I’ve got here. It’s amazing, but also tricky – I still get quite anxious. Was just last night away at a training weekend and everyone was getting quite enthusiastic about wine (and G and Ts – teachers, especially) and I decided to go to bed early – I didn’t feel under any pressure to drink but I find the company of enthusiastic drinkers a bit meh. Then I left early altogether because was just a bit overwhelmed (it was training in quite a demanding role) but happy once I got in my car on the motorway! I was also doing a late night gig in London earlier in the week – so it has been a challenging one but also wonderful! Anyway, it’s a good milestone!!! xxx

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 3 months, 4 weeks ago

    Awesome!! And yes, the mental space taken up with planning, hangover calculation was bonkers – it’s such a relief to live without it. Yalla towards the 1000!!

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 4 months ago

    Happy birthday!

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 4 months ago

    It’s amazing!! Thanks @suek xxx

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 4 months ago

    Please be careful!! My gardening experience is geraniums in a Parisian window box (they’re all that survived)…..Take it easy xxx

  • claloula posted an update 4 months ago

    Hello lovely people – I just got a new role (it’s still a voluntary one) but it is a very meaningful one for the next three years. I had the interview on Monday and the results today, just after pilates – and the horrible woman wasn’t there :). Actually got there early and another person and I spontaneously set up an impromptu yoga session – she teaches there so we had some yoga music too. I was upside-down in a headstand when everyone else walked in!!! I’ve been doing little bits of painting, just copying images in my diary but I find it so therapeutic. Finally starting to see some weight coming off which adds confidence – it’s through fitness rather than starving. Keep going, amazing sober warriors! xx

    • Ahhh yoga and painting. Two of my life-savers. Congratulations on the new role. That’s brilliant.

    • Ohhh good news all around!!! oxoxoox You deserve all that is good. Yeah to the horrible person not being there!!!

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 4 months ago

    It’s the absolute best!

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