• claloula posted a new activity comment 1 day, 5 hours ago

    Yay! What a lovely milestone! Sobriety feels like the best resistance 🙂 xx

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 1 day, 12 hours ago

    That said, just found an alcohol-free version and ordered – thanks, will let you know how I go!

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 1 day, 12 hours ago

    Yeah, we have that here too – the remedy is actually quite high in alcohol – it’s herbs in brandy! But perhaps the pastilles aren’t?

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 5 days, 11 hours ago

    Aw, thanks! I just don’t want to have an argument….

  • D570 – I like round numbers. I’m struggling with someone else in the house having alcohol, they know it’s difficult for me and are drinking more of it than they say they are and then becoming super cross and belligerent because they’re not a nice drunk. I’m just trying to keep away from it, but it is so bloody trying. Hell is other people, as Sartre pointed out. Otherwise, still not quite coping with anxiety and I broke my effing reading glasses (don’t sit on them, fellow sober warriors) so have to replace the expensive frames, I get a 50% discount mainly because I had a panic attack at the opticians on Thursday, I think. I’ve lots of things coming up that are travel and work related, nice things, trips to Paris and Burgundy and stuff, but I just worry that I won’t be able to cope. Feeling hamstrung and fed up really. xxx

    • First off – congrats on 570! That’s amazing!!! Second, I’m sorry about the person in the house w/ Alcohol. MY husband drinks and sometimes it feels like he drinks EVEN more when he knows i’m trying to stay sober, the struggle is real. All you’ve got is today. Get through these 24 hours. Don’t worry about things that haven’t even happened yet! You will be surprised at how well you CAN cope, you are a warrior!! Have a wonderful day.

    • Hi claloula. I don’t know where you are in the world but here in NZ we have something called ‘rescue remedy’ (from the chemist/pharmacy- over the counter) I use it all the time when feeling stressed or panicky. Maybe you have something similar where ever you are. Good luck!

      • @andieT do you know what is in it? Super curious!

        • I found this on Google…hope it’s useful 🙂

          Rescue Remedy, manufactured by Nelsons, contains five flower essences: Rock Rose to alleviate terror and panic, Impatiens to mollify irritation and impatience, Clematisto combat inattentiveness, Star of Bethlehem to ease shock, and Cherry Plum to calm irrational thoughts.

          We can also get rescue remedy pastilles which are also0 fantastic. Good luck

    • Yeah, we have that here too – the remedy is actually quite high in alcohol – it’s herbs in brandy! But perhaps the pastilles aren’t?

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 2 weeks, 5 days ago

    Thanks everyone! She’s a Scottish terrier, so feisty anyway and she’d got into the pond at the back of the garden – there’s just a freshwater spring and it is deliciously muddy so she was terrifically happy. He’s just got issues he needs to keep to himself.

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 2 weeks, 6 days ago

    Ha! That’s cheered me up no end – he’s a vile old man. I’ve thrown olive stones over the fence before now. You know another thing I just realised that the café where I spent loads of time when I lived in Paris has closed down – it really took my breath away, weird, I know, but I was so happy back then living there….even if beyond the rose-tinted specs there was dodgy stuff going on with alcohol…. I guess it’s also the contrast with here now!

  • claloula posted an update 2 weeks, 6 days ago

    555 days – I don’t check so frequently now, but I like this number 🙂 I’m still working with and through anxiety but generally feel so much better about things – the dog helps. The grumpy neighbour shouted over the fence about the dog barking while playing in the pond, she wasn’t particularly noisy, he was just being a pig – and it made me feel so sick, I have little defence against that sort of irrational anger. There are other dogs barking just as loudly around me as I write this in the garden and no reaction from there at all. Ugh, suburbia is sort of hell on earth. But I got some work done today finally on a very overdue chapter – even finding the right headspace to write has been difficult recently, so that was encouraging. I love this space so much. Thank you xx

    • Great number! Bummer about the fun police yelling at the doggy. The fella must’ve been having a bad day. Christ my Jack Russell barks for life-it’s his favourite thing to do, and when all three of them are going it is fucking annoying so I try and stop them when I’m here. Meh I wanted to tell you to throw poos over his fence but then felt like I shouldn’t encourage this kind of behaviour, but we can chuckle imagining you putting some in a brown paper bag, sneaking over to his house, putting it on the doorstep, setting it on fire and then ringing his doorbell and running away ha ha hah 😉

      • Ha! That’s cheered me up no end – he’s a vile old man. I’ve thrown olive stones over the fence before now. You know another thing I just realised that the café where I spent loads of time when I lived in Paris has closed down – it really took my breath away, weird, I know, but I was so happy back then living there….even if beyond the rose-tinted specs there was dodgy stuff going on with alcohol…. I guess it’s also the contrast with here now!

    • 555 is a great number, good reason to like it. good to hear from you, @claloula. my dogs bark at squirrels, crows, rain, sun, leaves dropping, i am like ro, I try to quell it when I am at home, — sometimes.

    • 555 love that number! I’ve got doxies and doxies are simply vocal. They’re happy dogs and they like to let the world know they’re there.

      If it wasn’t the middle of the night – and your dog wasn’t barking nonstop for hours – tell your neighbor to get a life – then go love your pooch. Life’s too short

      • Thanks everyone! She’s a Scottish terrier, so feisty anyway and she’d got into the pond at the back of the garden – there’s just a freshwater spring and it is deliciously muddy so she was terrifically happy. He’s just got issues he needs to keep to himself.

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 3 weeks, 3 days ago

    Thanks lovely @morgan! I know right? My sister hasn’t had a period in 11 years and seems fine. I’ve got a pelvic ultrasound thing booked at the end of the month so I might mention it to my GP in the follow up after that. xxxx

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 3 weeks, 3 days ago

    Thanks @liberty and for the video ref too. I’m working on the self-care. I had a really good meeting with my therapist this morning too – I actually stayed for all of it, which I didn’t manage last time! I’m taking some time each day to read bits of long long books – Proust and Ulysses – and that’s a lovely bit of time…. xxx

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 3 weeks, 3 days ago

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  • claloula posted a new activity comment 3 weeks, 3 days ago

    Thank!!

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 3 weeks, 5 days ago

    Thanks @aria I do feel safe on the whole, the neighbours seem to have moved on to other things. I’m seeing my counsellor on Thursday – and I find yoga really helpful, but must be disciplined about doing it. I just spoke to my GP about it all and he was lovely and reassuring too.

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 3 weeks, 5 days ago

    Absolutely!

  • claloula posted an update 3 weeks, 5 days ago

    D549: I feel terrified of everything – I’m pre-menstrual so there’s something of that about it, but I’ve got to go and see my GP, routine follow up about those stoopid iron supplements and I’d rather cancel. I’m not going to, but it’s ridiculous. I’ve travelled to the West Bank on my own, I moved to Australia by myself…I just don’t quite get it. I’ve a run of things coming up in September in France which I’ve got to go to, the university has organised my travel, and I know I’ll love it – I love moving around. But, whether it’s because I’ve been upset by those horrible neighbours, or I’m just stuck in the doldrums I don’t know. It’s really frustrating because I could be making better use of this time to finish some writing projects that are hugely overdue, instead I’m just on edge and worried. ARGH. I guess it’s part of facing life full on, raw in tooth and claw….but I wish this would pass xxx

    • It will pass – I’m having a crap day as well – looking forward to it passing.

    • @claloula anxiety is dam rough. Your neighbors can’t be helping. Do you feel safe?
      You are competent and have coped in difficult places as you say. What skills can you use to relax? Breathing, relaxation exercise and rest. I wonder what it is you are thinking?
      Maybe having someone to talk to would help? Take care. Xx

      • Thanks @aria I do feel safe on the whole, the neighbours seem to have moved on to other things. I’m seeing my counsellor on Thursday – and I find yoga really helpful, but must be disciplined about doing it. I just spoke to my GP about it all and he was lovely and reassuring too.

    • I grappled with a lot of fearfulness as an older adult that I didn’t remember as a younger adult and felt sort of ripped off by it @claloula. It was there when I was younger but I was still able to have adventures, grab opportunities…it felt like the package of getting more aware of myself included the dial going up on all these really difficult feelings. I see in my head that this is part of learning how to self-soothe, particularly without the handy numbing effects of alcohol. It’s no picnic though and it’s a hard place to be in. Feeling terrified all the time is exhausting, among other things. 🙁 Glad the GP was helpful. I really want to encourage you to be kind to yourself, although I know it’s hard…. these other parts of ourselves need some time and attention too. xx

      • Thanks @liberty and for the video ref too. I’m working on the self-care. I had a really good meeting with my therapist this morning too – I actually stayed for all of it, which I didn’t manage last time! I’m taking some time each day to read bits of long long books – Proust and Ulysses – and that’s a lovely bit of time…. xxx

    • You can do all those adventurous things, but our chemistry can knock us to the ground. I know that far too well – nightmare of lows, pain, fears every month. It eased with lots of primrose oil and vitamin Bs etc + careful diet the week before – but now my daughter is told miss periods altogether – don’t suffer, and also avoid the before, during and after (more than half my bloody life 🙁 🙁 🙁 ). Have you considered that? It took a woman Dr to reassure her that research shows no problems with it. Take care clever one XXX

      • Thanks lovely @morgan! I know right? My sister hasn’t had a period in 11 years and seems fine. I’ve got a pelvic ultrasound thing booked at the end of the month so I might mention it to my GP in the follow up after that. xxxx

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 3 weeks, 6 days ago

    What a gorgeous post – so lovely to hear your settled, confirmed and secure sobriety! It’s the best thing x

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 3 weeks, 6 days ago

    Yes, it was a weird reminder! Thank you xx

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 4 weeks, 1 day ago

    WOAH, what an amazing milestone. xx

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 4 weeks, 1 day ago

    You poor love! Hope you’re feeling better now xx

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 1 month ago

    Ha! I’m in the UK – frankly they should be giving us morphine shots right now just to cope! It’s an old-fashioned cough and anti-diarrhoea medicine, you’d have to drink pints of the stuff to get a morphine hit, but it helps to stop the griping…I think pharmacies can be quite cautious about dispensing it….

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 1 month ago

    Absolutely, the owner of my flat in Paris left a Figuier room spray when I lived there so I associate it with that too. I used the calculator here to see how much money I’d not spent on grog and would buy myself a candle as a reward. I find they’re a lovely presence for writing too… thanks!!!

  • claloula posted an update 1 month ago

    D545: Ach man, so the iron meds have caused gastritis which is a reminder of the last period of me drinking – burning stomach ache etc. The pharmacist has given me some peppermint oil med with a tiny morphine content in tincture – so a 5ml dose = a teaspoon of a glass of wine, if that. I’m so so cautious about it, but it really helps soothe everything. I’m seeing the GP again next week and will see if can be referred for IV ferritin, I think I’m just super iron intolerant… plus there’s stupid amounts of stress. I have this notion that I’m quite strong, I’ve been through a great deal and I’m quite feisty but am really not that resilient and I’ve really felt stress take a physical toll recently – though at no point any desire to have a drink – and there’s a load of somatic things going on. I guess it’s part of the recovery as things become externalised and noticed. It does also feel like the world has gone crazy…. I loved Mrs D’s idea of little treats and rewards as incremental benefits for getting through things. I spent a fortune on Diptyque candles earlier in this, but being nice to yourself and self care is paramount. Sorry for such a whingy post, but I guess acknowledging where weakness lies is important and knowing how to put in place boundaries to protect all that is something to learn. Take care xxx

    • Oh Diptyque are the best – lovely smells to calm. Good luck with the iron treatments x

      • Absolutely, the owner of my flat in Paris left a Figuier room spray when I lived there so I associate it with that too. I used the calculator here to see how much money I’d not spent on grog and would buy myself a candle as a reward. I find they’re a lovely presence for writing too… thanks!!!

    • Ro replied 1 month ago

      So what country do you live in where you can get morphine in peppermint oil? I want to move there

      • Ha! I’m in the UK – frankly they should be giving us morphine shots right now just to cope! It’s an old-fashioned cough and anti-diarrhoea medicine, you’d have to drink pints of the stuff to get a morphine hit, but it helps to stop the griping…I think pharmacies can be quite cautious about dispensing it….

      • Ha! @Ro

    • Oh I so would have loved a few drops of that today after my gall bladder attack. The stomach cramps were horrid.

    • ugh, @claloula, i almost forgot about that burning stomach feeling, pain, nausea, so sorry to hear that you are feeling that, but taking care of yourself, congrats.

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 1 month ago

    Well done! That cup of tea becomes increasingly delicious, I find! Keep going xx

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 1 month ago

    They’ve started again this morning. It’s making me ill.

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 1 month ago

    Congrats! That’s such a brilliant milestone. What a lovely wise post too xx

  • claloula posted an update 1 month ago

    Oh lads, so having organised my bright and early Ocado delivery, the van turns up with a picture on the side of a MASSIVE CAT – my dog goes ballistic because there’s a van outside with a massive cat on it. Anyway, the neighbours here are just horrible and for various reasons have made things difficult (sending a man with a chainsaw in my garden without asking first sort of thing), anyway, they hate the dog and they hate me, and just had the most bruising encounter where she told me I was sick in head because I objected to her putting the Daily Mail in the windows to their extension with windows which overlook the back garden (!!), and then most horrible of all she made reference to the voluntary work I do, she must have found out somehow, and that I was in fact abusing her and her husband as vulnerable people (they’re really not) – she was going to phone the charity and complain etc… First, the Daily Mail have literally published hatchet jobs on friends of mine and whatever your politics that’s pretty vile and second, it really hurt. I love the work I do, I wrote to my branch manager straight away to tell him and he’s like, Claire, it’s fine, this is nothing whatsoever to do with your work for us etc,….but it completely broke me, I just wept for ages and listened to some music (quite loudly) but like Bach and Wagner (because, la classe quoi) and have slowly recovered. One amazing thing is that at no point in it did I think, feck it, I’m going to have a drink or that I needed one. I had some fresh mint tea but couldn’t face eating anything. You know when people just know how to skewer you and don’t have the edit button not to do it, well that’s what happened. It’s made me realise that I really need to move back to the city and also that I’m not very strong in these situations, and very easily provoked emotionally. I’ve a history of horrible abuse that involved a next-door neighbour and I guess it taps into that somehow, sense of space and safety being…[Read more]

    • Horrible people, but sounds like you are very good at protecting and nurturing yourself. Take care

    • dang, what crazy people they are. what a pain that they interfered with your peace. i hate it for you, @claloula. congrats on day 541.

    • Oh, there are some horrid people in the world. I’m glad you aren’t made vulnerable to them because of drink.💛

    • They’ve started again this morning. It’s making me ill.

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 1 month ago

    Back then, it was a forum rather like this one and it’s changed into a sort of app and rather lost it’s way, I think. Sober lazing is a gorgeous indulgence!

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 1 month ago

    Congrats!! xx

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 1 month ago

    What a gorgeous post! I know just what you mean about that hour at social events and then the alcohol takes over, it means one can sneak off though without anyone noticing. I also wince frequently at the danger I used to put myself in when drinking (and sometimes there were horrible consequences), it’s a sobering thought and also a relief to be on the other side of it. take care x

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 1 month ago

    I love that phrase ‘a box of birds’ xx

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 1 month ago

    Sounds very familiar to me – are you keeping hydrated? I slept a huge amount in the first couple of weeks as the system readjusts quite dramatically. It’s quite usual to have a sort of dip in the afternoon, anyway so perhaps have a snack on something sweet, that might help the headache. I get those symptoms of fatigue with an iron deficiency so perhaps check you’re getting enough of that. Good to know it passes. Great stuff on day 8 and those bright mornings are a boon xx

    • Thank you! Looking forward to continuing my AF journey and losing the aches and pains soon!

  • claloula posted an update 1 month ago

    D540, an unexpected joy of being sober? Not thinking twice about an Ocado delivery at 6 am on a Sunday morning. It was when I was living in Sydney that I discovered the Hello Sunday Morning site which helped rethink things about alcohol, even if I didn’t manage to stop for a couple of years afterwards. It’s a delightful concept to go against the trend of the hungover Sunday morning, even if sleeping in because the prospect of a busy week can be stressful is therapeutic, but you actually gain more weekend by not spending much of it in oblivion or waiting to feel well enough to find oblivion again. Love you guys!

    • Ohh sounds interesting, will have a look thanks! I’m loving no hangover mornings but still can’t get my lazy but outta bed! 😕

      • Back then, it was a forum rather like this one and it’s changed into a sort of app and rather lost it’s way, I think. Sober lazing is a gorgeous indulgence!

    • Yes you can’t beat a sober weekend morning there are just so many more hours in the day 🙂

    • I used to hate myself when I would drink way too much and end up in bed until 10AM on a Sunday morning, only to wake up feeling like total shit. I love so much more sleeping in only until 7am, and waking up feeling awesome, with more of my Sunday to enjoy!!

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago

    I can get spatone on prescription apparently and I’m not paying for those at the moment! I know, right? I’ve been having a load of weird symptoms, attributing them to psychological things (which admittedly some of them might be) and it makes sense – I’m a veggie (though as a meat eater would chow down a rare steak and foie de veau) so it’s prob just reinforced a latent issue. Tea, of which I drink gallons, doesn’t help either… The doc is checking again in a couple of months, so inchallah something works! Thanks Ro xx

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago

    I do! Thanks xx

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago

    Thanks Ro – I have some spatone which seems much nicer than the tablets! Fingers crossed!

    • Seriously Floradix is real yum. I shit thee not. Google it and check out the ingredients. So easy to skull. Delicious. Oh but actually now I come to think of it I ended up buying the tabs as it was easier to have them and it worked out cheaper. That’s the only problem with it- it costs way more. But round about $20 ish for 84? tabs. I hope you feel better fast- I did. If only I’d known I was deficient sooner I wouldn’t have bothered doing other remedies

    • I can get spatone on prescription apparently and I’m not paying for those at the moment! I know, right? I’ve been having a load of weird symptoms, attributing them to psychological things (which admittedly some of them might be) and it makes sense – I’m a veggie (though as a meat eater would chow down a rare steak and foie de veau) so it’s prob just reinforced a latent issue. Tea, of which I drink gallons, doesn’t help either… The doc is checking again in a couple of months, so inchallah something works! Thanks Ro xx

  • claloula posted an update 1 month, 1 week ago

    D535 here lovely sober warriors. I’ve been prescribed iron tablets for amaenia and they’re truly evil – have started on a liquid version today which is meant to be much better. I’m also getting headaches but feel so damn sluggish, it’s like a distant reminder of a hangover! I didn’t get a job that I sort of wanted and had to fill-in a health assessment thing which is to do with the occasional panic attacks I get along with anxiety, depression seems to be in abeyance. I wonder if there’s a part of this which involves really facing the world again and being completely terrified of doing so – because I’m dead scared quite frequently. I wake up with clenched fists. I’m hoping it passes soon….love xx

    • Floradix iron supplement – get your hands on some – so much easier on your system 😊

      • Thanks Ro – I have some spatone which seems much nicer than the tablets! Fingers crossed!

        • Seriously Floradix is real yum. I shit thee not. Google it and check out the ingredients. So easy to skull. Delicious. Oh but actually now I come to think of it I ended up buying the tabs as it was easier to have them and it worked out cheaper. That’s the only problem with it- it costs way more. But round about $20 ish for 84? tabs. I hope you feel better fast- I did. If only I’d known I was deficient sooner I wouldn’t have bothered doing other remedies

        • I can get spatone on prescription apparently and I’m not paying for those at the moment! I know, right? I’ve been having a load of weird symptoms, attributing them to psychological things (which admittedly some of them might be) and it makes sense – I’m a veggie (though as a meat eater would chow down a rare steak and foie de veau) so it’s prob just reinforced a latent issue. Tea, of which I drink gallons, doesn’t help either… The doc is checking again in a couple of months, so inchallah something works! Thanks Ro xx

    • Aaawww! You wake up with clenched fists? I’m sorry, honey, but well done on 535 days!

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago

    I bloody love you @janus2 from a big old distance – so sorry things are horrible and tough. All strength and positive thoughts to you. Keep going, breath by breath…and we’re here xx

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago

    Happy birthday!

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 1 month, 2 weeks ago

    Thanks y’all!!! I’m not sure about going to graduation, I think this year is too soon (and that’s when my cohort would be graduating) and next year I won’t know anyone. The only thing is that the chancellor is the Speaker in the House of Commons and I LOVE him….and I quite like the ceremony of it all! Am very grateful for all your lovely words xxx

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 1 month, 2 weeks ago

    Welcome! x

  • Fellow Sober warriors, I finally got my Masters result and it wasn’t borderline, but a very comfortable DISTINCTION!!! Whoop! I’m really pleased, I stopped drinking in Jan 2018, mid-way through the course and it’s been a jumbled up old time with recovery, reset, reworking, revisiting – all the ‘re’ things that seem to happen when life isn’t being run away from! So I celebrated with a fine cup of Yorkshire Tea, a long bath and an early night. Heaven. Courage lovelies xx

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 1 month, 2 weeks ago

    I love frog!

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 1 month, 2 weeks ago

    Absolutely, me too – I think my drinking was all about evading just that, not sure what I was scared of finding!!

  • 525 days! I remember right at the beginning been cheered for achieving 20 days, mainly because to many it seemed such an implausible feat! It was like the switch had flipped. Life still happens and it is still often difficult, I’ve had to revisit a lot of stuff that I was self-medicating about and it’s taken a while and I don’t think it’ll stop. Around the same time (and looking back perhaps not coincidentally) as stopping alcohol I became more determined to bring activism into my research – to be out there in the world and doing things, with refugees, offering emotional support, doing postvention work and suicide prevention. At the same time, I’ve also become a bit of a recluse as I’ve been sorting out things too. But the best thing is cultivating this sort of self-curiosity. What it is it I really want when I think I fancy a g and t? Is it a walk and some fresh air, do I need a hug? I’m I hungry etc…it’s always something else once the immediate withdrawal is done. So pleased to see new people here – I love this community – and it just helps so so much to have people supporting you, understanding what it is, clear that the social narratives at work about alcohol are completely insane…. it’s a positively subversive thing to counter all of that with the side effect of feeling so much better! Thanks y’all xx

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 1 month, 2 weeks ago

    WHHHOOOOP!!! xx

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 1 month, 2 weeks ago

    Seconded! This is one of the loveliest places on earth where you can be candid, honest, fall on and off wagons, hate the world and all in it and no-one judges – the support is incredible, even if you just lurk around. We love joy too – and that there is aplenty. Welcome.

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 1 month, 3 weeks ago

    Welcome!

    • Thanks for reaching out. I’m new to this. Cautiously curious about social media and using it for encouragement.

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 1 month, 3 weeks ago

    And me – ❤️ xx

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 1 month, 3 weeks ago

    @morgan I realise I wrote ‘borderline distinction’ which read quickly could read like borderline disorder! Ach, sorry to hear about those incidences of it – it’s a tough thing. I could launch into a whole rant about DSM diagnoses – which can be really helpful sometimes, including in a private healthcare system where a diagnosis is recognised by insurance, for example, and for drug companies who can invent the pill for the disorder ( thank god we still have the NHS in the UK) but it can also really define someone rather too much; human subjectivity is much more complicated and mutable than all that. Anyway, THANK YOU – still no news but once there is I can send a version of the dissertation for review to publication which is what I really want to happen. Did you get your nap xx

  • claloula posted a new activity comment 1 month, 3 weeks ago

    I’m not sure I’ve understood, lovely! I’m waiting for the final results of a masters degree (the MA)! And the low iron a result of a blood test so I’m seeing the GP next week to get that sorted! The van der Kolk book was referenced in one of the seminars on neuropsych, for which I’ve less time than for yoga! I found it really useful in that there are past traumas lurking about that need some attention and it gave me a way to do that. I’ve also really rediscovered a strongish yoga practice which had got lost in the midst of heavy drinking and subsequent recovery, and I’m finding it really helpful in lots of ways, as well as challenging and all sorts of side benefits that go along with it. I think that sort of curiosity about how you’re working, thinking and feeling is an amazing way to be the ‘expert on yourself’ as you say…xxx

    • Oh bloody hell, sorry, completely misread , racing, multi tasking….and mixed you up with someone who was being assessed for BPD – read MD, thinking Dr, lord, scary left field mix up… I have a colleague and family member both diagnosed and self diagnosed, so it was much on my mind – but time to slow down for sure.
      So, maybe DISTINCTION!!! Go you. Now I am up to speed (though considering a nap 🤣) Heard yet?
      So sorry. Duh.

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