I am a 57 yr old woman. A wife. A mother. A grandmother. Work in the Health Sector and I'm a drunk. I have been heavily drinking since my teens except when pregnant. I am ashamed of myself and I am not living the life I want too. I need help.
Day 43 and feel like I’ve been doing so well and out of the blue today comes the thought I’d love a wine !!! Not going too but scary that it would be so easy to pour a glass and think one won’t hurt. I know it would and undo everything that I feel I’ve achieved. Reading through latest comments and yeah I’m worried about Christmas.We holiday with the same people every year and booze is a huge part of it. Going to be tough.
@changedlife those thoughts pop up, sometimes quite randomly. The more you flick them away, the easier it becomes. Building strong sober muscles. Worry about the Christmas parties on the day of. Just focus on today. You’re doing really well!!
@Changedlife, about 4 months in a hidden trigger popped up out of the blue and nearly knocked me over. I rode in an elevator at my old workplace. @DaveH explained that my brain thought it was going to meet friends after work for drinks. I could taste that drink, here the people, feel the buzz! It’s because I hadn’t encountered that trigger yet, but next time I do, it won’t be as strong. There are these little time bombs all over the place and we need to know that and move on. Good for you for moving on! As for Christmas, it’s not an excuse to drink. You don’t drink for others’ pleasure. Have a great day and Congrats on 43!