Hi, I was hoping I would hear from you @Mari135. Your posts always have such calmness and wisdom to them. I aspire to achieve some of what you have. I did think about your questions about childhood and I have my theories about that. I think my drinking stems from constant anxiety and worry about life now and in the future. It is endless and constant. Perhaps no alcohol will end this. I used to be happy-go-lucky but pragmatic. Measured and calm. I will be sticking to this place like glue.