• Bisok posted a new activity comment 2 weeks, 4 days ago

    Good on you and enjoy! I am normally an early riser, I las if I’ve wasted my day if I wake at 6! Lol But, 4, is a bit early for even me and am hoping it subsides.

  • Bisok posted a new activity comment 2 weeks, 4 days ago

    @Narley Thanks! I’m sure it’ll be tempting to drink since Boys Town will be free-flowing mayhem but I plan to breath my way through it and enjoy the actual reason for the day. Enjoy your first sober Pride in August!!! 🌈

  • Bisok posted an update 2 weeks, 4 days ago

    Good morning, day 14!! And good morning, 4am… again! Ugh. I am SO happy that by day’s end I’ll have booked a solid two weeks but these 4 am mornings are taking a toll. It doesn’t matter what time I go to bed, I’m wide awake at 4. It’s a small price to pay for sobriety, I realize, and I’m hoping normal sleep patterns emerge with additional sober time. Today I’m going to Pride it up at the Chicago parade. It is always a wildly good time, one I’ve usually done off my face but I’m looking forward to actually collecting some good memories this year. I hope everyone had a sober and blissful weekend!!! 🌈

    • 🌈 Nice! Have a great time at pride in Chicago! I’ll be enjoying my first sober pride in Brighton Uk in August 🙂 I’m really looking forward to enjoying it with my family and friends being completely sober and able to enjoy the experience to its fullest 🌈

      • @Narley Thanks! I’m sure it’ll be tempting to drink since Boys Town will be free-flowing mayhem but I plan to breath my way through it and enjoy the actual reason for the day. Enjoy your first sober Pride in August!!! 🌈

    • Good morning and congrats on two weeks! Early riser too but that was with or without alcohol but one thing for sure my sleep is so much better AF. It’s day 8 for me and the wife and I are headed to Pride in Seattle, same as you there will be loads of opportunities for booze but I didn’t drink yesterday and I will not drink today. Have a great day.

      • Good on you and enjoy! I am normally an early riser, I las if I’ve wasted my day if I wake at 6! Lol But, 4, is a bit early for even me and am hoping it subsides.

  • Bisok posted a new activity comment 2 weeks, 4 days ago

    Sounds like a great day!

  • Bisok posted a new activity comment 2 weeks, 4 days ago

    A day at the lake sounds lovely, enjoy!

  • Bisok posted a new activity comment 2 weeks, 4 days ago

    Better age than seizures😉 Seriously though, it’s your journey and you start it when and how you feel works best for you. Best of luck!!

  • Bisok posted a new activity comment 2 weeks, 5 days ago

    Great job on 16 days!!

  • Bisok posted a new activity comment 2 weeks, 5 days ago

    I LOVE Annie Grace’s books! I just finished The Unexpected Joy of Being Sober by Catherine Gray and I loved that as well.

  • Bisok posted a new activity comment 2 weeks, 5 days ago

    Thanks @Lucy! The continual relapses are so disheartening. I want off this stupid ride!! I have made sobriety my number one priority and am soaking up as many articles, books, blogs and videos on sobriety as I can. A bit obsessively but it’s how I roll. 😜

    • Same here Annie Grace’s book “This Naked Mind” totally strips how we think about alcohol.. really opened my eyes.. I’m buying and reading loads to… best thing xx

  • Bisok posted a new activity comment 2 weeks, 5 days ago

    @freedom1025 That’s also how I’m trying to look at it, take what I’ve learned from my failure and build on them. Thanks and have a great day as well!!

  • Bisok posted a new activity comment 2 weeks, 5 days ago

    Sounds like a great weekend! I skipped Chicago Pride last weekend because I usually drink heavily at the parade and felt it best to be tempted! Enjoy your hike and weekend!

  • Bisok posted a new activity comment 2 weeks, 5 days ago

    Wolfe, I like that. The name not the voice, of course. I find the “toddler screaming for ice cream in the back seat” tool useful when my voice acts up. Remember you’re in the driver’s seat and they can’t get ice cream on their own and will eventually tire of screaming. Best of luck!!

  • Bisok posted a new activity comment 2 weeks, 5 days ago

    Sounds like a great night! Good on you!

  • Bisok posted an update 2 weeks, 5 days ago

    Good morning, day 13!! This marks the longest I’ve been continually sober in months and I am so grateful and relieved. Don’t get my wrong, it’s not a white knuckle ditch but after so many earnest attempts that ended in failure, I am VERY mindful of where/how I fell off “last time”. And, sadly, I think I’ve lost trust in myself because those other attempts were just as heartfelt and I wasn’t strong enough to see them through. ☹️ But, I spent first night of solo weekend sober and plan to be diligent about the rest of the weekend as well. Wishing all members a healthy, blissful and sober week’s end!!!! ❤️ 🎉

    • Congrats on 13 days!! Don’t beat yourself up … I had so many day 1’s I lost count. We tried our best with the tools and support we had at the time. And we did learn from it. And we’re here now with our eyes wide open to the benefits of being sober! Have a great day.

      • @freedom1025 That’s also how I’m trying to look at it, take what I’ve learned from my failure and build on them. Thanks and have a great day as well!!

    • I’m with you on all of it @Bisok.. fed up with doing so well and then relapsing.. I’m very careful with my feelings and thoughts now and really going for sobriety big time.. congrats 13 day my love. xxx

      • Thanks @Lucy! The continual relapses are so disheartening. I want off this stupid ride!! I have made sobriety my number one priority and am soaking up as many articles, books, blogs and videos on sobriety as I can. A bit obsessively but it’s how I roll. 😜

        • Same here Annie Grace’s book “This Naked Mind” totally strips how we think about alcohol.. really opened my eyes.. I’m buying and reading loads to… best thing xx

      • I LOVE Annie Grace’s books! I just finished The Unexpected Joy of Being Sober by Catherine Gray and I loved that as well.

    • Good good good for you @Bisok. I think the key word here is “mindful.” I tried moderating – played every stupid game there is – and failed every single time. But once I wrapped my mind around it – it stuck. Totally agree with @Lucy. The Naked Mind was a real game changer for me. Keep going. You got this now.

    • Maybe this is just the right time for you now. You are doing great- the two week mark was a big deal for me. You can do this @bisok

  • Bisok posted a new activity comment 2 weeks, 6 days ago

    @mari135 I may be one here a lot this weekend. I wish I had found this site SO long ago, it’s wonderful! No one understands an addict like an addict and it’s comforting to see others win their battles.

  • Bisok posted a new activity comment 2 weeks, 6 days ago

    @mandles Sweets are my new bff! I’m trying to keep it under wraps but I also decided that this fortnight it’s ok to indulge.

  • Bisok posted a new activity comment 2 weeks, 6 days ago

    @jmtn I like the thought that drinking today steals tomorrow ‘s happiness, because it does.

  • Bisok posted a new activity comment 2 weeks, 6 days ago

    @jocord Funny you mention getting up early, I haven’t slept past 4 am since I quit so that’s nearly guaranteed. Lol

  • Bisok posted a new activity comment 2 weeks, 6 days ago

    @aprilsfool well, best laid plans , right? Jk I am hyper-aware of how challenging this weekend may be so I will try to not lose site of it.

  • Bisok posted a new activity comment 2 weeks, 6 days ago

    @cascadeclimer Thank you! And I wish you the same.

  • Bisok posted an update 2 weeks, 6 days ago

    Tomorrow is day 12 and my second sober weekend, first one flying solo. When I drink, it’s always alone. No one to judge me. My sober plans to make it through to day 14 includes; gardening, painting, pup to the vet and some exercise to replenish those endorphins. I have been to this place, what feels like, a million times but am going in again with a plan and determination. Hope everyone has a serene and sober weekend!! 🧘🏻‍♂️

    • Sounds great, I wish you the very best!

    • Great. I’ve found that having a plan is the best defense. It sound like you got this. Have a great day 14.

    • Good job! Enjoy getting up early and feeling good. Go to bed early and don’t make yourself feel guilty if you don’t get a lot done.

    • Stay strong, stick with your plan, and keep playing it forward when/if necessary. You’re a few days ahead of me and I totally know what you mean by being there so many times before and drinking alone. Check in often. You’ve got this!

    • Good luck, have a sugar fest, that might work as it would make you feel treated…
      X

    • Day 12, you got this. We will be here if you need an ear or five hundred.
      🙂
      oxoxox

      • @mari135 I may be one here a lot this weekend. I wish I had found this site SO long ago, it’s wonderful! No one understands an addict like an addict and it’s comforting to see others win their battles.

  • Bisok posted a new activity comment 2 weeks, 6 days ago

    It’s insidious the way this addiction works. The only real failure would be to stop trying to quit.

  • Bisok posted a new activity comment 2 weeks, 6 days ago

    Great job!

  • Bisok posted a new activity comment 3 weeks ago

    Those are both great!

  • Bisok posted a new activity comment 3 weeks ago

    It can be terrifying but you can do it and it IS worth it! Good luck. You got this!

  • Bisok posted a new activity comment 3 weeks ago

    Congrats on the days! Impressive!

  • Bisok posted a new activity comment 3 weeks ago

    Thanks! It’s been far too long since I could claim the double digits so I’m tentatively optimistic!! And your comments and support are very much appreciated. I just stumbled upon this site and am finding it, and all of you, very helpful!!

  • Bisok posted a new activity comment 3 weeks, 1 day ago

    @sam27 I can’t imagine your pain. I am so very sorry about your son. You show amazing strength in going on.

  • Bisok posted a new activity comment 3 weeks, 1 day ago

    @rineylou Great post! Congrats, happy for you and your share gives me hope.

  • Bisok posted an update 3 weeks, 1 day ago

    First morning of double digits, day 10, in a few months and it feels goooood! My goal is to keep stringing days together and am so grateful for the chance to do so. I hope everyone has a great day!

    • Awesome double digits! Have a great day @bisok !

    • Congrats on double digits!

    • Yah for you. Keep going. Everyday you will feel better 😁

    • Thanks! It’s been far too long since I could claim the double digits so I’m tentatively optimistic!! And your comments and support are very much appreciated. I just stumbled upon this site and am finding it, and all of you, very helpful!!

  • Bisok posted a new activity comment 3 weeks, 2 days ago

    Thanks @tom4500! The first time I got sober I don’t recall having so many lingering physical symptoms but I couldn’t agree with you more on the not wanting to do 1-9 over!

  • Bisok posted a new activity comment 3 weeks, 2 days ago

    Thanks again!

  • Bisok posted an update 3 weeks, 2 days ago

    Sliding into day 10 and feeling pretty great. Still sleeping like shit and my stomach still hurts a decent amount but according to The Drinking Expert, “the kick” only lasts 10 days so I’m hopeful for an even better tomorrow.

    • Yep that first couple of weeks is pretty intense….maybe even the first month, but yes, for me each day got better. I sure wouldn’t want to do days 2 – 10 over again, so figure that those ten days are very valuable time spent. (Day 1 was a crashing hangover for me, so it was easy not drinking that day, and I don’t count it.)

      • Thanks @tom4500! The first time I got sober I don’t recall having so many lingering physical symptoms but I couldn’t agree with you more on the not wanting to do 1-9 over!

    • Congrats on getting to day 10!

  • Bisok posted a new activity comment 3 weeks, 2 days ago

    Congrats on a great day!

  • Bisok posted a new activity comment 3 weeks, 2 days ago

    I’m not even sure it was a conscious choice to pick up, I was HAPPY sober, and then one day I was drinking again. I know that sounds rather daft but I search my mind to find that one decision to pick up and I can’t. And now I’ve been trying to get back for as long as I was sober. It makes me feel very weak and disgusted with myself.

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  • Bisok posted a new activity comment 3 weeks, 2 days ago

    I did AA in 2013 when I initially got sober and it was a mixed bag for me. I found it very “clicky “ and even after years of attending the same meeting, I never felt like I belonged. Being an atheist may have had something to do with it. I was forever caught one step step 1.

  • Bisok posted a new activity comment 3 weeks, 2 days ago

    I am very hopeful about this site and in general.

  • Bisok posted an update 3 weeks, 2 days ago

    Officially starting day 9 now. I previously had 3.5 yrs sober and it’s taken me just as long struggling to get back to full sobriety.

    • My longest was around 8 months but I have never had a support system such as this site.

    • Hey @itsnowornever. I drink more when I go to AA–its the stress I think of having to explain oneself face to face and I do believe some become addicted to it like a cult. This site is precious. im sticking with it.

    • I hear you…it took me 7 years to get back. Don’t stop trying.

      • I’m not even sure it was a conscious choice to pick up, I was HAPPY sober, and then one day I was drinking again. I know that sounds rather daft but I search my mind to find that one decision to pick up and I can’t. And now I’ve been trying to get back for as long as I was sober. It makes me feel very weak and disgusted with myself.

    • I did AA in 2013 when I initially got sober and it was a mixed bag for me. I found it very “clicky “ and even after years of attending the same meeting, I never felt like I belonged. Being an atheist may have had something to do with it. I was forever caught one step step 1.

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