I have battled heavy alcohol abuse for most of my life. I have had good long periods of abstinence but the risk and failure is ever present. My wife is long suffering. I have tried to be a good role model to my kids, but they have seen the best and worst of me. Very angry about the alcohol rich environment I was bought up in, and have been very conscious of that with my own. Cautiously optimistic as I move into Day 35. Life is pretty fantastic now. Clarity is my drive and nirvana.