I have battled heavy alcohol abuse for most of my life. I have had good long periods of abstinence but the risk and failure is ever present. My wife is long suffering. I have tried to be a good role model to my kids, but they have seen the best and worst of me. Very angry about the alcohol rich environment I was bought up in, and have been very conscious of that with my own. Cautiously optimistic as I move into Day 35. Life is pretty fantastic now. Clarity is my drive and nirvana.
@seizetheday your truth and honesty resonate deeply with me. The planning, the lies and deception were all too common and eventually became the norm. I functioned brilliantly. With my wife’s support we managed to deceive everyone, and worse still I deceived her. My consumption was beyond her imagination. But she stood by me. I have managed long periods of sobriety and I am confident this has the makings of a long one. But the addiction made me unreasonable. I am angry and bitter about the addiction and more so about the reasons for my addiction. An environment and childhood where alcohol was a regular occurrence and it was written in the stars, I was normalised to alcohol and addiction. I yearn to be at peace with my past so I can move on with confidence to the future. Alcohol will be the death of me, I am better than that. Thank you and good luck.
Yup you are better than that. You are worth more than that liquid that’s been poured down your throat, that changes who you truly are. Even a lifetime of drinking can be turned around. There’s so much help on here, baby steps and you can really do this xo