Around six years ago I went to a counsellor for stress/anxiety/depression. She quickly spotted the signs and referred me to ‘CADS’ (alcohol/drugs addiction support service) - I had in fact spent many years aware my drinking was spiralling. I was the typical ‘party girl’ turned ‘social mum drinker’ but for me I couldn’t control it.Two years of addiction counselling aimed at reducing my drinking failed to get me below a bottle of wine a day and I ended up going through a medical detox in March 2015 with an initial goal of three months dry. A year later, another detox March 2016.Reflecting on three years later, in some ways I feel I’ve failed - I haven’t stayed ‘clean’ all that time though I’ve had periods (up to 400 days) of being so. In other ways I congratulate myself that I’ve drunk probably less than 5% of what I did in the preceding 3 years.However my goal remaings ‘living sober’ and I continue to re-commit to that. This community really helped me stay sober for the first 400 days, and since then the friendships I’ve formed here have helped me not fully relapse to the bad old days. March 31 2019 and I am looking forward positively and hope.
Just checking into the new site at last! It has been a long and fraught year and I am looking forward to a re-set for 2019. But before that I am looking forward to our Auckland catchup on Saturday-thanks for organising @enzedgirl 😍