Around six years ago I went to a counsellor for stress/anxiety/depression. She quickly spotted the signs and referred me to ‘CADS’ (alcohol/drugs addiction support service) - I had in fact spent many years aware my drinking was spiralling. I was the typical ‘party girl’ turned ‘social mum drinker’ but for me I couldn’t control it.
Two years of addiction counselling aimed at reducing my drinking failed to get me below a bottle of wine a day and I ended up going through a medical detox in March 2015 with an initial goal of three months dry. A year later, another detox March 2016.
Reflecting on three years later, in some ways I feel I’ve failed - I haven’t stayed ‘clean’ all that time though I’ve had periods (up to 400 days) of being so. In other ways I congratulate myself that I’ve drunk probably less than 5% of what I did in the preceding 3 years.
However my goal remaings ‘living sober’ and I continue to re-commit to that. This community really helped me stay sober for the first 400 days, and since then the friendships I’ve formed here have helped me not fully relapse to the bad old days. March 31 2019 and I am looking forward positively and hope.
Oh wonderful! I just updated my profile pic and posted a ‘three year nearly-soberversary’ update but I can’t see them online. I hope they appear at some stage! you’ve been a big part of my journey and I thank you.
Oh that is fantastic. I’m so happy with you and its been very special sharing the journey with you. I’m bummed I can’t get to the next ChCh gathering but I do get to Christchurch a bit for work this year so maybe I’ll come and visit your pub sometime!.
yes it’s pretty hard to confront thoughts like that. the booze was pretty handy for burying any emotion you didn’t want to deal with. hope you are able to find some level of comfort in being able to sitting and acception your feelings. this too shall pass xxx
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